Of course, Billiard was too heavy for this neat trick. Besides, it might hurt him, and Jamie didn't really want him killed or anything, just dusted off a little to show him where he belonged in the world.
But when he chinned up to Billiard, Jamie got cold feet and decided to wait a day or two longer for meditation. There was no use rushing things, so he let Billiard go free. Boy, Billiard didn't know how lucky he was at such times, Jamie clucked to himself.
One Tuesday, Jamie carried Ingrid's books home. She lived in a small cottage not far from the Santa Catalina foothills. Together they walked in peaceful content, needing no words. They even held hands for a while.
Turning about a clump of prickly pears, they came face to face with Billiard Cunningham.
He stood with his big feet planted across the path, plump fists on his hips, staring at Ingrid with appreciative eyes. Everybody stood still, and Billiard said:
«I'll carry your books, Ingrid. Here.»
He reached to take them from Jamie.
Jamie fell back a step. «Oh, no, you don't,» he said.
«Oh, yes, I do,» retorted Billiard.
«Like heck you do,» said Jamie.
«Like heck I don't,» exclaimed Billiard, and snatched again, knocking the books into the dust.
Ingrid yelled, then said, «Look here, you can both carry my books. Half and half. That'll settle it.»
Billiard shook his head.
«All or nothing,» he leered.
Jamie looked back at him.
«Nothing, then!» he shouted.
He summoned up his powers like wrathful storm clouds; lightning crackled hot in each fist. What matter if Billiard loomed four inches taller and some several broader? The fury-wrath lived in Jamie; he would knock Billiard senseless with one clean bolt-maybe two.
There was no room for stuttering fear now; Jamie was cauterized clean of it by a great rage. He pulled away back and let Billiard have it on the chin.
«Jamie!» screamed Ingrid.
The only miracle after that was how Jamie got out of it with his life.
Dad poured Epsom salts into a dishpan of hot water, stirred it firmly, and said, «You oughta known better, darn your hide. Your mother sick an' you comin' home all banged up this way.»
Dad made a leathery motion of one brown hand. His eyes were bedded in crinkles and lines, and his mustache was pepper-gray and sparse, as was his hair.
«I didn't know Ma was very sick anymore,» said Jamie.
«Women don't talk much,» said Dad, dryly. He soaked a towel in steaming Epsom salts and wrung it out. He held Jamie's beaten profile and swabbed it. Jamie whimpered. «Hold still,» said Dad. «How you expect me to fix that cut if you don't hold still, darn it.»
«What's going on out there?» Mother's voice asked from the bedroom, real tired and soft.
«Nothing,» said Dad, wringing out the towel again. «Don't you fret. Jamie just fell and cut his lip, that's all.»
«Oh, Jamie,» said Mother.
«I'm okay, Ma,» said Jamie. The warm towel helped to normalize things. He tried not to think of the fight. It made bad thinking. There were memories of flailing arms, himself pinned down, Billiard whooping with delight and beating downward while Ingrid, crying real tears, threw her books, screaming, at his back.
And then Jamie staggered home alone, sobbing bitterly.
«Oh, Dad,» he said now. «It didn't work.» He meant his physical miracle on Billiard. «It didn't work.»
«What didn't work?» said Dad, applying liniment to bruises.
«Oh, nothing. Nothing.» Jamie licked his swollen lip and began to calm down. After all, you can't have a perfect batting average. Even the Lord made mistakes. And-Jamie grinned suddenly-yes, yes, he had
Sure. That was the answer. It was just a reversed miracle, that was all!
«Jamie,» Mother called him.
He went in to see her.
With one thing and another, including Epsom salts and a great resurgence of faith in himself because Ingrid loved him now more than ever, Jamie went through the rest of the week without much pain.
He walked Ingrid home, and Billiard didn't bother him again. Billiard played after-school baseball, which was a greater attraction than Ingrid-the sudden sport interest being induced indirectly by telepathy via Jamie, Jamie decided.
Thursday, Ma looked worse. She bleached out to a pallid trembling and a pale coughing. Dad looked scared. Jamie spent less time trying to make things come out wonderful in school and thought more and more of curing Ma.
Friday night, walking alone from Ingrid's house, Jamie watched telegraph. poles swing by him very slowly. He thought, If I get to the next telegraph pole before that car behind me reaches me, Mama will be all well.
Jamie walked casually, not looking back, ears itching, legs wanting to run to make the wish come true.
The telegraph pole approached. So did the car behind.
Jamie whistled cautiously. The car was coming too fast!
Jamie pumped past the pole just in time; the car roared by.
There now. Mama would be all well again.
He walked along some more.
Forget about her. Forget about wishes and things, he told himself. But it was tempting, like a hot pie on a windowsill. He had to touch it. He couldn't leave it be, oh, no. He looked ahead on the road and behind on the road.
«I bet I can get down to Schabold's ranch gate before another car comes and do it walking easy,» he declared to the sky. «And that will make Mama well all the quicker.»
At this moment, in a traitorous, mechanical action, a car jumped over the low hill behind him and roared forward.
Jamie walked fast, then began to run.
I bet I can get down to Schabold's gate, I bet I can-Feet up, feet down.
He stumbled.
He fell into the ditch, his books fluttering about like dry, white birds. When he got up, sucking his lips, the gate was only twenty yards further on.
The car motored by him in a large cloud of dust.
«I take it back, I take it back,» cried Jamie. «I take it back, what I said, I didn't mean it.»
With a sudden bleat of terror, he ran for home. It was all his fault,
The doctor's car stood in front of the house.
Throught the window, Mama looked sicker. The doctor closed up his little black bag and looked at Dad a long time with strange lights in his little black eyes.
Jamie ran out onto the desert to walk alone. He did not cry. He was paralyzed, and he walked like an iron child, hating himself, blundering into the dry riverbed, kicking at prickly pears and stumbling again and again.
Hours later, with the first stars, he came home to find Dad standing beside Mama's bed and Mama not saying much-just lying there like fallen snow, so quiet. Dad tightened his jaw, screwed up his eyes, caved in his chest, and put his head down.
Jamie took up a station at the end of the bed and stared at Mama, shouting instructions in his mind to her.
Get well, get well, Ma, get well, you'll be all right, sure you'll be fine, I command it, you'll be fine, you'll be swell, you just get up and dance around, we need you, Dad and I do, wouldn't be good without you, get well, Ma,
