Stones of Fire

the other man indicated an expanse of some four feet. ‘I’m guessing that if we pry that mother off the wall, we’ll find the Ark hidden behind it.’

‘Pray that we do.’

46

‘Back in DC,’ Edie clarified, not wanting C?dmon to think she’d lied to him recently.

‘A lie would certainly explain your embarrassment.’

‘Actually, you’ve got it all wrong. I’m not the least bit embarrassed that I lied; I’m thoroughly ashamed.’ And, as he undoubtedly knew, shame was embarrassment on steroids.

‘Did you lie about Padge’s murder?’

‘What!’ Edie vehemently shook her head, the image of Dr Padgham’s sprawled, lifeless body flashing across her mind’s eye. ‘No, of course not. I lied about my, um, family background.’

Crossing his legs at the knee, C?dmon sat silent, waiting for her to fill in the blanks. If he was upset or disappointed by the fact he’d been lied to, he gave no indication of it.

‘Remember how I told you that my parents were killed in a boating accident off the coast of Florida? Well that story was… well, it was a flat-out lie. I can’t speak for my father, but my mother never stepped in anything that ever floated on the water.’

She snatched a mandarin orange from the bowl on the table. Hands shaking, she began to peel it, if for no other reason than to give her suddenly sweaty fingers something to do. God, I feel lousy. Unbelievably, she’d just told C?dmon Aisquith more about her childhood than she’d ever told another living soul.

‘Did you lie to elicit my sympathy?’

Edie stopped peeling.

‘No! Absolutely not!’

Knowing why she had told the lie, but not altogether certain why she suddenly wanted to tell the truth, Edie abandoned the orange and got up from the table. Maybe she was sick and tired of going to bed with men under false pretences. Slowly, trying to collect her thoughts, she paced back and forth in front of the divided twin mattresses. Out of the corner of her eye, she noticed C?dmon finishing his glass of port.

She stopped. Turning towards him, she said, ‘Were they still alive, there’s not a single member of my family that I would be proud to introduce to you. I just… I just wanted a normal, sane, loving family. Was that so wrong?’

C?dmon shook his head. ‘It is what we all long for.’

‘Yeah, it is, isn’t it? But those weren’t the cards I was given.’ Realizing how cliched and melodramatic that sounded, she decided to just stick to the facts. No emotion. No drama queen theatrics.

‘Okay, here it is. The unedited version of the story is that my mother Melissa was addicted to heroin, and bad men, and playing the state lottery. And just so you don’t jump to the conclusion that she was a horrible person, it wasn’t completely her fault. She grew up in a very repressive evangelical household. Unfortunately, she fell in love with a Jewish boy in her geometry class. Pops didn’t approve. So he kicked her out of the house. She was sixteen years old.’

‘I take it the ill-fated lover was your father?’

Edie derisively snorted. ‘Hmph! Don’t I wish?’ Maybe things would have turned out different if Jacob Steiner had been my father.

‘According to my mother, there was a freak car accident. A strong gust of wind caused the vehicle to swerve into a tree. Jacob died, she survived.’

‘Is that when your mother turned to drugs?’

Edie nodded. ‘The grief nearly did her in. At least that’s the excuse she gave for not being able to pull it together. Oh, every now and again she’d clean up her act. In fact, she cleaned up real good. But then —’ Edie snapped her fingers ‘— just like that, she’d start to reek of stale beer and vomit.’

Which was about the same time that strange men started to show up, the thin walls of the trailer doing little to muffle the grunts and groans.

‘I suppose I should mention at this juncture that my mother had no idea who fathered me. She thought it might have been “the guy with the Harley”.’ Using her fingers, Edie made a pair of air quotes. ‘But that’s mere speculation.’

Having just confessed to being illegitimate, Edie stared at the worn carpet beneath her feet. She could only imagine what C?dmon thought of her. He probably hailed from a snooty English household. Something straight out of The Forsyte Saga.

‘It sounds as though your mother had a tragic life,’ he quietly remarked.

‘Try tragically flawed. Anyway, it wasn’t a long life. She overdosed on her twenty-eighth birthday. I found her on the floor of our trailer, the Allman Brothers song “Sweet Melissa” playing on a secondhand tape recorder. They say that only the good die young, but…’ She waved away the thought. ‘Never mind. I’m not really sure where I was going with that.’ She sat down on the edge of the bed, suddenly very tired.

‘How old were you when your mother died?’

‘Hmm?’ She belatedly realized that C?dmon had asked a question. ‘Oh, eleven.’ Eleven going on forty.

‘If you don’t mind my asking, what happened to you when your mother died?’

Gnawing on her lower lip, Edie debated whether or not to tell him. But like a runaway train that couldn’t put on the brakes, she went ahead and answered the question put to her.

‘I was put into a foster home. There were five of us. Some older, some younger. The older ones knew the drill, the younger ones were clueless.’

C?dmon’s brow furrowed. ‘What drill? You’ve lost me.’

‘Lonny Wilkerson, my foster father, the man who signed a contract with the state of Florida agreeing to furnish me with a safe, clean and healthy home, had a fondness for young girls.’

‘Bloody bastard! Don’t tell me that he —’

‘I have to tell you,’ she interjected. Please, C?dmon. Let me tell my story. Let me give birth to this hideous memory. In the hopes that I can finally be free of it.

‘One night Lonny came into the room that I shared with the two older kids and he… he put his hand over my mouth, he pulled down my panties and he… he raped me.’ As she spoke, she kept her eyes downcast. She didn’t want C?dmon’s sympathy. She didn’t want his outrage. She just wanted a witness. ‘To this day I can’t recall any of the details. It was too much to process. All I can remember is that it was painful, it was quick, and I was afraid I would suffocate.’

Taking a deep breath, she glanced up at him. Just as she had guessed, his expression was equal parts anger and sorrow.

‘That’s all I remember,’ she said with a shrug. ‘That and the fact it happened once a week for the next two months. When Lonny moved on to a new girl, she told the social worker what was happening, and we were all moved to different homes.’

Edie paused, battling the old recriminations.

‘I should have been the one to expose that monster but —’ she laughed caustically, ‘— I was afraid of being abandoned. Of having to make a new start.’ Yet again.

‘You were a child,’ C?dmon insisted.

She shook her head, unwilling to discuss the point. ‘Anyway, to make a long story not nearly so long, a few years later a social worker took pity and tracked down my maternal grandparents. I stayed with them until I was eighteen years of age.’ And then, like her mother before her, she took a Greyhound bus out of Cheraw. Never to return.

Getting up from the table, C?dmon walked over to where she sat on the edge of the bed. Wordlessly, he sat down beside her, his hip brushing against hers.

‘Don’t get me wrong or anything. I’m not some emotionally scarred person who can’t cope with the real