“Yes.” She pushed him onto his back and settled gently on top of him. “He said we weren’t going to take this lying down.”
CHAPTER 19
It was just after eleven when Will entered the busy lobby of Fredrickston General Hospital. From what he could recall, not even his first visit back home after the separation from Maxine felt this strange. Less than two weeks ago he had entered the hospital as a widely respected surgeon prepared to perform a difficult case. By that day’s end, he had been vilified as a narcotic addict, signed himself out of the intensive-care unit against medical advice, and gone home with a warning from the hospital president not to return to the place until the allegations against him had been resolved. Now, here he was back at FGH again but, like the Monopoly square, just visiting.
Balanced against the uneasy tension of his return to the hospital were the feelings and sensations lingering from the night just past. He and Patty had made exquisite love, then slept and loved again, and finally dozed off until almost dawn. She was at once caring and patient, sensual and passionate. She was witty and quick, gentle and edgy, absolutely cynical yet surprisingly naive and vulnerable. And physically she was as pleasing, comfortable, and imaginative as he would ever need a woman to be.
Although Mark Davis was the one who had picked eleven as the time to meet at the ICU, Will knew the hour was about as good for him as it could be. Morning rounds were over for most of the docs, and many of those who weren’t in the OR were back in their offices. In addition to his partners, he certainly had friends on the staff whom he wouldn’t mind running into, but the majority he would be just as happy avoiding. Even with the favorable hour, his return to the corridors of FGH wasn’t pleasant. By the time he reached the unit, he had passed four physicians and three nurses. Although prior to the incident, he was cordial enough with all of them, none greeted him with any warmth or tried to extend their brief encounter into a conversation, and one of the docs pointedly ignored him. Will wasn’t surprised.
Over the years, beginning with a truncated med-school course on alcoholism and other addictions, he had been to half a dozen or more AA meetings. From the patterns of the stories shared at the meetings and the scientific studies discussed in the courses, he had no doubt that alcoholism, like addiction to other drugs, was a medical illness-a psychological, genetic, and biochemical disease, as opposed to the moral issue so many made it out to be. Unfortunately, many other caregivers did not share that opinion. Doctors and nurses caught in the nightmare of drug and alcohol dependence too often found themselves deprived in their colleagues’ minds of the right to be ill and the chance to recover, simply because they were health-care professionals and should have known better. The pervasive prejudice made Will terribly sad even before he himself became a victim of it.
Mark Davis, wearing a gray turtleneck and tweed sport coat, was waiting just outside the door to the unit. He was an angular, intense man, who sounded over the phone this morning as if he were still reserving judgment as to whether Will had or had not gone into the operating room stoned on narcotics.
“They just brought her back from getting an X-ray and they’re washing her up right now,” he said. “The nurse said it would be twenty minutes.”
“Fine. Do you know who her nurse is?”
“Anne something.”
“Hajjar. She’s excellent, one of the very best.”
“That’s good to know. Visiting Grace like this is very kind of you. We don’t have much family, and her mother is too frail to make the trip up from New York.”
“Nonsense. We do go back quite a ways. What she went through yesterday must have been absolutely terrifying. I’m anxious to see her and also to translate medicalspeak if you need me to. Mark, listen, there are a couple of things I’d like to do around the hospital while I have the chance. Why don’t I meet you back here in twenty minutes?”
“Is this connected in any way with what you are going through?”
Will studied the teacher’s expression and saw only concern. “As a matter of fact, it is, yes. I’m going to retrace some of my steps from that morning, to see if I can figure out who could have done this to me-and how.”
“I hope you find whatever it is you’re searching for,” Mark said. “You mean a great deal to Grace, and so you also mean a great deal to me.”
Will headed off, pausing for a moment to glance back at the fine man whom once filthy, intoxicated, angry Grace Peng would one day meet, beguile, and marry.
In the hopes that something, anything, would connect, Will headed back to the on-call room to re-create physically and in his mind the few hours between falling asleep that morning and stepping into the operating room. The idea of doing this had been his new attorney’s.
“We’ve got to start somewhere,” Micelli had said when Will called and agreed to pay a modest retainer to seal their relationship, “and I suggest the beginning. For the time being, I can handle the cops and the courts, but sooner or later, preferably sooner, we’ve got to come up with some answers. Before you tell me anything more, retrace your steps and cement every movement of that morning in your mind. We’ll talk later in the day.”
Ignoring the whispers and the stares, Will went to the surgical on-call room and unlocked the door using the keypad. It had been just after two when he went there for the first time that early morning. He then slept uninterrupted until the wake-up call he had put in for at five-fifteen. Could he have been called out of the room for something and simply not remembered? Impossible. Could he somehow have been drugged earlier in the night and then injected with fentanyl while he slept? Not impossible, but far out, and the powerful narcotic, rapidly absorbed, would have had to be in a time-release form-a mode of delivery that existed only in a skin patch. Being both superstitious and a creature of habit, it was not difficult to retrace his movements and actions from that morning.
When he reached the staff lounge in the ER, two of the nurses actually went out of their way to come in and ask how he was doing-bright spots in an otherwise gray homecoming. He fought back the urge to plug in the “I didn’t willingly take any drugs” tape and simply thanked them for being nonjudgmental. One of the women, a mother of two in her early thirties named Bobbi Hamill, checked the calendar and confirmed that the day he was drugged was her day to bring in the customary dozen doughnuts. Will and she had been quite friendly over the years, and there was no way he could imagine her purposely trying to ruin him. But then again, there was no way he could imagine
The OJ they drank came in individual cartons. Will wondered to himself whether someone might have injected one of those cartons with fentanyl, then set it aside until it was the right moment to hand it to him. The possibility didn’t seem that ridiculous, but he had no recollection at all of who had passed the carton over to him. Finally, he used Bobbi’s memory and the staffing chart from that day to make a list of all those who were or might have been in the room. The only person who stood out at all was Gordo.
As Will retraced the path he would have taken from the ER to the surgeons’ lounge, he wondered about the man who had been his partner and friend for so many years. He wouldn’t be the first to work closely with someone and even see him socially but not really know him. Everyone had a dark side. He tried to dismiss the possibility that Gordo was the one, but couldn’t. Somebody had done this to him. That much was certain.
The lounge was deserted. Will opened his locker using a key. Empty. No surprise there. His stuff-soap, shampoo, deodorant, watch, journals, change of socks and underwear-was undoubtedly packed in an evidence box at the Fredrickston police station. Mentally, he retraced the steps he would have followed when dressing for the OR. Nothing unusual. The hair covers, shoe covers, and paper masks were all in boxes by the door to the scrub room. Gordo was already in the OR when Will was dressing. Could he have tampered with a paper mask or hair
