son of a bitch, but he's a shrewd son of a bitch. The way he went after the Supreme Court… People will be studying that one for the next fifty years. Pass a law that's popular but unconstitutional, make the Court make the first move, and then land on it with both feet. Nobody much has complained since, not that I've heard.'
'Who would dare, with the stalwarts ready to beat you if you try?'
But Potter shook his head. 'It's more than that. If he'd really riled people when he did it, they would scream. They'd do more than scream. They'd stand up on their hind legs and tell him to go to hell. But they don't. Going ahead with that river project has given thousands of people jobs. It's given millions of people hope-hope for electricity, hope the rivers won't wash away their farms and their houses. They care more about that than they do about whether the bill's constitutional.'
'Nonsense,' Braxton Donovan said. 'What could be more important than that?'
'You're a lawyer, Braxton,' Potter answered patiently. 'Think of ordinary people, farmers and factory hands. You ask them, they'd say staying dry and getting electric lights count for more. There are lots of them. And they vote Freedom.'
'Even assuming you're right-which I don't, but assuming-what are we supposed to do about it?' Donovan asked. 'You've got all the answers, so of course you've got that one, too, right?'
Potter stared down at his drink as if he'd never seen it before. He gulped the glass dry, then waved to the bartender for a refill. Only after he'd got it did he say, 'Damn you, Braxton.'
'Well, I love you, too,' Donovan replied. 'You didn't answer my question, you know.'
'Yes, I do know that,' Potter said gloomily. 'I also know I don't have any answers for you. Nobody in the country has any answers for you.'
'All right. As long as we understand each other.' Donovan finished his second drink, then got to his feet. 'I don't want another one after this. I just want to go home. That's about what we have left to us these days-our homes, I mean. They're still our castles… for the time being.' He slipped out the door. It had grown dark outside, but not nearly so dark as Potter's mood.
What do we do? What can we do? The questions buzzed against his mind like trapped flies buzzing against a windowpane. Like the flies, he saw no way out. Even fighting the Freedom Party looked like a bad idea. Featherston's followers had been fighters from the start. They were better at it than the Whigs, much better at it than the Radical Liberals.
If we can't fight them, and if they do whatever they please, no matter how illegal it is, to get what they want, what's left for us? Buzz, buzz, buzz: another good question with no good answer visible.
'Maybe he'll go too far,' Potter muttered. 'Maybe he'll land us in a war with the United States. That'd fix him.'
He despised the USA as much as any man in the CSA. That he could imagine the United States in the role of savior to the Confederate States said a lot about how he felt about the Freedom Party. None of what it said was good.
Two tall gins were plenty to make him feel wobbly on his pins when he rose from the barstool. A fellow in overalls came in just then and sat down at the bar. He ordered a beer. As the bartender drew it for him, he said, ' 'Bout time they're shutting down those goddamn Whigs. Mess they got the country into, they ought to thank their lucky stars they aren't all hangin' from lamp posts.'
That was a political opinion, too, but the barkeep didn't tell him to keep quiet. It was, of course, a political opinion favorable to the Freedom Party. In the CSA these days, who could get in trouble for an opinion like that?
If Potter had had another gin in him, he would have called the bartender on it. If he'd had another couple of gins in him, he would have started a fight. But if he fought with every idiot he met in a saloon, he'd end up dead before too long. He went home instead. The cops didn't arrest him. The stalwarts didn't pound on him. In the CSA these days, that counted for freedom.
V
Sylvia Enos and Ernie lay side by side on her bed. He was as rigid as he would have been some hours after death. By the look on his face, he wished he were dead. 'It is no good,' he said, glaring straight up at the ceiling. 'It is no goddamn good at all.'
'Not tonight, sweetheart,' Sylvia said. 'But sometimes it is. Things don't always work perfect for a woman every time, either, you know.'
'But I am a man. Sort of a man. A piece of a man.' He raised up on one elbow to look down at himself. 'A missing piece of a man. Times like this, I want to blow my brains out. One of these days…'
'You stop that.' Sylvia put a hand over his mouth. Then, as if fearing that wasn't enough to drive such thoughts from his mind, she took the hand away and kissed him instead. 'Don't be stupid, you hear me?'
'Is it stupid to want to be a man? Is it stupid to want to do what men can do?' He answered his own question by shaking his head. 'I do not think so.'
'It's stupid to talk that way. This… this is just one of those things, like… I don't know, like a bad leg, maybe. You have to make the best of it and do what you can to live your life. Sometimes things are all right, you know.'
'Not often enough,' he said. 'It is not you, sweetheart. You do everything you know how to do. But it is no damn use. I might as well try to drive a nail with half the handle of a hammer. A wound like this is not like a leg. It goes to the heart of a man, to what makes him a man. And if it is not, he is not.'
'I don't know what you're talking about. I don't want to know what you're talking about, either,' Sylvia said. 'All I know is, you're scaring me.' George had never scared her. Infuriated her, yes, when he wanted other women after being away from her too long. But she could understand that, no matter how mad it made her. It was… Her mind groped till she found the word. It was normal, was what it was. It had none of the darkness that made Ernie's furious gloom so frightening.
Naked, he got to his feet and headed for the kitchen. 'Christ, but I need a drink.'
'Fix me one, too,' Sylvia said.
'All right. I need my pipe, too. Cigarettes are not the same.' Ernie never smoked the pipe in Sylvia's apartment. Cigarettes were all right, because she smoked, too. But pipe tobacco would have made the place smell funny to Mary Jane when she got home.
'Thanks,' Sylvia said when he brought her whiskey over ice.
He gulped his, still in that black mood. 'For a long time after I got wounded, I could not do anything with a woman,' he said, his voice hard and flat. 'Not anything. A dead man could do more. I wanted to. Oh, how I wanted to! But I could not.'
'Ernie,' she said nervously, 'wouldn't it be better not to think about… about the bad times?'
She might as well have saved her breath. He went on as if she hadn't spoken: 'I bought a rifle. I went hunting. I hunted and hunted. I shot more kinds of animals than you can think of. Sometimes, if you cannot love, killing will do.'
'I told you once to cut that out,' Sylvia said. 'I'm going to tell you again. I don't like it when you talk that way. I don't like it a bit.'
'Do you think I like what happened to me? Do you think I like what does not happen with me?' Ernie laughed a strange, harsh laugh. 'If you do, you had better think again. Why this is hell, nor am I out of it.'
That sounded like poetry, not quite like the way he usually talked. But Sylvia didn't know what it was from, and she was damned if she would ask him. She said, 'You're the first man I've cared about since the Confederates killed my husband. If you think I'm going to let you get away, you'd better think again.'
'If I decide to go, nobody will stop me.' Somber pride rang in Ernie's voice. 'Not you, not anybody. Do you know something?'
'What?' she asked warily.
'I am jealous of you. I am more jealous of you than I know how to say.'
'Of me? How come?'
'You had your revenge. You went to the Confederate States. You knocked on Roger Kimball's door. When he
