David’s laugh was chilly. “There it is, that winning attitude that’s done so much for you. Keep it up, Johnny, it’ll take you right to the top.” I shot him the bird and he laughed. “Keep that up, tooit’ll help when you’re interviewing for those burger-flipping jobs.” I ignored him some more, but David kept at it.
“How long do you think before they bounce you out of this school? Another semester? Less? And that’ll make how many? I keep telling Mom she’s throwing good tuition money after bad, but-”
“But she doesn’t listen to a fucking word you say, David- neither one of them does. Yet you keep on talking. And here I thought you were such a smart guy.”
David’s face darkened, and he tugged at the skin on his neck. “Smart enough not to get caught three times.”
I laughed. “Caught doing what? With all that ass-kissing and back-stabbing, you’ve got no time for anything else.”
“You’d be surprised,” he whispered, and he balled his fists and stepped toward me. I stood up. He had half an inch on me then, and twenty pounds, but I didn’t care. “Faggot,” he hissed, and brought up his hands. He dropped them when our father came in.
His hair was rumpled and his smile vague. He was still in his pajamas. “Am I interrupting?” he asked. David’s face tightened, and he turned on his heel and walked down the hall.
Where had it come from, whatever drove David to these assignations- grown from what kernel, planted where? We’d slept under the same roof- David and I, Ned, Liz, and Lauren- and eaten at the same table. Had this weed been growing in secret even then? Were we so self-absorbed, so intent on keeping low in the crossfire between our parents, that we’d somehow failed to notice it taking hold of David? Or were we necessarily blind to it, because the same dark vine had wrapped itself around us all?
“You want coffee?” Clare asked, and brought me back with a start from thoughts of body snatchers and damaged goods. “Or maybe you’re jumpy enough.” She smiled but there was concern in her eyes.
“I’ll have some.”
“You find that girl you were looking for?” she asked.
“More or less.”
“She all right?”
“I wouldn’t describe her quite that way,” I said after a while.
“No?” Clare gave me a questioning look and for an instant I was tempted to tell her about it- about Holly, and David, and the videos: all of it- and to ask what she thought. To ask her to make sense of it for me. The impulse took me by surprise, but I kept my mouth shut, and Clare scowled when I didn’t answer. She went back to her newspaper and left at noon, with barely a goodbye.
By one o’clock a lethargy had settled on me, along with a headache. I ate some aspirin and lay on the sofa and waited in vain for the edge to come off. The afternoon passed in a dozen books whose first chapters I couldn’t finish, and a dozen albums I changed before the second track. It was a familiar listlessness, a sort of post-case hangover that had grown worse as my cases had grown less frequent. Investigation over, at least for now. Reports written, i’s dotted, t’s crossed, nothing left but to meet with the client. Nothing to do. Nowhere to go. Nowhere but my own head. No, thanks. At some point I drifted into useless sleep.
My phone stayed quiet until after ten, and I was in bed when it rang. It was David, headed home from JFK. He was hoarse and weary but he brightened when I told him I’d found what he was looking for.
“Morning’s booked solid,” he said, “but I’ll try to make it after lunch.” As it happened, it was sooner than that.
It was just past dawn when the intercom buzzed, and at first I thought I’d dreamed it. A rain of ice was falling against the window glass, and the sound of it made a fine case for pulling the covers over my head. I had just closed my eyes when the intercom erupted again. My brother was gray and hunched on the little video screen. His head was bare and the collar of his overcoat was up, and he was clutching a newspaper to his chest.
“Let me in,” he said, before I could speak. I pushed the button and opened my apartment door and in a moment I heard footsteps in the stairwell. He came in with head bent, and cold air clinging to his clothes.
“What happened, David?”
“I was on my way to the office,” he said. His voice was choked and his skin had a drowned look to it. So did his eyes. “I almost never buy the News, but today I bought one. I don’t know why.” He put the newspaper on my kitchen counter.
“What happened?”
He opened the paper three pages in, and I followed his shaking finger down the columns. It was alongside an article that bore the headline “Woman’s Body Pulled from River,” and it was murky: a photograph- an extreme close-up- of a red cartoon cat standing on its hind legs and grinning insouciantly. Enlargement made the image grainy and washed the color out, but still you could tell that the cat was a tattoo, inked upon a patch of gray, dead- looking flesh.
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The Post named her the Williamsburg Mermaid, because her body had washed up under the Williamsburg Bridge, at the west end. That bit of poetry aside, the article contained nothing I hadn’t read in the Daily News. She’d been found on Sunday evening by a man collecting bottles, and she was, so far, a Jane Doe. The police described her as white, aged twenty-five to thirty-five, slim, with reddish-brown hair and a distinctive tattoo on her leg. As to time of death they were still uncertain, but noted that she’d been in the water “for a while.” As to the circumstances and cause, they said only that these were “suspicious.” A search of missing persons reports for women matching her description was under way, but detectives from the Seventh Precinct asked that anyone with information call the toll-free number.
I looked at the Post’s photo of the red cat; it was identical to the one in the News. The cops hadn’t yet released any pictures of her face, not even sketch work, and I wondered about that, and about how long she’d been drifting in the East River. I closed the newspaper and tossed it on the big oval table. David looked at me for a moment and resumed his pacing. I sat back in the soft leather chair and drank some of the soda water that Michael Metz had left us when he’d asked us to wait in his conference room.
Mike is a senior partner at Paley, Clay and Quick- a very good and pricey lawyer at a very staid and pricey firm. His well-deserved reputation as smart, tough, relentless, and icily calm in the face of chaos keeps his calendar perpetually full, but he’d made time for David and me that morning- not only because he was my frequent client, but also because he was my oldest friend. The only one left from college, and that despite all the calls I hadn’t returned.
I’d more or less dragged David to Mike’s office, though shock and fear had taken any serious fight out of him. It was only in the taxi, locked in traffic on the way to midtown, that he’d come around enough for the anger to bubble up.
“Fuck this!” he’d shouted, and hammered on the Plexiglas partition. The driver glanced back and shook his head. “I have no time for this crap,” David said. His voice was shaky. “I’ve got to get to the office.”
“The office will wait. You need to talk to someone about this.”
He shook his head. “I don’t need shit,” he said, and he reached for the door. I put a hand on his arm.
“You need a lawyer, David.”
“Bullshit,” he said, and shrugged off my hand. But he sat back, and for the rest of the ride had peered silently out the window, his eyes full of nothing.
In Mike’s conference room, ignoring the view of office towers shrouded in cloud, and wearing a hole in the expensive carpet, David found his anger again. “She was making fucking movies?” he said, and made it sound like my fault.
I’d gone over my report with him three times and was getting tired of repeating myself, and anyway it seemed beside the point now. “Videos,” I said. “She made videos. But we’ve got other things to think about.”
“Whatever.” David shrugged and crossed the room again. I took a deep breath. There’d been questions
