'I don't care
'You
'I don't have to do anything.'
'I'll make it up to you. I promise. I'll make it worth your while. Just tell me what you want…'
I stepped carefully around her, kept going all the way to the front door. She called something softly at my back. I closed the door behind me, leaving her there.
I could feel my face swelling under the skin, but I didn't think the cheekbone was broken. Putting my fingers to the pain, I couldn't feel my pulse in the damaged flesh. Not too bad, then.
The subway glass reflected back my image, just starting to go swollen and discolored, the eye already closed. Nobody but me was interested—straphangers see worse every day.
I spent the rest of the ride reading the posters. My favorite was from a law firm:
BABY BORN BRAIN–DAMAGED?
YOU MAY BE ENTITLED TO A LARGE CASH AWARD!
FREE CONSULTATION—NO FEE
UNLESS WE GET MONEY FOR YOU!
Back at the office, I cracked open one of those Insta–Cold packs they sell in drugstores, squeezed it in the middle until the liquid formed inside, and held the artificial ice against my cheek while I reached out for Mama on the cellular.
'That woman call. Call twice. She say, you call her, okay? Very, very important. Call right now.'
That was quick. 'Anything else?' I asked her.
'Girl call too. Bondi. Say to call her too. Very important also, okay?'
'Okay.'
'You need Max?'
'I'm all right, Mama.'
'I get him here. You call later, okay?'
'Okay.'
'Okay?'
'
'That's a beauty, isn't it?' Bondi whispered, looking at my face under the gentle reflected light from one of the baby spots. I was lying on her couch, shoes off, a pillow under my neck, darkness just coming outside through the closed blinds of her showplace window.
'It's okay,' I told her. 'Not too bad.'
'Ah, a tough boy you are, huh? You let them X–ray it?'
'I didn't go to the hospital. It was a punch, that's all. An amateur punch.'
'What happened to the other guy?'
I watched her face to see if she knew something, but her grin was innocent—impish, just playing. 'It's all done,' I said. 'Finished. Don't worry about it.'
'She called here. Heather…that big fat woman I told you about.'
'So?'
She leaned over me, eyes narrowing in concentration, working hard to make sense out of whatever she was going to say. 'She said there was money for me. A…bonus, like. What I needed, I mean, what I needed to
'Meet with her where?'
'
'Soon?'
'Tomorrow,' she said softly.
'And how much is your…bonus?'
'Five thousand, she said. In cash. And Burke…'
'What?'
'She said she'd give it to you. For me, I mean. She'll give it to you when you meet with her.'
'So she knows—'
'Oh I don't know
'Why you biting at me, girl? This isn't mine, and you know it.'
'I'm sorry,' she said quietly. 'I know it's not you. It's not even just…men, now. Not with…her in it. I wish I'd never started with that miserable bastard.'
'The guy—'
'Yes! The man across the street,' she said, voice hardening. 'That's right. Him.'
I closed my eyes, drifting with her rhythm. 'How're you supposed to tell her?'
'She's going to call. At eight tonight. I told her I'd reach out for you. But I couldn't be sure if you'd—'
'It's all right, Bondi. Tell her I'll do it, okay?' Then I told her about a certain park bench.
It was eight on the nose when the phone rang. Bondi left the couch, punched one of the lines on the phone console.
'Yes?'
…
'Yeah, I did that.'
…
'Tomorrow, then. Seven in the morning.'
…
'Yes, in the morning—that's what he said.'
…
'I don't
Then she told the voice I couldn't hear where to come.
'Maybe cats have the right idea,' Bondi said, her face so close to mine it was out of focus. In her bedroom, the queen–sized bed walled in with suitcases, all packed and ready.
'About what?'
'About licking their wounds,' she purred, coming close, her pouty breasts brushing my chest, tongue flicking across my cheek where Heather had hooked me.
'Bad idea,' I said, wincing from the little stab of pain.
'No,' she whispered. 'Just a bad place.' She licked my stomach. Gentle, tip–of–the–tongue licks. 'See?' she said softly.
'I'm leaving tomorrow, honey,' she said later. 'I hate this place. I hate this life. I'm going home.'
'The man across the street—'
'—doesn't matter to me anymore. It was a bad idea. Maybe just someone else using me the way they always do, I don't know. But if you want to mail the money to me—her money, what she's going to give you tomorrow—I'll leave you my address at home. If you…'
'I want it anyway,' I told her, the words coming so smoothly out of my mouth that I didn't stop to think if they were true. But they bought me a smile, her small white teeth flashing in the darkness.
The phone rang, a sharp intrusion. My eyes blinked open. The digital clock on the nightstand said 12:44.
'It's him,' she said, wide awake, not moving.
'So fucking what?' I asked her. 'Guess he's gonna miss his little show for once.'
The phone rang again. Three times more. Then it stopped.