at her, hands in his pockets, shoulders canted slightly, an inquiring look on his face. She wasn't sure what she had expected, exactly. Some sign of terrific inner turmoil, whatever that might happen to be. If it had been Harry, whatever he was feeling would have been written all over his face. But it was Draco and his face was unreadable.
He looked…the same. Bright silver-gilt hair perfectly in place, perfectly elegant clothes perfectly clean and perfectly worn. The only odd thing was that there were gloves on his hands. It was warm in the room and she could not imagine why he was wearing gloves indoors. Perhaps he had just come from outside. Perhaps he had taken a walk around the lake to clear his head. Perhaps he hadn't, after all, been down in the cellars setting fire to things and jumping up on and down on anything that reminded him of Harry.
'Oh,' she said finally. 'Draco. Where have you been?'
'Thinking,' he said. He flung himself into the armchair opposite the fire and stretched his long legs out until his feet rested on the ottoman near the fire. 'And I talked to Snape a bit.'
Hermione came and sat down opposite him, still staring. 'Did you take your antidote?' she demanded, trying to keep the worst of the panicked inquiry from her voice.
He raised one silver eyebrow. 'Of course I did. Why wouldn't I?' He stretched his hands out towards the fire, saw her looking at his gloves, and retracted them. 'I think we ought to discuss our game plan,' he said.
'Game plan?' Hermione echoed faintly.
'Well, yes. I mean, we've got to find Potter. Don't we?'
She nodded, unable to speak. She had been prepared for incoherently upset or hysterical Draco. She was not prepared for calm, rational, faintly bored-looking Draco. As if his best friend in the world ran off on him towards certain death every day, leaving behind a letter telling him that every single awful thing he might ever have thought about himself was essentially true. She had seen Draco get more upset than this over a hangnail. In fact, the temper tantrum he had thrown over a bad haircut in sixth year was still a legend. People pointed at the scorch marks on the dungeon wall and spoke of the incident in hushed tones.
'I mean, he doesn't want to be followed. I understand that. And normally I'd say we should just let him go. After all, he seems to have a decent handle on the situation, wouldn't you say? And heroic rescues are awfully embarrassing if you're rescuing someone who isn't actually in danger.'
'Meep,' said Hermione, lost for words.
'I mean, you say, 'Here we are to save you,' and they say, 'But I just ran off to have a quiet think and a pint,' and then there's embarrassment and apologies and you've wasted a whole afternoon and I think I feel a bit sick. Ugh.' He closed his eyes and breathed deeply for a moment. 'The antidote,' he said. 'It makes me a little nauseated. Sorry. Where was I?'
'Rescuing people who aren't in danger,' she replied, quietly. 'Draco. What are you doing?'
Something flashed behind his eyes briefly, a dark light that sent a chill through Hermione's nerves. 'I don't know what you mean. We were talking about everyone's favorite subject. The Boy Who Ran Away. Leaving you to pick up the pieces as usual, I might add. Being a selfish fuckwit must just be built into that whole 'How To Be A Hero' business.'
'Because villains are noted for their kindness and generosity?' Hermione said. A faint inkling of what was going on with Draco had begun to seep into her consciousness. 'Look, I know you're angry at Harry — '
'This isn't angry,' Draco said. A bright spark of fire flashed beneath the lowered lids of his eyes. 'And I'd rather not have a sentimental conversation about Potter, if you don't mind. As my father used to say, sentiment breeds weakness. A prescient man, my father.'
'Your father poisoned you and left you to die,' Hermione pointed out.
'True,' Draco admitted. 'But as a strategic move, you must admit it was effective.'
Hermione stared at him. Finally, she said faintly, 'I think you'd better tell me about your game plan.'
'All right.' Draco leaned forward. The firelight danced along the curve of his mouth as he talked, the line of the full lower lip marked as if he had bitten it. 'He might not be letting me into his mind these days, but I can still think like he does. He left his Firebolt behind, so he didn't go anywhere by broomstick. He could have Flooed, but I know he hates that, and besides, Floo networks can be tampered with. I would imagine he took the train. Either from Hogsmeade or from one of the Muggle villages along the train route to London. Probably the midnight train. We've taken that one ourselves, if you recall.'
'I recall,' said Hermione. 'And I'd pretty much come to that conclusion too. So I'm glad we agree. The question, of course, is where did he get off the train?'
'London,' said Draco promptly. 'He'd go to London. He's familiar enough with it that it won't panic him, it's big enough that he can lose himself, Diagon Alley has whatever he might need, and if he needs money he'll have to go to Gringotts. And he will need money. He never brings enough to school and he always has to owl for extra if he wants to buy anything.'
'He wouldn't walk into Gringotts as Harry Potter,' Hermione pointed out.
'He's not that dense. And he wouldn't stay at the Leaky Cauldron. He'd find somewhere where they wouldn't recognize him on sight. I wish I had a map of wizarding London — ' Her mind was busy now, ticking over possibilities. 'Have you got one?'
Draco looked thoughtful. 'I have a map of wizarding strip clubs but I doubt that would be all that useful to you.'
'A map of wizarding strip clubs?'
'Fantastic Breasts and Where to Find Them. You can borrow it if you think it will help.'
'I do not think Harry went to a strip club.'
'Who knows?' Draco's voice was careless. 'That boy is apparently just full of surprises.'
Hermione hesitated. 'Draco…'
He folded his arms across his chest, interlacing the gloved fingers.
'Hermione?' he replied, mimicking her serious tone.
'What are you going to do when you find him?'
'What are we going to do with him? Bring him back here, I guess. Did you think we should go somewhere else?'
'No. I didn't mean that. I mean…what are you going to do?' She took a deep breath. 'I can tell what you're doing. And I know why you're doing it. And if that's what you have to do, then fine. But it won't hold when you see Harry and you know it won't — '
Bang! Draco had kicked over the ottoman. It hit the floor with a crash that made Hermione jump. 'Are you asking me if I'm going to hurt him?' he said, and there was suddenly a terrible light in his eyes and his voice cut like the edge of a whip. 'Are you asking me that?'
Hermione tensed but held her ground. 'That's not what I meant — '
'Then what did you mean?' His eyes narrowed and Hermione shivered.
For a moment she remembered all those past years, the semi-feral cruelty of which this delicately pretty boy was capable when pushed.
'Harry's not the only one I worry about,' she said. 'You know that, right?'
'Actually, I didn't.' He lowered his eyelids. His lashes were a shade darker than his hair, a tarnished color. 'And for your information, I want to find him for the same reasons you do. Well, perhaps not precisely the same reasons,' and his lip curled slightly, less a smile than wry shrug. 'To make sure he's all right, to bring him back safe, you know the story. So he won't die. Because I promised I'd look after him, didn't I? And I will.'
'And once he's back safe? Then what?'
'Then I never want to see him again,' he said, and fixed his gaze on the fire.
The breath caught in her throat. 'You don't mean that.'
'Don't tell me what I mean.'
'I don?t understand why you're doing this,' she said, despairingly. 'It's me — I love Harry — I miss Harry — I want to talk about it — '
'Back at the Manor,' Draco interrupted, still staring at the fire, his voice very flat, 'back at the Manor, when I
