Just let me get through this. Let me see Maureen again. Let me hold her. Let me get through this. Please. And that was it.
Meredith was not a religious man. But, following repeated experiences in Los Angeles and Mexico, he had come to accept this particular form of cowardice in himself. In times of peace, he would never have dreamed of wasting a Sunday morning in church. But, on the edge of battle, God invariably loomed large.
'What's up, Merry?' Taylor asked, holding on to an overhead brace with one hand. His shoulder holster stood away from his uniform, and the reddish light from the control banks and monitors made the colonel's scarred face appear to be on fire.
'We're looking good, sir,' Meredith said. 'The bad guys are still just sitting there, fat, dumb, and happy.' He tapped at a button. 'Look at this. It's the target array at Objective Ruby. If the M-l00s just work at fifty percent of capacity…'
'Still no indication that the enemy have picked us up?' Taylor asked.
Meredith understood the wonder in Taylor's voice. It was hard to believe that the regiment had made it this far. From Kansas to the edge of hell. Their luck only needed to hold a little longer now.
'Not a sign, sir. No increase in comms. No enhanced air defense readiness. No interceptors up. No ground force dispersal. It's almost too good to be true.'
Taylor wiped his hand across his jaw, his lips. 'I'm concerned about Manny. The Japs
Meredith smiled. 'Manny's a big boy. He'll be out of there on schedule. Anyway, there isn't even the slightest indication that the enemy has detected anything. We're in better shape than I could've hoped, sir.'
As he spoke to reassure his mentor, Meredith recalled the unsettling exchange he had undergone just a few hours before. There had been a lull in the communications traffic on one of the top-secret multiuse feeds, and a friend of his back in Washington had taken advantage of it to call him to the receiver.
'Merry, good buddy,' his friend had said in a noticeably hushed voice, as though some third party might disapprove, 'listen, you've got to watch your six out there.'
'What are you talking about?' Meredith asked, unsure whether his friend was simply telling him to take care of himself personally or trying to communicate something larger.
'Just keep your eyes open. There's something funny going on. The puzzle's still missing some pieces.'
'What kind of pieces? Intel?'
'I don't know exactly. You know how it is. You just get wind of things. The big boys over here have a secret. We've got this new priority intelligence requirement. It came out of nowhere. And suddenly it's number one on the charts. Something about a
Meredith thought for a moment. 'Doesn't mean shit to me. What's a Scrambler?'
'Maybe some kind of crypto stuff. I don't know.
'Nothing else?' Merry asked. 'No context?' He did not much care for the appearance of sudden mysteries when the bullets were about to start flying.
'Listen, Merry. I got to go. I'm not supposed to be using this feed. You take care. Out.'
And the voice was gone.
Now Meredith looked across the magic firelight of the electronics to where Taylor stood. He wondered if he should bother the old man with something so nebulous. Impulsively, he decided against sharing the scrap of information. It was insufficient to really mean anything to the old man. And Taylor certainly did not need any unnecessary worries at this point. Meredith mentally cataloged the scrambler business with his file of other unresolved intelligence concerns.
But he felt uneasy. Taylor was staring at him, and the old man's eyes always gave Meredith the uncanny feeling that Taylor could see right into him. He had felt that way ever since the night in Los Angeles when he had almost given up. Now Taylor's gaze made him feel uncomfortable, somehow inadequate.
Meredith tapped a button on his console, moving onto safer ground. A nearby monitor filled with multicolored lines: a hallucinatory spiderweb.
''Have a look at this, sir,' he said to Taylor. 'That's their command communications infrastructure in our area of operations. Just wait until the aero-jammers from the Tenth Cav hit them. They won't even be able to call out for a pizza.'
Taylor smiled, showing a flash of teeth in his devil's face. To a stranger, the scarred mask would have appeared menacing, but Meredith could tell that Taylor was in good spirits. Confident. Ready. Meredith had never known any rational man to be as calm on the verge of contact as Taylor. The cold man turned briefly to the pair of NCOs who staffed the support consoles, exchanging mandatory pleasantries and bullshitting about the bad coffee, bolstering them so they would not think too much of death. Then he turned to Captain Parker, the assistant S-3, who was standing in for Heifetz while the S-3 rode herd on the First Squadron. Captain Parker was fairly new to the regiment, and very new to Taylor.
'How do we look on the ops side?' Taylor asked.
The captain stood up formally. 'On time and on-line, sir.'
'Sit down, sit down,' Taylor said, slightly embarrassed by the display. 'First Squadron ready to cross its line of departure?'
No sooner had Taylor spoken than the regimental command net came to life:
That was it. First Squadron was in Indian country.
The United States was at war.
Taylor slipped on a headset. 'This is Sierra five-five. Lima Charlie your transmission, Whisky. Over.'
'This is Whisky. Red-one, in route to Emerald. 'Garry Owen.' Over.'
The ordeal had begun. Meredith knew that they all shared the same worries: would the deception gear work? Would they make it all the way to the first series of objectives without being detected? Without the need to fight an unwanted engagement?
Surprise was everything.
'This is Sierra,' Taylor said. 'Turning on the noise. Good luck. Out.' He turned to Meredith. 'Tell the Tenth Cav to turn on the jamming.'
Meredith punched his way down a row of buttons, then began to speak into his headset in a measured voice. A part of him was still listening to Taylor, however, watching the old man from the comers of his eyes. Whenever Taylor was physically present, Meredith felt invincible. The old man had the magic, the nameless something that you could never learn from leadership manuals alone.
The command net came to life again.
'This is Bravo five-five. Sweetheart now. Over.'
The old man smiled his we-got-these-suckers smile. 'This is Sierra five-five—'
'Hotel nine Lima seven-four,' Meredith said into his headset, calling the commander of the Tenth Cavalry's electronic skirmish line. 'This is Charlie six Sierra two-zero—'
'Roger last transmission,' Taylor told his mike.
'— Waterfall. I say again, Waterfall,' Meredith enunciated clearly, calmly, wanting to shout. 'Acknowledge, over.'
A third net came to life, answered by one of the NCOs. ' — White one to Diamond—'
'— Roger, Sierra. Waterfall now.'
'This is Tango five-five. Sweetheart. Sweetheart.
Over.'
'Roger, Tango. Break. Bravo, report—'
Meredith felt both ferociously excited and wonderfully relaxed. Listening to the babble of the multiple sets, watching the monitors flash and the counters running numerics, he was at home. In the brilliant chaos of a tactical headquarters at war.
'Colonel Taylor, sir?' Meredith said in the first communications lull. 'Got a second to look at this?
Taylor bent down toward the visual display. Countless red and yellow points of light had been superimposed on a map of Soviet Central Asia.