death. No flood of light announced her visits, and no sound but the sudden, blood-freezing wail of a life cut short. Then the Red River cat would climb to a high place, a transverse beam, maybe, and devour her victim by meticulous stages. With the pitch of the ship, gallbladders and stomachs would fall to the deck: these she did not eat.
But for the black rat there was something worse than Sniraga.
(Mine is the terror of the drowned. When the surface is gone you can't swim for it, you can't aim for a sun without light, without warmth, the vanished laughing sun over the kelp, sun of man and glad day and woken beasts and the miracle of tears, but not your kind, darling, never your kind except from corners, cracks, burrows in filth, and just so long as your snout clears the waves. Oh, mad repellent rodent! Sweet rat of my soul! Poor scuttling susurrating slop-eating Felthrup, how long till the kelp rakes you under?)
He was a freak: he knew it. He was a woken rat, and rats never woke. Nor did they sleep, not the warm, stupid sleep of normal creatures. Unlike any other beings he knew of, they were caught between intelligence and instinct, night and day. They lived short, snapping, bickering, miserable lives in the twilight. The ixchel term for them was best: palluskudge-creatures cursed by the Gods.
'Fatten up, brother!'
Felthrup shot two feet straight up in the air. Beside him a trio of rats laughed in their whispered, nasal way.
'Talking to himself!' they said. 'Strange Felthrup! Wise and special Felthrup! What's he doing out here on the edge of town?'
'Water,' lied Felthrup, recovering himself. 'That's all. Just looking for water.'
''Just looking for water,'' said one, in perfect mimicry. Like half of what came from rats' mouths it was said for no clear reason, but it made the others laugh. They were only slinkers: weak rats driven out of the warren by night, and allowed back in only if they could pay a tribute of food. Slinkers were the only rats most humans ever saw: the small, desperate ones, forced into mortal danger in kitchens, stables, dumps. Women saw them and shrieked amazingly, as if about to be mauled by tigers. Men traded fibs about their size.
Felthrup tried to laugh as they did, with much slurping and sniffling. 'The ixchel,' he said. 'They're coming out of their crates now. Have you seen them?'
'Seen them,' said one, and they all stared and waited. It was possible they did not understand the question.
'Yes,' Felthrup tried again. 'The ixchel. Crawlies. There's more of them aboard than usual-hundreds more. They're not just passengers this time. They're up to something.'
'Hundreds of crawlies,' muttered one of the slinkers, bored.
'Yes! They've been watching the giants, listening to them, taking risks. I tell you, it's not normal. I thought I would take a look at them for Master Mugstur.'
At the mention of the Head Rat their eyes lit briefly with fear.
'Perhaps you've noticed them, brothers?' Felthrup pressed, trying not to sound too eager. 'I should certainly mention your help to Master Mugstur. Back there in the manger I thought-'
'Felthrup and his stories,' one broke in.
'I could tell you another story, brothers, about a monster of a man who soon will walk this ship. Niriviel the falcon spoke of him, proud as a prince. But you'd never believe me. They say this voyage is all about a wedding, a wedding to bring peace between the man-warrens. But the true purpose-'
'What's he got to eat?' shrilled the rat on his left, and the other two bristled with sudden alertness. Eating was the only subject of real interest to rats-besides the whereabouts of things that might eat them.
Felthrup shook his head. 'Nothing, I fear.'
'Always something.'
'Not this time,' said Felthrup. 'I haven't eaten since nightfall. I'm starved.'
'Why didn't you ask us for food, then, brother?' asked the same rat, and all three slinkers grinned.
Because you would have lied, Felthrup thought, but he knew they had caught him. All slinkers lied when they met in Night Village, and yet the practice never kept a rat-any normal rat-from asking. If he had pestered them for food, they would have suspected nothing, and let him go. Now they were closing in, sniffing at his paws and cheeks. A few more seconds and they would smell his last meal. Talk would cease instantly. They would attack.
