across just as the camera flashed, capturing that moment of unconscious grace, preserving a tableau in two dimensions. In the morning I would have to find a way to tell Greg what I had discovered, but I would leave that problem for later. Maybe he would know how to tell Gillian's and Trudy's families what they needed to know?
But even if Greg told them, how would they know it was true? I knew what it was to be told of a death without the evidence of my own eyes – without proof. Even if he told them, would they believe him? The anger at what had happened to Gillian, to Trudy and to Alex, welled up in me, making my heart pound in my ears and banishing sleep. My thoughts returned to Blackbird and my unborn son, and I started again.
How many times my thoughts travelled that circle, I couldn't say, but sleep must have come eventually because I knew I was dreaming.
It was always cold here, yet I didn't feel cold; certainly it was nothing like the bone-chilling ache that Solandre had induced in me to feed from my life force when she trapped me here. Naked, I walked along the path, brushing fingers of pine branches that only moved as I stirred them, the faint scent of resin hanging in the air as I passed. No breeze ever stirred this place.
Looking up, I saw the black sky freckled with stars. They hung there without blinking, like pinpricks in the veil of night, silent watchers of all that transpired here. Beneath my feet, layers of hushed pine needles muffled my tread as I walked between the trees. The path was outlined in moon-shadow where no moon ever shone. All was dark, yet I could see away from the path that the trunks clustered together until there was no space to squeeze between them.
The path widened, as it always did, opening out into a glade surrounded by tangled briars as thick as ropes, spiked with thorns an inch long and wickedly barbed. I hesitated at the boundary, but it was already too late. By the time I looked behind me the path had vanished. The thorns had closed around me and I was trapped.
In the centre of the glade were clothes – a shirt of black silk, trousers of peach-soft black cotton. There were soft leather boots for my feet and silver rings for my fingers. I dressed, but slipped the rings into my pocket. I was wary of accepting gifts if I didn't know who the giver was.
I walked to the centre. It was bigger than I remembered and the ground rose so that all I could see about me was thorns and trees. The sky formed a bowl above me, echoing the ground beneath it.
'Where?' The voice was behind me and I spun around.
A figure was standing at the edge of the thorns. Her hair was short and spiky and she was slightly overweight. I could see this because she was naked. Her skin was pale in the starlight and it made her breasts look full and heavy. She was wearing dark eye make-up and her lips were stained purple, contrasting oddly with her naked state, as if she'd just got undressed and had yet to clean off her make-up. Suddenly conscious of her nakedness, she cupped her arms around her breasts, failing to conceal the bush of pubic hair between her legs.
'Where am I?
I walked slowly towards her, not wanting to cause alarm.
She watched me. 'Who are you?' she asked.
I already knew who she was. I had been looking at her photograph, but the accent confirmed it.
'My name is Niall, and you are Debbie.'
She looked around and then back at me.
'Niall,' she said, as if testing the name on her tongue. 'I like your shirt.'
'Don't you want to know how I know your name?' I asked her.
She shook her head, 'No, don't be daft. You're in my dream. Of course you know my name.'
'This isn't your dream. It's mine.'
She looked around. 'Where is this?'
'I don't know,' I admitted.
'If it's your dream, how come you don't know where it is?'
'That's a good point,' I said. 'Maybe it isn't my dream either.'
'Are you going to do me?'
'Am I what?'
She shrugged, then let her arms fall away and cupped her breasts in her hands, holding her nipples up as if for inspection. 'You know, here on the ground. It'll be good. All the guys say I'm good.'
'All the guys?'
'Are you trying to make out I'm a tart? I'm very choosy, me. I like the strong ones. Do you work up a sweat?'
'A sweat?'
'In the gym. You're pretty toned for an old guy. You are old, though. I would have liked you younger.' She started walking around the edge of the glade. 'Isn't there a bed, or at least a mattress? I don't wanna get grass stains, even in a dream.'
'Debbie. We are not having sex.'
She turned back to me. 'You're shy.' She smiled sweetly. 'I like the shy ones. Do you want me on top or underneath?'
'Neither. I mean it. We're not having sex and you have to go now.'
'Why?' She turned away. When she turned back, her eyes had filled. 'What's the matter with me? Why are all men such bastards?' A wet tear trickled down her cheek. 'Now even my dreams don't fancy me.'
I stepped forward. 'It's not like that. I'm sure you're very…'
She stepped in towards me, sliding her arms round my waist, pressing her breasts into my chest. She lifted her face. 'Kiss me,' she whispered.
'Debbie!'
I tried to gently ease her away, but she only used the opportunity to rub her breasts on the silk of my shirt, gripping me round my waist and grinding her hips into mine.
'You want me. I know you do. I can feel you.'
'This isn't what you think it is.'
'You're not small either, are you, baby?' She grinned. 'Maybe there's somethin' to older men after all.'
'I'm old enough to be your father.' I was trying to disengage her, but she clung to me, pressing in.
'You could actually be my father for all I know. Would that make it better? Do you want to be my daddy?'
I grabbed her arms and unwound them from my waist, holding her wrists up between us. I was trying not to hurt her, but she was very determined. She tried to pull her hands away, but I held her tight. She was breathing hard, but it wasn't from struggling. Her pupils were dilated and her tongue licked across her purple lips wetly.
She tested my hold on her wrists. 'You're in control, baby.'
'Stop it. Stop it now.'
She tried to twist out of my grip, forcing me to tighten my grasp. She wriggled under her arms, turning under them so that she could twist into me, her rear pressing roundly into my groin. I released her arms and gave her rump a firm shove, not wanting to hurt her, but making space between us. She stumbled forward, unbalanced, and fell forward on to the nest of thorns.
She screamed as the spikes bit into her flesh, thrashing on the barbs, making it worse. I tried to grasp her arm, to help her back, but she struggled and shrieked, jerking out of my hand. I stepped away, giving her some space. Gradually she stopped struggling and gently and painfully extracted herself from the tangle, unable to contain the gasps of pain as the thorns withdrew. Turning, she opened her arms.
'Look. Look at me.'
The blood was running in tiny dribbles from the scratches and punctures all down her arms, legs, breasts and body.
'Look what you've done!'
She wiped her hand over her breast, striping it across the skin so that her hand came away smeared with red. That wasn't what was disturbing me, though. Where the drops fell to the ground or rolled off her skin they vanished. No spot marked the grass. Every one was absorbed by the ground where it fell.
'You're all such bastards,' she wailed. 'All the same.'
She cried, real tears this time, running black mascara down her cheek. Wrapping herself in her arms, she sobbed, and as she held herself, she faded, until there was only the echo of her. The echo died, leaving me alone in
