dashed forward, intercepted her, and knocked her away from the door. She stumbled, reaching out a hand to catch herself. The low railing caught her at the back of her knees, and she went over, falling, seeing the sun-spangled foliage spin around her and hearing her own voice soaring until she suddenly didn’t hear anything anymore.
“A very small being to see you, O God,” the angelic servitor announced. The servitor looked very much like Father Sandoval except that he had wings. Marjorie paused in the vaulted and gauzy doorway to inspect them. They were not swans wings, which she had expected, but translucent insect wings, like those of a giant dragonfly. Anatomically, they made more sense than bird wings, since they were in addition to, rather than in place of, the upper appendages. The angel glared at her.
“Yes, yes,” said God patiently. “Come in.”
God stood before a tall window draped in cloud. Outside were the gardens of Opal Hill, stretching away in vista upon vista. After a moment, Marjorie realized the garden was made of stars.
“How do you do,” Marjorie heard herself saying. He looked like someone she knew. Smaller than she had thought He would be. Very bony about the face, with huge eyes, though the person she knew, whoever he was, had never worn his hair as long as God wore His, a dark curling about his shoulders, a white mane at his temples. “Welcome, very small being,” He said, smiling. Light filled the universe. “Was something bothering you?”
“I can learn to accept that you do not know my name,” Marjorie said. “Though it came as a shock—”
“Wait,” He said. “I know the true names of everything. What do you mean I do not know your name?”
“I mean you don’t know I’m Marjorie.”
“Marjorie,” he mouthed, as though He found the sound unfamiliar. “True, I did not know you were called Marjorie.”
“It seems very harsh. Very cruel. To be a virus.”
“I would not have said virus, but you believe it’s cruel to be something that will spread?” he asked. “Even if that’s what’s needed?”
She nodded, ashamed.
“You must be having a difficult time. Very small beings do have difficult times. That’s what I create them for. If there weren’t difficult concepts to pull out of nothing and build into creation. One wouldn’t need very small beings. The large parts almost make themselves.” He gestured at the universe spinning beneath them. “Elementary chemistry, a little exceptional mathematics, and there it is, working away like a furnace. It’s the details that take time to grow, to evolve, to become. The oil in the bearings, so to speak. What are you working on now?”
“I’m not sure,” she said.
The angel in the doorway spoke impatiently. “The very small being is working on mercy, Sir. And justice. And guilt.”
“Mercy? And justice? Interesting concepts. Almost worthy of direct creation rather than letting them evolve. I wouldn’t waste my time on guilt. Still, I have confidence you’ll all work your way through the permutations to the proper ends…”
“I don’t have much confidence,” she said. “A lot of what I’ve been taught isn’t making sense.”
“That’s the nature of teaching. Something happens, and intelligence first apprehends it, then makes up a rule about it, then tries to pass the rule along. Very small beings invariably operate in that way. However, by the time the information is passed on, new things are happening that the old rule doesn’t fit. Eventually intelligence learns to stop making rules and understand the flow.”
“I was told that the eternal verities—”
“Like what?” God laughed. “If there were any, I should know! I have created a universe based on change, and a very small being speaks to me of eternal verities!”
“I didn’t mean to offend. It’s just, if there are no verities, how do we know what’s true?”
“You don’t offend. I don’t create things that are offensive to me. As for truth, what’s true is what’s written. Every created thing bears my intention written in it. Rocks. Stars. Very small beings. Everything only runs one way naturally, the way I meant it to. The trouble is that very small beings write books that contradict the rocks, then say I wrote the books and the rocks are lies.” He laughed. The universe trembled. “They invent rules of behavior that even angels can’t obey, and they say I thought them up. Pride of authorship.” He chuckled.
“They say, ‘Oh, these words are eternal, so God must have written them.’”
“Your Awesomeness,” said the angel from the door. “Your meeting to review the Arbai failure—”
“Ah, tsk,” said God. “Now there’s an example. I failed completely with that one. Tried something new, but they were too good to do any good, you know?”
“I’ve been told that’s what you want,” she said. “For us to be good!”
He patted her on the shoulder. “Too good is good for nothing. A chisel has to have an edge, my dear. Otherwise it simply stirs things around without ever cutting through to causes and realities…”
“Your Awesomeness,” the angel said again, testily. “Very small being, you’re keeping God from his work.”
“Remember,” said God, “While it is true I did not know that
“Marjorie,” the angel said.
“My God, Marjorie!” The hand on her shoulder shook her even more impatiently.
“Father James,” she moaned, unsurprised. She was lying on her back, staring up at the sun-smeared foliage above her.
“I thought he’d killed you.”
“He talked to me. He told me—”
“I thought that damned climber had killed you!”
She sat up. Her head hurt. She felt a sense of wrongness, of removal.
“You must have hit your head.”
She remembered the confrontation on the platform, the railing. “Did that young man hit me?”
“He knocked you over the railing. You fell.”
“Where is he? Where are they?”
“One of the foxen has them backed into an Arbai house. He came down out of the trees just as you fell, snarling like a thunderstorm. He’s right out there in the open, but I still can’t see him. Two of the others came with him. They carried me down to you.”
She struggled to her feet, using a bulky root to pull herself up, staring in disbelief at the platform high above. “Falling all that way should have killed me.”
“You dropped onto a springy branch. Then you slipped off that onto another one, lower down, and then finally fell into that pile of grass and brush,” he said, pointing it out. “Like failing on a great mattress. Your guardian angel was watching out for you.”
“How do we get back up?” she asked, not at all believing in guardian angels.
He pointed again. Two of the foxen waited beside the tree. Vague forms without edges; corporate intentions and foci, patterns in her mind.
“Did they help with the men?” she asked.
He shook his head. “The one up there didn’t need help.”
She stood looking at the two for a long moment, thinking it out. Dizziness overwhelmed her and she sagged against the tree, muttering “Rocks. Stars. Very small beings.”
“You don’t sound like yourself,” he said.
“I’m not,” she replied, managing to smile, her recent vision replaying itself in her mind. “Have you ever seen God, Father?”
The question distressed him. Her eyes were wide, staring, glassy. “I think you had a bit of concussion. You may even have a fracture, Marjorie…”
“Maybe I’ve had a religious experience. An insight. People have them.”
He could not argue with that, though he knew Father Sandoval would have. In Father Sandoval’s opinion, religious experiences were something Old Catholics should eschew in the interest of balance and moderation. Once matters of faith had been firmly decided, religious experiences just confused people. Father James was less certain. He let Marjorie lean upon him as they staggered a few steps to the waiting foxen. One of them picked her up and