He was more than a match for any one of them-any two, probably. But three were too many. And when he fought, he drowned, became a mean, blind brute-became truly their brother.
There was just one other choice. Felthrup shook himself, with that violent whole-body spasm peculiar to rats and weasels. The slinkers jumped back, and Felthrup spat the contents of his cheek pouches at their feet.
'Knew it!' they cried happily. 'Lying, gobbling, greedy Felthrup!'
It was only a spoon's worth of soggy biscuit (dropped by a tarboy so exhausted he had fallen asleep as he chewed), but the slinkers fell on it like starved dogs, their short tongues licking at the grimy deck. Felthrup tensed and sprang-pop! — right over their heads. No point in looking back. In seconds his food would be gone. In minutes they would not remember him.
(Mine the terror of not remembering. Who is Felthrup? Rat, freak, monster, man?)
Now he was angry as well as tormented. That food would have bribed the door guard. To gain the daytime shelter of the warren he must seek out more, under the boys' hammocks or among the ragged, fitfully sleeping passengers in steerage. Other rats were combing the same spots; he might need hours to locate a scrap. And he had other business first.
There! A red glow, thimble-small, shedding only enough light for Felthrup to see two busy hands, and the dull glint of bronze. Felthrup dashed for it, reckless with longing. It had to be an ixchel cookstove. Humans could not smell the special coal burned in such stoves, but because ixchel could-and because a ship's cat or dog would trace the smell to its source-the little people cooked their meals on the open deck, away from the secret places where they made their homes.
When he was ten feet away the light winked out. In a panic he bounded forward.
'Cousins!' he squeaked. 'Honored ixchel! Please don't go! Let me talk to you!'
He spoke in the kindest, sanest, most un-rat-like voice he could summon. But no one answered. The light was gone, and so were the ixchel.
Crushed, Felthrup scurried to the portside hull. He had spoken aloud, courted death, and for nothing! Safety, shelter! He had to find them at once. Rushing, panting, he spotted a bilge-pipe a few yards ahead. The pipe's heavy brass cap had been left unlatched, and even stood open an inch. Felthrup dashed for it. A moment later he was climbing inside.
The pipe was stoppered just two feet from its mouth (it was an emergency bilge, used only on a sinking ship) and would never do as daytime shelter. But it was dry and snug, and no Sniraga could pounce on him. Felthrup curled in a ball and began to lick the red, stinging tip of his tail. He could not manage to hate the slinkers; it was like hating cows or stones. They were one thing and he another. But if he could not hate something he would surely cry.
(Mine is the terror of a rodent's tears. Strange spineless Felthrup, the rat who weeps in corners.)
It was over for another night, his twenty-sixth aboard Chathrand. How long could he keep this up, this search for the little folk, when they so clearly had no intention of meeting him? Why was he risking his life? He had already lost a third of his tail on the Etherhorde quay, bitten off by one of the mob of wharf rats that controlled access to departing ships. Felthrup had been riding ships for eight months (seeking that place where life was good, better, less than very bad, as it were, unexcruciating) and in each port he faced the same snarling cabal of wharf rats, ferocious gatekeepers of the seas. This one had promised him safe passage aboard the Great Ship, but halfway across the Plaza he had suddenly doubled his price. Felthrup broke and ran, and the big rat and his cronies had chased him all the way to the top of the gangway, biting and snapping. His tail still hurt when it dragged in the dust.
(You must not fall asleep here, Felthrup my boy. Dawn will come and the men will kill you.)
Yet it had seemed worth it, all that risk, for here at last were beings like himself: careful, thoughtful, out to change things. Felthrup had not lied to the slinkers: the ixchel were up to something. He smelled them in the oddest places: under the ambassador's stateroom, at the door of the gunpowder vault, along the rudder chains. Strangest of all, three weeks ago a dozen or more had entered the berth deck and clustered about a tarboy's hammock. Felthrup had smelled the dry sweat on the hammock: a mark of human fear. Clearly the ixchel had spoken to the boy, and terrified him. But why in all creation would they show themselves to a human?
