you pain, Antonina, and your disgust of me is more than I am able to stand. Hush, hush, my dearest, my only beloved. All the rest can be borne, but not your odium. Antonina. Antonina.'
Finally she recovered enough to speak without screaming vituperations. She looked at the blood on his face and shoulders, at the rents in his clothing. 'Did I do that?'
'It doesn't matter,' he said, kissing her brow.
'Did I?'
'Yes.' He met her eyes steadily. 'You were very angry.'
'Yes.' Some remaining fire flared in her face, then faded quickly. She let him support her and take her to her bed. 'I must sleep,' she murmured.
He said nothing, waiting for her invitation which did not come. As he dismissed her body slaves, he watched closely but covertly. 'Do you need anything from me?'
'I have already had more from you than ever I sought,' she said with consuming bitterness. 'I will have to have time, Belisarius. So much has happened.' This last was vague and she did not look at him.
'Antonina?' He held out his hand to her. When she did not take it, he let it fall.
'Tomorrow,' she said distantly. 'Tomorrow, perhaps, we will talk. When I am more myself.' It was a dismissal, and he recognized this.
'Very well. Tomorrow.'
As he went to the door, she said after him, 'Perhaps.'
* * *
'They denied me entrance!' Drosos fumed, his eyes hard with indignation. 'They would not let me see him.'
Olivia trailed her hand in the fishpond and sought for the right words to console him. 'It isn't your fault, Drosos.'
'Of course it's not my fault,' he concurred, flinging the parchment scroll he had been given halfway across the garden. 'It's the damned Censor and his clique that are to blame, and they will answer for it, believe me.' He paced down the wide stone path, then came back to her. 'Aren't you going to say anything more? Just that it's not my fault?'
'What can I say? I am as distressed as you are; it is a dreadful state of affairs, and I wish it were otherwise. But words do not change these things.' She watched the flickering shine of the fish under the water lily pads.
'No, they don't,' he agreed, trying to be fair. His disappointment lessened. 'You wouldn't want to try to gain entry to Beh'sarius' house yourself, would you?'
She turned, not quite smiling. 'I am not prohibited from seeing him, but I am not allowed to carry any messages to him, or bring any writing to the house.' It was only two days since she had paid her first visit to Belisarius since his return from Italy, and she was still shocked by the reception she had received at the hands of the Guard who were posted there.
'You could tell him a few things from me, couldn't you?' Drosos suggested, putting his hand on her head and starting to loosen the pins that held her complicated hairdo in place.
'I might,' she said, her voice softening as the first lock fell on her shoulder. 'If I were caught doing it, I would be prohibited from seeing him again.'
'You're clever. They wouldn't catch you,' Drosos said belligerently. 'Tsakza!' he cursed, kicking at the path, his manner changed from teasing and sensual to restless dissatisfaction in an instant. He dropped one of her hairpins and let it lie at his feet.
'But if they did,' she went on, unflustered by his behavior, 'I would cease to be much use to you or to him. Drosos, I do not want to see you cut off from your friend.'
'My General,' he corrected her, moving away from her, her hair forgotten. He paced through her garden.
'Your friend,' she insisted gently. 'Drosos, if you had a tail it would be lashing. Come back and let us see if there is a way we might reach Belisarius without endangering him or you or me.'
'You just said there isn't,' he reminded her, close to sneering.
'I said that if I were caught giving him a message I wouldn't be allowed to see him again, and that's another matter entirely.' She took the last of the pins from her hair and shook it loose. 'Drosos, please.'
'They've made a prisoner of him, but they dare not lock him up. The people wouldn't stand for it.' He folded his arms and stopped beside her fishpond.
'Whether the people would or wouldn't, the Court Censor isn't going to test his power with Justinian quite