hotel guests might have been little, but they partied big-there were stories of drunken escapades and wild sex parties. All of those supposed Munchkin antics inspired the 1981 movie
Dorothy left a black-and-white Kansas for the color of Munchkinville and Oz. When I stepped into the lobby, it wasn’t exactly like stepping into another world, but I did appreciate the high ceilings of the hotel as well as its old world charm.
There were only a few people in the lobby bar, and only one of them was sizing me up. I walked toward the man’s table, and he got to his feet. He was middle-aged, with droopy brown eyes, frown lines, and salt-and-pepper hair. Because I’ve worked with dogs for much of my adult life, I often categorize people as breeds. Happy, animated sorts are golden retrievers. Those that are nervous and hyper are Jack Russell terriers. Beautiful people are poodles. Those with OCD are border collies. Solid citizens are Airedales. Class clowns are Labradors. Sensitive sorts are basset hounds. Independent types are cairn terriers, a breed that came to mind because of my being in Munchkinville. Toto was a cairn terrier, but Dave Miller was no Toto. The man reminded me of a basset hound, probably because of his eyes.
We shook hands and confirmed our identities. A server came over. I ordered an iced tea; Miller went with a tonic water.
“So what made you flee LA?” I asked.
The question appeared to surprise him. “Flee?”
“Why did you move to Temecula?”
“I like to describe it as a
“So now you’re a farmer?”
“No, I’m a landowner pretending to be a farmer.”
“It’s just a hobby?”
“If it is, it’s an all-consuming hobby. Last year my avocado crop brought in more than sixty thousand dollars, but that doesn’t take into account all of my expenses. I figure with all the hours I put in I didn’t even make minimum wage.”
“It sounds as if you’ve embarked upon quite an adventure.”
“Is that a polite way of saying I’m crazy?”
“Maybe you just like guacamole more than most.”
“You’re right about that.”
“Was this ranch a lifetime dream of yours?”
Miller shook his head. “An opportunity presented itself and I acted.”
“It sounds like a big change. Most people would be scared to start a new life like that. Wasn’t it hard leaving behind friends and family in LA?”
“I don’t have any family in LA. I’m divorced. And now that I have a place in the country, all my LA friends have a good reason to come and visit me. It almost feels like I’ve opened a bed and breakfast.”
“How is it that you started volunteering at the help line?”
“My best friend committed suicide,” Miller said. “Afterward I wondered what I could have said or done that might have made a difference. It bothered me that I never really picked up on all the signs I should have seen. And then one day I heard a public service announcement asking for volunteers for the Community Crisis Line.”
“Are most of the help lines manned by volunteers?”
“Some are and some aren’t. Community Mental Health operates one help line, and the LA County Department of Mental Health has another. Cedars Sinai operates a line that has teens helping other teens. And then there are the national help numbers as well.”
“What kind of formal training did you have?”
“I went to classes for a month. There were sixty hours of lectures and a few tests I had to pass. Before doing the training, I had to make a four-hour-a-week commitment for a minimum of one year. More than anything, though, I think I needed to demonstrate that I had a sympathetic ear. That’s what I am there for-to listen.”
“But with Dinah Hakimi you did more than listen?”
Miller nodded. “I don’t offer this as an excuse, Detective, but more as an explanation. I didn’t want another death on my conscience. I never helped my friend like I should have, and I wasn’t about to make that mistake with Dinah. I must admit to being somewhat surprised, though.”
“Surprised about what?”
“That you sought me out for this talk. I know I shouldn’t have met with Dinah privately, but we didn’t do anything against the law, and I’m willing to take a polygraph to that effect.”
“I am not here about your private sessions with Dinah. I am here because the bully that was plaguing Dinah was murdered.”
“Oh,” Miller said. He nodded several times while taking in the news. His face didn’t reveal his take on the information.
I waited for him to break the silence. When he did, Miller said, “If Dinah is a suspect in any form or fashion, she shouldn’t be.”
“And why is that?”
“She could never commit murder. She is a gentle soul. She would hurt herself sooner than hurt someone else. That was the problem, you see. She turned her anger inward. Even though she was without blame, she started blaming herself, and that began a vicious cycle.”
“How do you feel knowing that her tormentor is dead?”
Miller didn’t answer right away. When he did he said, “For Dinah’s sake, I’m relieved.”
“Some mental health therapists go into the profession because they like to think of themselves as saviors.”
“I am not a mental health therapist.”
“But you’re a voice in the darkness.”
“I hope I am.”
“I think I became a cop to help others. It must have been hard to listen to the anguish of a young lady and yet not be able to do anything about it.”
“It was difficult, but I was doing something about it. I listened to Dinah, and I tried to make sure she didn’t fixate on the present but instead looked to the future.”
“Do you have any children?”
Miller shook his head.
“Did you begin to feel paternal with Dinah? When we talked on the phone, you said you broke the rules because you felt responsible for her.”
“I care about Dinah, but I have never thought of her as a daughter.”
“Did you ever consider confronting the bullies? It must have been hard just sitting back and having to hear about all their mind games.”
“I am sure everyone has fantasies about being a knight in shining armor, but I know it does no good in the long run to fight someone else’s battles. What I did was to try and teach Dinah coping mechanisms.”
“How did your friend kill himself?”
Miller took a deep breath, sighed, and said, “He shot himself.”
“Why did he do it?”
“I think the pain became too great for him to endure it any longer.”
I nodded. As much as I didn’t want to admit it, I had been there. “I can understand why you wanted to help Dinah,” I said, “but I am still going to have to contact the director of the help line and tell him what transpired.”
Miller nodded. “I figured as much. That’s why I set up a meeting with him this afternoon. I don’t anticipate a good outcome.”
“For what it’s worth, Dinah thinks you saved her life.”
“It’s worth a lot.”
Miller dropped a Hamilton on the table, took a last sip of his tonic water, and said, “If you don’t have any
