Inside the room, Shane said, “When?” and Claire just couldn’t stand it, not at all.
She threw open the door so forcefully it banged into the wall and almost hit her on the backswing.
There was a blur of motion, too fast for her eyes to track, and a flutter of curtains at the window, and when she blinked, Shane was sitting alone on his bed, headphones on, looking dazed. He picked up the remote, flipping channels on the TV, moving like a sleepwalker.
“Shane?”
He looked up at her, face bathed in that pale blue light, and for a second, he didn’t look anything like the Shane she knew.
Then he looked straight at the screen again as he shoved his headphones back.
“Hey. I thought you were sleeping,” he said. “Then I checked again, and you were gone.”
All her righteous indignation fell into confusion. She’d been going to accuse
But she, on the other hand, had undeniably sneaked away, in the middle of the night, without telling him.
“There was a ladder under your window,” he continued. “And unless you were planning to do late-night house painting, I don’t know why you’d be out there climbing on a ladder. Front door’s perfectly good if you want to leave, far as I know.”
“I had to…It was—” This was ridiculous. She hadn’t come in here to
Shane raised his eyebrows and looked back at the TV, where a woman was lying around in skimpy lingerie, talking on the phone and winking at the camera. Some kind of phone sex ad. “You mean her? She’s been on five times an hour. Sometimes they even run the ads back-to-back.”
“No, I mean—” What
Shane shook his head. “You’re kidding, right? You know how I feel about them. And I’m not a fang- banger.”
“You said you’d stop saying that.” Because of Eve, of course. And Michael.
“Yeah, well, nobody here but us breathers. Or is that something I can’t say, either?”
She was losing the thread of all this. It was all slipping away, like a dream at dawn. “Shane, I
“Yeah,” he said. “I thought the same thing when you were gone without saying a word to me. Just be straight with me, okay? Was it Myrnin?”
She was speechless, absolutely speechless. For one thing, she couldn’t lie about it—it
Shane’s face went still and cold. “Yeah. That’s what I thought.”
“Shane, I—”
“Morganville’s changing you,” he said. “You used to be scared of them, but the more you’re around
Where the hell was all this coming from? She knew how he felt about the vampires, about Morganville, but this seemed—so edgy. So bitter. “We’re here,” she said. “We have to make the best of it until we can leave. You’ve said so yourself.”
Shane shook his head, still not looking at her. He looked drawn now, and a little bit haunted. “I need to get you out of this place before it’s too late. I should have done it before the barriers went back up around town, but now…now it’s going to be more difficult. Got to do it, though. You can’t be here anymore.”
“Shane, what are you talking about? What makes you think I want to go right now?”
Suddenly, his focus shifted, and she felt hot and cold all over at the passion and intensity in his eyes. “Why wouldn’t you want to go? Because of him? Myrnin?”
“No!” She felt appalled now, entirely out of control. This had
“Do I need to be? ’Cause you’re running away in the middle of the night with him, Claire.”
“I—But it was—”
He turned away. “Just go, Claire. I can’t talk right now.”
She felt tears well up in her eyes, tears of anger and sheer, maddening frustration. It didn’t matter what she said now. Shane had just shut her out, as effectively as if he’d slammed the door between them.
As she watched, he turned off the TV, pulled up the blanket, and rolled over on his side.
Away from her.
“Shane,” she whispered.
No response.
She couldn’t take it—she
She wanted out.
Claire didn’t even make the conscious decision to run, but she did—out the door, into her own room, slamming and locking it behind her.
And then she sank down to a crouch against the door, wrapped her arms around herself, and cried like her