Envy

Previously, Katelyn had surrounded herself with bright walls, purple bedding, and pictures of horses and orcas plastered everywhere. All of that was gone. The walls had been painted a dark, foreboding gray—a rebellion from Port Gamble’s newly enforced white interior decor edict for its historic homes. Katelyn’s animal posters had been replaced with images of wan, sad girls and ripped guys with Abercrombie abs. They were hot, hard, and probably without a single brainwave firing inside their bleached, tousled heads. Hayley and Taylor didn’t have any qualms about the way those guys looked, but like most girls in Kitsap County, they’d never seen one in the flesh.

Okay, maybe one. But Colton James wasn’t blond.

Without saying a word, they walked toward the bathroom.

Taylor knelt down next to the tub. It was a big old claw-foot, the exact same vintage as the tub in their house. It had not been re-enameled like the Ryans’, however. The surface of Katelyn’s was more cream than white, pitted in spots that made it appear dirty. Taylor could imagine Mrs. Berkley telling her daughter to “use some damn elbow grease!” when she told her to clean it.

Or was she imagining it? Sometimes she didn’t know where her thoughts came from. Other times, however, Taylor was absolutely sure they came from a source outside of herself.

Hayley left her sister alone. She was drawn toward a small desk next to Katelyn’s unmade bed. A lamp with a breaching orca as its base, some black markers, and a couple of small framed photos caught her eye, but she dismissed all of that. Even though those items had a definite personal connection with their dead friend, they didn’t beckon for her to touch them. Her fingertips were hot, moist. There was a feeling in her stomach, knotted like a bag of jump ropes, that made her feel queasy—not throwing-up sick, but the kind of feeling that comes just before the onset of the flu. She was a little light-headed too. Her heartbeat pushed inside her rib cage.

This wasn’t the first time she’d experienced being drawn to an object. Neither twin could explain the sensation or the visions that sometimes came afterward. They had little control over it.

It was Katelyn’s laptop that had lured Hayley to come closer. She drew a deep, calming breath and touched the keyboard. Nothing. She closed her eyes and ran her fingers over the screen like a blind girl might do with a book in Braille. She could feel her heart rate surge a little more. It was a peculiar feeling that had more to do with fear than excitement.

Something. She felt something. She imagined the folds of her brain tightening around something.

Taylor put her hand on her sister’s shoulder, and Hayley spun around.

“Holy crap, Tay! I hate it when you do that.”

“Then keep your eyes open. Time to get out of here.”

Hayley shook her head and felt the keyboard once more. “I’m almost there. I need just a second more.”

“Now!” Taylor said without any ambivalence in her voice.

Hayley pushed back at her sister. She didn’t want to leave. Not just then. “We can’t leave yet. I’m not ready.”

“You don’t get it, Hayley,” Taylor said, her voice rising louder, loud enough to drive the point without alerting the odd cadre of mourners downstairs. “We’re not wanted here.”

Hayley had thought the same thing, especially about Katelyn’s grandmother, but she needed more time.

“This is where Katelyn was murdered,” she said.

Taylor’s eyes widened. “Murdered?”

“That’s the feeling I’m getting. You try it.”

As Taylor nodded and braced herself, the bedroom door swung open. Both girls screamed.

“Who said you two could come up here?”

It was Katelyn’s mom, wobbling in the doorway.

“Sorry,” Taylor said, unconsciously inching back, away from her. “We just wanted to—”

Hayley interrupted her sister. “To be close to Katelyn.”

Sandra Berkley looked over at the laptop, which was still open and emitting the telltale glow that it was in use.

“Were you trying to read her private journal?” Sandra’s eyes were rheumy, and it was obvious that it was more than the effects of a mixed drink that had brought her to tears that day.

Taylor snapped the lid shut. “No. No. Not at all. We didn’t even, um, know she had a journal.”

Hayley nodded briskly. “We had no idea Katelyn wrote anything down,” she said.

Sandra walked over to the window and looked out across the yard to the Larsens’ place. Her eyes lingered for a moment before she turned around to face the girls.

“Oh,” she said, as if searching for the words. “It was stupid, really. The ramblings of a silly girl, I guess. I never read it.”

It was an odd way to refer to a dead daughter. A silly girl.

Hayley couldn’t take it.

“Katelyn wasn’t that silly, Mrs. Berkley,” she said. “On the contrary, she was a sad girl. I think we all know that.”

Wow. Taylor couldn’t believe her sister said that. Quiet and sometimes a little reserved Hayley usually kept things much closer to the vest.

“We’re leaving now,” Hayley said, and the pair brushed right past the surprised woman. They hurried down the steps, no longer trying to tread lightly. Everyone in the living room looked up, but the girls didn’t say a word to any of them.

“You sure told her off,” Taylor said proudly, as they went outside. Hayley allowed the flicker of a smile. “Yes, well, we just had to get out of there, didn’t we?”

Taylor nodded.

“I really don’t believe that Katelyn’s death was just an accident. There’s more to it,” Hayley said, though she didn’t have to say it out loud.

Taylor didn’t need to reply either, but she did. “I know. Felt it the night she died.”

“Tay,” Hayley said as she glanced at her sister’s bare neck, “I think you might have forgotten your scarf.”

Taylor smiled. “Like hell I did. That’s our excuse to go back. It may be the ugliest rag in Port Gamble, but it’s getting us back into that house.”

As they walked through the alleyway toward home, neither Taylor nor Hayley was aware that a pair of eyes was riveted to their every move. Studying them. Wondering from a dark place just what the twins’ rekindled relationship with the dead girl’s family was all about.

chapter 11

KINGSTON HIGH WAS ONE OF THOSE SCHOOLS built with a tip of the architectural hat to its location. That was usually the intention of school district review boards, but it rarely worked as well as it did in Kingston. Just eight miles from Port Gamble, Kingston was a rolling rural landscape dotted with subdivisions and family farms that dipped at its very eastern edge to Puget Sound. The front entryway of the school was reached by crossing a footbridge over a shallow ravine of sword ferns, cedars, and winter-bronze cattail stalks.

By the time Hayley and Taylor graduated from the middle school just down the road, Kingston High was only four years old. Classrooms were segregated into pods, each known by the dominating color of its paint scheme. Rough-hewn cedar planks artfully lined portions of the interior corridors, and wide expanses of pebbly finished polished concrete swirled in browns and greens like a northwest stream. In the mornings, the espresso stand adjacent to the student store, the Treasure Trove, did Starbucks-style business, sending a geyser of steaming milk into the air as it caffeinated one teenager after the next. Even those who didn’t need coffee got in line—like Beth Lee, who never arrived at school without a Rockstar drink in her purse and a triple tall latte from Gamble Bay Coffee. She’d pay a visit to the student-run coffee stand after lunch for her always-needed midday pick-me-up.

Each pod featured its own teacher’s resource room, with their cubicles all crammed with the things they didn’t want to take home. Some teachers put up baby pictures of their children. Students who saw them often remarked how surprising it was that one teacher or another had found someone to have a child with.

“Did you see that photo? The kid looks completely normal. Almost cute,” one girl, a willowy redhead in