«Say it, Mr.Shaw.»
«Well, now…»
Mr.Shaw fixed his eyes on a star some twenty light-years away.
«What ore we?» he asked. «Why, we are the miracle of force and matter making itself over into imagination and will. Incredible. The Life Force experimenting with forms. You for one. Me for another. The Universe has shouted itself alive. We are one of the shouts. Creation turns in its abyss. We have bothered it, dreaming ourselves to shapes. The void is filled with slumbers; ten billion on a billion on a billion bombardments of light and material that know not themselves, that sleep moving and move but finally to make an eye and waken on themselves. Among so much that is flight and ignorance, we are the blind force that gropes like Lazarus from a billion-light-year tomb. We summon ourselves. We say, O Lazarus Life Force, truly come ye forth. So the Universe, a motion of deaths, fumbles to reach across Time to feel its own flesh and know it to be ours. We touch both ways and find each other miraculous because we are One.»
Mr.Shaw turned to glance at his young friend.
«There you have it. Satisfied?»
«Oh, yes! I?»
The young man stopped.
Behind them, in the viewing-cabin door, stood Clive. Beyond him, they could hear music pulsing from the far cubicles where crewmen and their huge toys played at amorous games.
«Well,» said Clive, «what goes on — ?»
«Here?» interjected Shaw, lightly. «Why, only the con-founding of two energies making do with puzzlements. This contraption — ' he touched his own breast, 'speaks from computerized elations. That genetic conglomeration ?» he nodded at his young friend, «responds with raw, be loved, and true emotions. The sum of us? Pandemonium spread on biscuits and devoured at high tea.»
Clive swiveled his gaze to Willis. «Damn, you're nuts. At dinner you should have heard the laughter! You and this old man, and just talk! they said. Just talk, talk! Look, idiot, it's your stand-watch in ten minutes. Be there! God!»
And the door was empty. Clive was gone.
Silently, Willis and Mr.Shaw floated down the drop-tube to the storage pit beneath the vast machineries.
The old man sat once again on the floor.
«Mr.Shaw.» Willis shook his head, snorting softly. «Hell. Why is it you seem more alive to me than anyone I have ever known?»
«Why, my dear young friend,» replied the old man, gently, «what you warm your hands at are Ideas, eh? I am a walking monument of concepts, scrimshaws of thought, electric deliriums of philosophy and wonder. You love concepts. I am their receptacle. You love dreams in motion. I move. You love palaver and jabber. I am the consummate palaverer and jabberer. You and I, together, masticate Alpha Centauri and spit forth universal myths. We chew upon the tail of Halley's Comet and worry the Horsehead Nebula until it cries a monstrous Uncle and gives over to our creation. You love libraries. I am a library. Tickle my ribs and I vomit forth Melville's Whale, Spirit Spout and all. Tic my ear and I'll build Plato's Republic with my tongue for you to run and live in. You love Toys. I am a Toy, a fabulous plaything, a computerized ?»
«— friend,» said Willis, quietly.
Mr.Shaw gave him a look less of fire than of hearth.
«Friend,» he said.
Willis turned to leave, then stopped to gaze back at that strange old figure propped against the dark storage wall.
«I–I'm afraid to go. I have this fear something may happen to you.»
«I shall survive,» replied Shaw tartly, «but only if you warn your Captain that a vast meteor shower approaches. He must shift course a few hundred thousand miles. Done?»
«Done.» But still Willis did not leave.
«Mr.Shaw,» he said, at last. «What… what do you do while the rest of us sleep?»
«Do? Why, bless you. I listen to my tuning fork. Then, I write symphonies between my ears.»
Willis was gone.
In the dark, alone, the old man bent his head. A soft. hive of dark bees began to hum under his honey-sweet a breath.
Four hours later, Willis, off watch, crept into his sleep-cubicle.
In half-light, the mouth was waiting for him.
Clive's mouth. It licked its lips and whispered:
«Everyone's talking. About you making an ass out of yourself visiting a two-hundred-year-old intellectual relic, you, you, you. Jesus, the psychomed'll be out tomorrow to X-ray your stupid skull!»
«Better that than what you men do all night every night,» said Willis.
«What we do is us.»
«Then why not let me be me?»
«Because it's unnatural.» The tongue licked and dart-ed. «We all miss you. Tonight we piled all the grand toys in the midst of the wild room and ?»
«I don't want to hear it!»
«Well, then,» said the mouth, «I might just trot down and tell all this to your old gentleman friend ?»
«Don't go near him!»
«I might.» The lips moved in the shadows. «You can't stand guard on him forever. Some night soon, when you're asleep, someone might — tamper with him, eh? Scramble his electronic eggs so he'll talk vaudeville instead of Saint Joant? Ha, yes. Think. Long journey. Crew's bored. Practical joke like that, worth a million to see you froth. Beware, Charlie. Best come play with us».
Willis, eyes shut, let the blaze out of him.
«Whoever dares to touch Mr.Shaw, so help me God, I'll kill!»
He turned violently on his side, gnawing the back of his fist.
In the half-dark, he could sense dive's mouth still moving.
«Kill? Well, well. Pity. Sweet dreams.»
An hour later, Willis gulped two pills and fell stunned into sleep.
In the middle of the night he dreamed that they were burning good Saint Joan at the stake and, in the midst of burning, the plain-potato maiden turned to an old man stoically wrapped around with ropes and vines. The old man's beard was fiery red even before the flames reached it, and his bright blue eyes were fixed fiercely upon Eternity, ignoring the fire.
«Recant!» cried a voice. «Confess and recant! Recant!»
«There is nothing to confess, therefore no need for recantation,» said the old man quietly.
The flames leaped up his body like a mob of insane and burning mice.
«Mr.Shaw!» screamed Willis.
He sprang awake.
Mr.Shaw.
The cabin was silent. Clive lay asleep.
On his face was a smile.
The smile made Willis pull back, with a cry. He dressed. He ran.
Like a leaf in autumn he fell down the air-tube, growing older and heavier with each long instant.
The storage pit where the old man «slept» was much more quiet than it had a right to be.
Willis bent. His hand trembled. At last, he touched the old man.
«Sir?»
There was no motion. The beard did not bristle. Nor the eyes fire themselves to blue flames. Nor the mouth tremble with gentle blasphemies…
«Oh, Mr.Shaw,» he said. «Are you dead, then, oh God, are you really dead?»
The old man was what they called dead when a ma-chine no longer spoke or tuned an electric thought or
