'I will endure. I will have to.'
'Good.' He nodded, as he left. 'Good.'
An old law, a thousand years old. Valen had instituted it. He had said it was necessary for the war, and for its aftermath. Minbari should fight the Enemy, not each other.
Sinoval stood alone on the pinnacle of Cathedral, a glittering array of stars laid out around him, above and below. He felt he could take a step forward and throw himself into space. It would not work like that, of course. This was an image, no more real than the holographic imaging devices used in his warships.
Stormbringer lay in his hands. It looked still now, no more than a simple weapon. Sherann's blood was slowly drying across the silvery blackness of its blade. He had not been able to clean it.
He had killed two of his people, not in the heat of conflict, but in cold-blooded murder. Shakiri's death had been.... necessary. He was leading the Minbari down a dark and perilous road, and he had to be stopped. Sinoval had killed him as he lay in his bed, recovering from injuries. Shakiri's eyes had opened, and in a split second he had realised what was going to happen.
'Proud of you,' he had whispered.
Sinoval had killed him, and not thought about the matter for years.
He would not be able to forget Sherann so easily. His blood had been boiling with rage and fury and pain and the heat of battle, but he had made that decision entirely in cold blood. He had damned himself. It had been the Vorlon's trap, but Sinoval had sprung it upon himself, walking into it willingly.
It had cost the Primarch his life. Apparently Cathedral was now Sinoval's, and for the first time in his life he had no idea what to do.
'Maudlin thoughts, my friend,' said a voice, and he turned. A figure ascended the final step to the top of the pinnacle, and the summit seemed to widen, allowing enough space for the two of them. The newcomer pushed back his hood and the ancient, wise gaze of the Primarch Majestus et Conclavus looked at him.
'You are dead,' Sinoval whispered softly. 'I saw the Starfire Wheel take you.'
'I am dead, yes. My flesh is dead, my soul.... has gone elsewhere.'
'You do not save the souls of your own.'
'No, such is our punishment. The gift of immortality that we provide to others is denied us. Save for me. Such is my punishment. I am.... of Cathedral now. I am as much a part of it as its stones and towers and turrets and battlements. Cathedral has allowed me.... a little longer to explain matters to you. We will not speak again after this.'
Sinoval reached forward to touch his companion. His hand passed straight through the figure before him. 'A ghost.'
'Not a ghost. A revenant. A memory, perhaps. This form would be.... easier for you. Cathedral could choose others.'
'You speak as if Cathedral is alive.'
'It is, in a sense. Is your body alive? Of course it is, and yet what is it that gives your body life? What is it that animates a wall of flesh and bone and blood? Your soul. Cathedral is the body which protects and feeds the Well of Souls. In every way that counts, Cathedral is alive.'
'Then why has Cathedral let you come back?'
'To explain matters to you. There are things you must know now that you were not ready to know before. You must know of our oath, our sacred and binding duty. You must know our secrets, for you will guide us now. You will carry on my role.'
'I'm not the Primarch Majestus et Conclavus. Surely there is someone in your order who can be promoted?'
'It is not a matter of 'promotion'. Cathedral has chosen you. It chose you the instant you came here. Before then, even.'
Sinoval sighed. 'I am not worthy. Choose another.'
'You are worthy, and there is no need to choose another. I must tell you so much, so that you may understand. Your predecessor, the first Primarch Nominus et Corpus.... he thought he understood, but he did not. He thought he could abide by our vows, but he did not. He fell, thousands of years ago. We were too eager to interpret our part in our prophecies. We were determined to wait, and not to make the same mistakes as in the past.'
'Who are you?'
'We are the lost, we are the damned, the oath-breakers.
'At the beginning of time there was one race born of the universe, the first race, the first of the First Ones. The first of these were born naturally immortal. The wheel of time did not touch them, they lived and did not grow old. Oh, injury or sickness could claim them, but not time.
'Then something changed, and later generations began to die. They had been caught by time, and been bound within it. No one knew why this was so, and in panic they went to the first and asked him why they were dying. He said.... he said that it was the universe's way. To appreciate life, it must be finite. There must be borders, and limitations.
'There must be mortality.
'We did not accept that, and we began to research ways to live on. Time passed, and each new generation of scientists and philosophers and magi and scholars grew filled with terror at the thought of passing beyond, of dying. All the while, the first watched us disapprovingly. He warned us that what we were trying to do was wrong. We thought he did not want to share his immortality with us, and so we pressed on the harder. We became obsessed with death.
'Finally, we managed to isolate the soul. It was the body which grew old and died. The soul would not, not while there was a body to support it. We began to capture the souls of the dying, placing them in globes to keep them alive and conscious while we worked at stopping the process of time. We thought.... there would come a time when we could recreate the bodies of the flesh, and implant in them the souls we had saved.
'Our knowledge became vast. We lived a long time, by the standards of your race, and this took many millennia. We had all the knowledge of the past to call upon, and so we continued to work. Immortality was drawing closer to us now. Oh, we had eternal life of a sort, the souls preserved within the globes and laid within vast walls, that they might commune in death as they had in life.
'Finally we found the way to return the soul to the body, and we recreated the prison of flesh, restoring to life our oldest and greatest leader. We watched as his new form trembled and arose, as light came to his eyes. Our wonder.... We had triumphed. We had turned back death.
'The first came to us that night, with all those who were left. There were still a few of those who had been born immortal, and with the passage of time many had turned their backs on this quest and accepted their mortality. They urged us to stop this. We were not meant to be immortal. We were never meant to defy death.
'We refused, and continued to bring back the souls we had saved, creating new bodies for them. These new bodies would decay over time of course, but what matter? We would simply create new ones, over and over again, an eternal placing of the soul in new constructs of flesh.
'To die once is one thing, and a simple matter, but we began to die over and over again, many times, watching each prison of flesh collapse and wither. It seemed we were dying.... faster and faster with each new body. Again the first came to us, and warned us against this path. We scorned him, and our leader, one of the greatest of us, the first to be revived.... he told us that the first and his allies planned to destroy our work.
'We believed this, and gathered our forces, fortifying our laboratories and libraries. We built a mighty fortress around them, and used our powers to create a ship, a place that could travel between the stars and thus never be in danger of destruction. A stationary base is a target, an ever-moving one is not.
'We built Cathedral, and took to the stars in flight. There were many other races in the galaxy then, countless peoples, among them those you now call Shadows, and Vorlons, and others you know as First Ones. They
