“He speaks very well of you, though he said you might have been developing a drinking problem when you left.”
Jesse made a minimizing gesture with his right hand.
“I probably went off the deep end there for a bit during the time my marriage was breaking up,” Jesse said.
“But I’m fine now.”
He had started to say I am, and then wasn’t sure he could transit between the two vowels, and changed it to I’m.
Did they hear the stutter?
“All of us like a drink,” Hathaway said.
“And in times ‘of personal anguish, many of us need one. When one sees a man with your record applying for a job like this one, questions occur. I think I can speak for Lou when I say it is a relief really to hear that you maybe drank a little too much at a time when most of us would. I don’t have a problem, do you, LouT’
Burke’s heavy voice came from the shadow where he sat.
“No problem, Hasty.”
And that had been it. They had hired him on the spot and brought out a bottle and had drinks to seal the bargain.
It had worked out fine. But I shouldn’t have been drinking, Jesse thought as he went down the circular ramp off the bridge. Especially I shouldn’t have needed to be drinking.
Jesse turned north along the Henry Hudson Parkway. He drove over the Harlem River Bridge and through the Bronx, where the city was already beginning to green. He followed the parkways, as he had planned, into Connecticut and up Route 15 feeling almost disembodied.
He picked up Route
84 in Hartford, crossing the Connecticut River, with the cluster of small-city skyscrapers off to his left. It was dark by the time he crossed the line into Massachusetts and for the night in Sturbridge. He could have driven last seventy-five miles or so, but he didn’t want to. He to arrive in Paradise in the morning. He didn’t know anymore than he knew why he had stood on Ocean and stared at the Pacific before he left. But after had decided that if he was going to be alone, probably ought to pay attention to what he wanted, even didn’t always know why he wanted it. In his motel he poured the almost fitualized drink and sat in the chair in the silent room with his feet up on the bed. read somewhere that two drinks a day were thought be good for your heart. That was not bad, two drinks a’t. It would give him something to look forward to every It wouldn’t scramble his mind. He thought that drinks a day was about right for him. When he’d been Jennifer he had tried to pay attention to what she If she’s happy, he always said to himself, I’m
It wasn’t true. But he had thought at the time that
: ought to be true, and he insisted on trying to make it no matter how unhappy it made them both. He shook head sadly in the small room. He was a cop, a guy who pride in seeing evidence, on making judgments on was really there. And he failed entirely to do that in own life.
“What an asshole,” he said.
7 His voice seemed so loud in the quiet room that he wonif someone next door could hear him talking to him- When you start talking to yourself… He smiled and his scotch. He could see himself in the full-length mirror on the wall beside the bed. He raised the glass at :himself. Get a grip, Jesse. Then he leaned back in the chair, the whiskey in both hands, and closed his eyes and about the next day.
Maybe three drinks a day.
South End. There were a lot of fags down them and he was ready to retaliate if one of them was flirtatious. Jo Jo could bench-press five hundred pounds. At six feet, he weighed 283 and, under the pressure of his latissimus dorsi, his arms stuck out as he walked. He crossed with the light at Clarendon Street near the Cyclorama, and went a half block west on Tremont, and went down three stairs to a basement-level storefront in one of the old brownstones. In black letters on the big glass window of the store was written Development Associates of Boston. He opened the door and went in. A good-looking young man with dark curly hair and a diamond earring sat at the reception desk, sorting mail. He looked up when Jo Jo entered.
“Is it Tarzan or one of the apes,” the
young man said.
The young man was always saying stuff like that to him, and he never liked it. If he didn’t have business to do here, he’d slap the little faggot upside the head. Maybe someday.
“Gino back there?” he said.
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