“It wasn’t your fault, Maddy,” Kevin said, his voice gruffer than usual.
“Well, I’m sorry I let things get as far as I did. Even though he asked for an application—” she said, then stopped herself. It was so embarrassing to think about in their little kitchen in the daylight. Interviewing the world’s most famous Angel for a part-time position at Kevin’s Diner. And the way he had. . bewitched her. The way he had made her believe there was something between them. Stupid, stupid girl.
“I just should have been more careful,” she muttered, and took a vicious bite of her toast. “Are you sure you don’t need help with the cleanup?”
Kevin shook his head. “No, it’s really not that bad,” he said. “Just some broken plates and glasses; we’ll be open for lunch.”
“Okay,” she said, not quite meeting his eyes. She let the guilt wash over her.
She walked to school with her head down and her hood up, as usual. She waded through the usual crowds, not looking up until she got to school. When she did, she was surprised to see a curious pair of eyes staring back at her. A girl from calc, Maddy thought her name was Lucy, had been watching her. Maddy quickly looked away, hiding herself behind a curtain of hair until the girl had passed. It was odd.
Maddy turned and saw a pair of guys, sophomores, looking at her too. Their gaze was curious, intent. Something was different.
As she approached her locker, she could already see Gwen there, waiting impatiently for her. Her eyes looked like they were about to bug out of their sockets.
“Hey,” Maddy said as she approached.
“You little bitch!” Gwen exclaimed, holding her phone out. On the screen, to Maddy’s shock, was a picture taken in Kevin’s Diner. A picture from last night. There was Maddy standing just behind Jackson Godspeed, looking terrified, in her waitress uniform. Ew. The headline under the photo read in all caps:
“JACKSON GODSPEED TRASHES DINER”
Maddy could feel the hot blood rushing into her cheeks as she read the blog’s embellished detailing of the previous night.
“You’re on every Angel blog,” Gwen said excitedly.
“Now, I want details and they better be juicy!”
Maddy hazarded a glance down the hall. More intrus-ive eyes stared back. Assessing. Prying. Even the cheerlead-ers were looking at her. Everybody knew. She opened her locker and tried to use the door as a shield for her face.
“Nothing really happened,” she said as she pulled her books out.
“What?!” Gwen shrieked. “Why don’t you want to talk about it? This is my chance to, like, live vicariously through you!”
Maddy squirmed. “He came in, sat at a booth—”
“Which booth?!”
“I don’t know. He ordered—”
“I can’t remember. Then some people came in, and he left. That’s it.”
“Okay, tell me
Maddy thought about the lies. “Nothing. He didn’t say anything.”
“He must have said
“I think he said, ‘Can I get the check?’”
“Can I get the check?!” Gwen exclaimed in astonishment. Maddy watched her melt as she pictured it. “‘Hey, it’s Jackson Godspeed,’” she said in her lowest male voice, “‘Can I. . get the check?’
“So you really didn’t know it was him?” Gwen asked incredulously.
“No, like I told you. I don’t follow that stuff.”
“Okay, but you must have known he was an
Maddy’s mind flickered to back to Jackson’s divine features and the electricity that seemed to pass between them when they touched.
“I promise,” she said, making her tone apathetic, “he was nothing special.”
The bell buzzed. Gwen looked unfulfilled. “Okay, you can tell me the rest at lunch!”
“I have lunch detention,” Maddy reminded her. Gwen frowned.
“Want me to try and bring you something from the cafeteria?”
Maddy smiled, grateful. “Sure.”
A ping went off and Gwen was looking at a blog alert on her BlackBerry again. She crinkled her nose. “Ew,” she said. Maddy looked over her shoulder and saw a picture of a man with a wild, dark beard and short hair. His eyes were black and intense, almost — the thought occurred to her un-bidden — infernal. The blog headline read:
“Those guys are such losers,” Gwen said. “Why do the Angel blogs ever even mention them?”
Maddy’s classes crawled by. In AP History she sat in the last row, hoping it would make it harder for her classmates to stare at her. Somehow, they managed. At least Mr. Rankin didn’t call on her again. He had learned his lesson. In English she asked questions about
She reported to the administration office and was taken by the assistant principal, Mr. Leihew, to an empty classroom.
“No visitors,” he said, sounding sort of apologetic about the whole situation. “But you’re free to study, of course. I’ll check back in on you in a few minutes.” Maddy thanked him and he left. She fished a stack of college applications out of her bag and paged through to an essay prompt.
It was Jackson Godspeed.
He stood there in an untucked white collared shirt rolled up at the sleeves, designer jeans, and tie. Even dressed casually, he looked like he had just stepped off the cover of a magazine. Maddy was a statue of a girl in a desk.
She couldn’t make sense of him in this place. Jackson Godspeed and Angel City High — they were like puzzle pieces that wouldn’t fit together in her mind.
“Hi,” Jacks said, closing the door quietly behind him.
“I wanted to talk to you,” he said, smiling. He came into the room, and it was as if the dusty, cramped classroom could hardly contain him. He took a seat in the desk next to Maddy and she could feel it again, that same feeling she had felt as she walked him to the booth at the diner. It was like his presence was
Jacks cleared his throat. “I just wanted to apologize for what happened at the diner last night. And,” he said, hesitating, “I wanted to. . thank you for helping me. I’ve never really needed anyone’s help before. It was a new experience.”
Maddy felt the anger and embarrassment of the previous night welling up inside her, mixing and twisting with the shock of the moment.
“Got any more stories for me today?” she almost sneered at him. “Want to tell me about how you need a job?
About how you’re trying to raise money for college? About how your dad—” A sudden lump in her throat cut off her words. She swallowed it down hard. “About how your dad died too?!”
Jacks’s expression registered surprise, as if some expectation had not been met.
“Look, Maddy,” he said, and it was a cruel thrill to hear him say her name, “I never meant to hurt you. There