‘Makes perfect sense to me.’
‘My father’s like that. There’s a wait after you say something. And the man with the beard and the soft voice, he scared me so much, I can’t tell you. I didn’t know what a psychiatrist was. It was like…it was the beard more than the voice. Lie down and relax, he said, that was the most awful thing he could say…’
This was another Alice, an Alice released from bondage.
She said, ‘Frank, it’s a terrible thing to say, when I heard about Anne, I had this thought, not really a thought, a feeling, well, a thought. I thought: now they’ll believe me, now they’ll believe me. Is that awful?’
‘That’s not awful at all, Alice,’ I said, ‘that’s got nothing to do with awful. People can only pretend to understand other people’s pain. And they can only do that for a while. Then it annoys them, they think: how bad can it have been? If you talk about it, they want you to shut up. If you don’t, they think you’re sulking.’
I looked up and met Orlovsky’s eyes, he looked away.
Alice laughed, a laugh of relief, tension dispelled. In the trade, if she was holding a gun on people I’d have taken that as a good sign.
‘Alice,’ I said. ‘I want to play something to you, I want you to listen to something. May be nothing, probably won’t mean anything to you, just a silly hunch. Can I do that?’
‘Of course.’ There was a firmness to her voice, an adult, grownup firmness.
I held out the telephone to Orlovsky’s machines, gave him the nod.
A hippety-hoppety tune, a childish tune, a few bars, repeated.
I put the receiver to my ear. ‘Hear that, Alice?’
The line was open. She was there, you know when someone is there.
Silence.
‘Alice?’
She made a sound, a tiny sound, a sound in her throat, and put the phone down.
After a while, I put my phone down. Orlovsky had his elbows on the table, chin on his hands, looking at me.
‘The authors, they’d have written that tune, would they?’ I said.
He nodded.
‘What’s the game called?’
‘Shooting Star.’
‘Nice name.’
‘Yes.’
‘Tomorrow,’ I said. ‘Early. I want to see them.’
‘See them? Are you mad? If all this means anything, they’re crazy kidnappers and murderers. For fuck’s sake, go to the cops, tell your mates what you know.’
‘No,’ I said. ‘I want to see them. This happened on my watch.’
‘So did Afghanistan. You planning on going back there? Have another crack at them? Bring the boys back to life?’
I looked at him for a time, then I said, ‘We’ll need some ID.’
‘I’m going along, am I? That’s taken for granted?’
‘No,’ I said. I got up. ‘I’ll drop the pay envelope around.’
I was in the passage when he shouted, ‘What kind of ID, you bastard?’
It was 10.30 p.m. when I rang the Carson compound. The switchboard spoke to Stephanie Chadwick, put me through.
‘Hello, Frank,’ she said. ‘This is a nice surprise.’ She’d been drinking.
‘Stephanie,’ I said, ‘does the name Cassie Guinane, Cassandra Guinane, mean anything to you?’
‘No,’ she said. ‘No, I don’t know the name.’
‘She was in your class at school.’
‘Was she?’ She laughed, an uneasy sound. ‘Lots of unmemorable girls in my class. Why?’
‘I think her brothers may have kidnapped Anne. And Alice.’
I heard her draw breath. ‘Have you told the police?’
‘No. I don’t want to yet, not till I’m certain. Sure you don’t remember her? Tall, dark, pretty?’
‘No. Well, perhaps vaguely. The name.’
‘I’ll be in touch.’
‘Yes. Goodnight.’
Sleep was hard to come by, my nights with Corin seemed to be in the distant past. I thought about the Carsons, their laundered clothes, their Italian soaps and French butter, their Jamaican coffee beans freshly roasted each morning. I thought about Pat not acknowledging my presence and Stephanie’s lascivious kiss and pelvic thrust and Martie Harmon’s story of Mark salivating at the memory of seeing women abused. I thought about the security men patrolling the walled compound and the Carson child taken from them and put to death. And I wished I had never heard the name Carson.
I left my bed long before dawn, no rest in me, and ran down the snakeskin streets. See them. See the Guinanes. What
That was the point. That was the point.
43
On the way, too early to pay the call, we parked in Eltham’s main street.
Orlovsky lit a cigarette with the slim stainless-steel lighter he’d always had. Then he had a thought, offered me the packet. I took one. He lit it, regretted it instantly.
‘That’s not good,’ he said. ‘You shouldn’t smoke, I’m not comfortable with you smoking.’
I knew what he was talking about. I’d taken a cigarette off him on the night C Troop went to hell.
‘Omens now,’ I said. ‘Mick, it’s just a fucking smoke. Why don’t you get your palms read? Palms. Soles of your feet. You could get your dick read. There must be some meaning there.’
He blew a thin stream of smoke at me. Contemptuous smoke, his composure regained. ‘Flippancy,’ he said. ‘You cloak yourself in flippancy.’ Then he changed tack. ‘Ever given your command instinct any thought? What it might stem from?’
‘I have,’ I said. ‘It stems from a fear of being led by idiots. The only worse fear is of being followed by idiots.’
Cigarettes didn’t last long, promised more than they could deliver. I’d forgotten what hot and acrid teases they were, tiny unbalancing hits. I threw the end out of the window.
‘Time to go. Think like an inspector.’
The house was hidden from the road behind a dense screen of mature gums. A long steep unmade driveway curved to the right. We drove up and parked in front of a low building surrounded by vine-covered pergolas built from massive timbers. There was no garden, just native plants everywhere, many close to death.
‘Do inspectors have the power to hurt people?’ said Orlovsky.
‘Like tie them up and torture them?’
‘I don’t think so.’
The front door was huge, double doors, metal-studded, probably saved from some public building hammered to fragments by the wrecker’s ball. I rapped a tarnished brass knocker in the shape of a clenched fist.
We waited, quiet here, no sounds except birds in the gum trees, waited.
I dropped the knocker again, once, twice.
The lefthand doorknob turned and the door opened, just the width of the opener’s face.
‘Yes?’
A tall man, in his thirties, thin, clean-shaven, long hair combed back, dirty fair hair, touching his shoulders. I looked into his eyes, didn’t feel anything.
