Black Halo

Gariath looked up and down the empty beach, bereft of even a hint of any other life.

‘I find that hard to believe.’

‘You would,’ the elder snorted. ‘The fact remains that you are the only one who has come by; you’re the only one who noticed. My point stands.’

‘Why aren’t you at your elder stone?’

‘I got bored.’

‘Grahta never left his stone.’

‘Why would he? Grahta was a pup. He would get lost.’

‘Ah.’

Gariath settled himself back on the sand, staring up at the orange-painted sky above. After a moment, he looked back to the elder.

‘Grahta,’ he said softly. ‘Is he …?’

‘Sleeping, Wisest,’ the elder replied.

‘Good.’

Another silence descended between them, broken only by the sound of the Akaneed’s murmuring keen rising up from below the waves. After an eternity of that, Gariath once again looked up.

‘Aren’t you going to ask me what I’m doing?’

‘Seems a bit unnecessary,’ the elder said, tapping his brow.

‘Then aren’t you going to ask me why?’

‘You are Rhega,’ the elder replied, shrugging. ‘You have a good reason.’

‘So, you won’t try to stop me.’

‘I might have a hard time with that.’ The elder held up his clawed hand to the light, grinning as it vanished. ‘What with being dead and all.’

‘Then why are you here?’

‘I thought you might like some company while you waited to die.’

‘I don’t.’

‘Oh?’ The elder looked at him thoughtfully for a moment. ‘Was it not you who was just wishing that his humans would come visit him?’

‘Those thoughts were private,’ Gariath snarled, glowering.

‘Then you shouldn’t have thought them while I was standing right here.’

‘It doesn’t matter.’ The younger dragonman turned his stare back up to the sky. ‘They’re dead.’

‘Possibly.’

‘Possibly?’

‘You didn’t die.’

‘I am Rhega. I am strong. They are weak and stupid.’

‘Bold words coming from a lizard hoping to starve to death so a snake will eat him.’

‘Can you think of a better way to die, given the circumstances?’

‘I can think of a better way to live.’

‘Live?’ Gariath’s snout split in an unpleasant grin. ‘I’ve tried living, Grandfather. I’ve tried living without my family, living without other Rhega and living without even humans.’ He sighed, chest trembling with the breath. ‘Living was fine for a time, but it was too full of death for my tastes. Maybe dying will be better.’

‘There is nothing worth living for, Wisest?’

‘There was. Now, I have nothing.’

‘You have me.’

‘Yes, I do,’ Gariath grunted. ‘One thing I never seem to lack is dead Rhega.’ He waved a clawed hand at the elder. ‘I do not need you, Grandfather.’

‘What do you need, then?’

‘It’s not obvious?’

‘Not to you.’

‘I need to die, Grandfather,’ Gariath sighed. ‘I need to rid myself of all’ — he waved a hand out to the sky and sea — ‘this. I don’t need it anymore.’

‘You’ve had plenty of opportunities to die.’

‘I haven’t found the right one yet.’

‘They all basically end the same way, don’t they?’

‘Not for a Rhega.’

‘Ah, I see.’ The elder scratched his chin thoughtfully. ‘So, the right way is to lie down here and wait to die while contemplating the existence of weak, human gods?’

‘It’s a way.’

‘Not the way of the Rhega.’

‘There are no more Rhega,’ Gariath growled in response. ‘I am the last one. I get to decide what the right way to die is.’

‘And what is the right way to die, Wisest?’

Gariath had an answer for that.

It was an answer that he had often dreamed of, birthed at the fore of his mind when he held two barking pups that seemed so tiny in his arms. That answer had grown along with those pups, nurtured by their experiences. When they had learned to catch jumping fish, to chase down running horses, to spread their wings and glide on the winds, that answer had grown to something that swelled with his own heart.

He would have very much liked to have that heart stop beating when they held pups of their own and watched red silhouettes gliding across the sky. He would have very much liked for them to have their own answers for the question.

Instead, two hearts had stopped beating instead of one. And with them, so did his answer die.

The elder stared at him with intent concentration, seeing it unfurl inside him. He shuddered as he and the younger dragonman shared the final thought.

An angry, agonised wail, offered to a weeping sky as Gariath clutched two lifeless forms in his arms. The same wail offered to so many wide-eyed, terrified faces as Gariath threw himself at them time and again, hoping for and being denied a righteous death.

‘That would be a good way to die,’ the elder said, nodding. ‘I would have liked to have left my family in such a way.’

‘How did you die, Grandfather?’

‘I didn’t,’ the elder replied with an enigmatic smile.

‘You are most certainly dead, Grandfather.’

‘In body, perhaps.’

‘Oh, this.’

‘What?’ The elder furrowed his ridges.

‘I’ve heard this before. Some vague philosophy about the separation of body and spirit, and it always ends the same way.’ Gariath made a dismissive wave. ‘Some attempt to be inspirational by suggesting the two can be resurrected alongside each other, maybe a little aside about raising spirits and being true to oneself. Then we all hug and cry and I vomit.’ He snorted derisively. ‘Humans do it all the time.’

‘Humans have had their points, Wisest. The difference between body and spirit is one they adopted, but it is not one they thought of on their own.’

‘It’s all greasy, imbecilic vomit, no matter who spews it.’

‘Is it? You’ve seen me. You’ve seen Grahta. Can you still deny the difference, knowing what death means to the Rhega?’

‘I wonder if I do,’ Gariath muttered. ‘You know what Grahta told me.’ He stared up at the sky, frowning at its endless orange and white oblivion. ‘I can’t follow.’

‘I know,’ the elder said, nodding solemnly.

‘Do you, Grandfather?’ Gariath turned his hard stare upon the specter. ‘You know death, but you know peace. You will know your ancestors, eventually, as Grahta did. You will know rest. Me …’ He