way. After everything of the past few weeks, she still walked with that subtle strut that only I appreciated. Her skin was pale fire. She is the kind of woman who doesn’t know how beautiful she is, which, of course, only adds to her appeal.
Repressed, hell.
In seconds, we fell into each other’s arms-lightly at first, as if our hands wanted to make sure it was real, and then a tight, life-affirming embrace. Then we both were talking at once, stopping at once, laughing, starting again, and each still hearing every word from the other. I wasn’t doing a lot of thinking right then. But I felt another presence, crazy as it sounds in the telling. For just a moment, bathed in the Arizona twilight and sheltered by my lover’s arms, I sensed a lost friend. But the cycle of life seemed benign.
Dan Milton had lived a full life of good fights and passionate loves. He embodied Oscar Wilde’s tenet that anybody can make history, but only a great man can write it. He was and he did. Dan Milton knew that the losses and dangers of mortality were burrowing tunnels under each of us, silently, year by year, and someday the ground would give way. He lived deep and wide, to have no regrets. I think he found grace that was joyous and not just awful. He was never afraid. Rest in peace, my friend. Twilight was gone. Lindsey took my hand, and I took her home.
Now, in the courthouse, my contemplation had gone from her wrist back to her knees. My darling had been born in the Summer of Love. She had been blessed with fine knees. Something against county regulations would undoubtedly have transpired on that blotter-it had before-if the door hadn’t swung open to reveal Peralta.
“Hear those hammers, Mapstone?”
Actually, I had been distracted.
“They’re rehabbing the floor below. They’ll be up here by the fall. We’ll have to find you a new place.”
“You can’t kick Dave out of his office,” Lindsey said. She slid around the desk and sat demurely in one of the straight-backed wooden chairs.
“Blame the county supervisors,” Peralta said. “I’m sure we can find you something over on Madison Street.”
“Like a cell.” I said.
“You’re dreaming,” Peralta said. “We’re so overcrowded that you’d have to kill somebody to get that kind of office space.” He didn’t smile. “Anyway.” He crossed in his long stride to the other chair and fell into it. The wood moaned. “Anyway, that commie SOB Yuri is out of the way. You two lovebirds are reunited…”
“It’s nice,” I said.
“Well, don’t be too damned self-satisfied,” he said. “All you did was prove to be an adequate pursuit driver and a fair arresting officer. Otherwise…”
Lindsey smiled slyly at me, her blue eyes keeping me calm.
“We’ll just never know about that FBI badge,” Peralta continued.
“I turned in my report.”
“Oh, right,” Peralta said. “The Chicago Outfit murdered Pilgrim. Even though there’s no evidence.”
“It’s what the best evidence shows.”
“How much did the taxpayers of Maricopa County pay to send you to the Bay Area?” He folded his arms across his big chest and glowered at me. With Peralta you never knew where the theater ended and the real-life asskicking would begin.
“Admit it, Mapstone. You couldn’t solve this case.”
“I did my best.”
“You failed. I bet a rookie in patrol could have gotten further than you. All that book learning and you still failed.”
“He didn’t fail,” Lindsey said.
There was a slight tapping on the door.
“Come!” Peralta said. Every office was Peralta’s office.
A gaunt lined face appeared around the doorjamb. A.C. Hardin. Wearing a sun dress and bangles on her wrists.
“I said I’d come by for my file. Is this a good time?”
I motioned her in and made introductions. She sensed the plume of anger hanging in the room and was eager to leave. But Peralta held her with his presence, although his bulk remained folded in thirds in his seat like a deck chair.
“So you studied this case?”
She nodded, then said, “Yes,” as if more reinforcement was needed.
“What do you think happened to Pilgrim?” Peralta asked.
Hardin looked uneasily at me. I just raised my eyebrows and smiled. I was daydreaming about Lindsey. My fingers were still happy from stroking her hand, her wrist…How could something as ordinary as a wrist tell so much?
Hardin was saying, “Like I told your deputy here, it was the mob out of Chicago, and the FBI covered it up.” Peralta gave a noncommittal, “Umm.” Then he stood and started out. Hardin came closer to my desk, her hand out for the folder. It was like guests leaving the party. I pulled out the papers she had lent me-none too helpful, frankly-and reached across the desk. She reached her slim, young-girl arm, to take it. And her bangles slid up on her forearm.
And I noticed.
It made me sit back in my chair. Hardin swiveled and walked toward the door. She was wearing high-heeled sandals that clacked against the dark wood of the floor. Peralta held the door for her. Lindsey was standing, too, closer to the bulletin board. She was watching me.
I said, too loudly, “Amelia!”
Hardin stopped in the doorway, turned, and looked at me curiously.
“Stay just a sec,” I said, rising and quickly crossing to the bookshelves. “I just want to ask one last question.”
My finger raced across frayed book spines. There: a 1948 Phoenix city directory. I thumbed it. Found the page. And damned if the name wasn’t there.
Hardin had stepped back in the door. The hundred lines in her face seemed to deepen. I closed the book, with my finger keeping the place. I was afraid to move.
“Didn’t you tell me that you grew up here?”
“That’s right,” she said. “That’s a lot of what I paint. What I remember about this place, before they ruined it.”
“On Verde Lane, right? 2320 West Verde Lane?”
She nodded. “Before it was even in the city limits.” Then she gave a little drunken lean against the doorjamb, looked at me, and started out. But Peralta was there. The top of her head came up to the midpoint of his necktie.
“I need to go,” she said, trying to push past him. “I have to…” He gently herded her into the room.
“It’s funny you say that because the city directory lists an Aimee Weed at that address. And that’s the mother of the man we found carrying Pilgrim’s badge.”
Hardin’s mouth tightened, but she said nothing, refusing to look at me. Peralta said, “Let’s sit down for a minute,” and he guided her to a chair.
“Am I under arrest?” she asked quietly.
“We’re just talking,” Lindsey said, sitting on the edge of the desk. “You can go if you like.”
Hardin folded her arms tightly across her chest.
“Amelia,” I said. “I can get your birth certificate.”
“I always hated that name,” she said.
Big rooms hold quiet strangely. Sometimes it’s as if the quiet of decades ago still lives in the highest pockets of the high ceilings.
“I had a brother named George,” she said at last.
“Why did he have the badge?” Lindsey asked, her voice diamond-cutter gentle.
“My mother was a very stupid woman,” Hardin said. “After dad died, she had to go to work. She became a secretary in the federal building. That would have been 1947? I can’t believe how long I’ve lived.”
