He smirked at me. “I was this close to getting to your happy place, so if that’s an invitation, I accept.”
My dream version of Nick was pretty perverted.
“What are you doing here? This is where I go to get away from things that bother me.”
He looked offended. “I bother you?”
“A lot.”
“I don’t think that’s true.”
“How would you know?”
“Because if you were really upset with me, you probably would have dreamed me with a hump or a debilitating, itchy disease.”
“Well, you’re not wrong,” I muttered. “So, what, you think you can show up here and put in a good word for reality Nick?”
He shrugged. “How should I know? It’s your happy place.”
I muttered, “Well, you could at least do this with your shirt off. What are you doing here, anyway?”
“I think there are probably some things you left unsaid earlier, and your brain is just giving you a chance to get it out of your system.”
“No, that couldn’t be it.”
“Fine,” he huffed, pulling his T-shirt over his head.
My eyes went wide at the sight of finely sculpted abs lightly dusted with a little gold happy trail. “God, this is going to be so much worse if you look like that in real life.”
“Oh, it’s even better,” he assured me.
“Bastard.” I sighed. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry I have to lie to you. And I’m sorry I have to make you feel crazy or unsure of yourself. I wish I could help you, but I just can’t. As much as I think you could mean to me, I can’t put you ahead of the people I love. You are a smart, funny, strange, drop-dead-gorgeous man. And I would like nothing more than to get to know you a hell of a lot better. But I think it’s better this way.”
“But none of that had anything to do with you, or you being a wolf, or how you feel. It’s about everybody else.”
“Exactly.”
“So your reasons are bullshit. You’re so afraid of expressing how you really feel that you’ll use any excuse to stay away from me. You’ve never had someone interested in you and only you. And you’re so afraid that’s not enough to keep me around that you’ll do anything to avoid finding out one way or the other.”
“I don’t think my figments are supposed to mouth off to me,” I grumbled.
“I was never much for rules.”
“Tell me something I don’t know,” I muttered.
“Butterflies taste with their feet.”
I raised my eyebrows.
He shrugged. “I bet you didn’t know that.”
“Oh, for fuck’s sake. You can’t help yourself, can you?”
“Well, I don’t think you’d want a lesser version of me in your happy place,” he said, giving me a cheeky little leer.
I snorted and closed my eyes. “Good-bye, Nick.”
I felt a featherlight touch on my shoulder. “Good-bye for now, Maggie.”
I woke up with a start.
Well, that was helpful.
My head throbbing, I sat up, wondering how long I’d been sleeping. The sun was hanging low over the mountain range. I sat up, feeling more groggy than refreshed. This was not the point of the happy place. Stupid Dream Nick and his verbal riddles consisting of stuff I already suspected.
I stretched my arms over my head and popped my back. Sleeping on the ground might connect you with the earth and all that crap, but it was hell on the vertebrae. Sure that my mom was worried enough to chew through phone books by now, I jogged toward home. I felt a fresh flush of guilt as I entered the village. This must be what parents felt like, returning to their kids after a long weekend away. I was a short step from giving every member of the pack a tacky T-shirt and a teddy bear. But at the moment, all I wanted was a hot meal, a large one, a hotter shower, and my bed. My front door was in sight when I heard my name called.
“Maggie!”
I turned and saw Clay jogging down Main Street toward me. I groaned inwardly, bidding that hot meal a mental farewell. But I took a deep breath and turned to him with a genuine smile on my face. Clay was a good guy and considerably less of a pain in the ass than most people I knew. He deserved my undivided and nonirritated attention.
I sighed as I watched him lope to an easy stop in front of me and give me one of those heartwarming grins. In a good and decent universe, my choices would be limited to Lee and Clay, and the decision would be relatively easy: Clay and his cute little chin dimple by a landslide. I huffed, thinking about stupid, shirtless Dream Nick and the “grindy” encounter in the back of my truck. I had to do something to get him out of my head. I had to show him that I was serious about staying away from him.
“What would you think of going to dinner with me some night?” I asked Clay before he could say anything.
Clay hesitated. “Uh, I was just going to tell you that part for the snow blower came in yesterday. What did you say?”
“What would you think of having dinner with me Friday?”
“That would be great,” he said, smiling hesitantly. “We could try that new pizza place in Burney.”
“Actually, I was thinking of the Glacier. We could see Mo and Cooper. It would be fun.”
Clay looked confused but shrugged. “Who am I to turn down one of Mo’s burgers?”
“I’ll pick you up?” I offered, then suddenly remembered that my truck was at the bottom of a ravine. “Hmm. No, wait, I think you’ll have to drive.”
ON FRIDAY MORNING, I walked outside to find a tow truck unloading my truck in the little side lot by the community center. It hurt to see the scraped, dented side panels, the huge crater the trees had left on the passenger’s side. The fender was bent to hell where the truck had tugged it up the incline. It was a wonder the tow truck had managed to winch it up from the ravine at all.
I could still smell Nick’s scent, mingled with mine, wafting from the rear compartment. The scent made all previous empty chest aches feel like a mild tickle. I actually had to bend over and brace my hands against my knees as the tow-truck driver lowered the winch and gently dropped my poor baby to the concrete. He stepped out, a rangy, weathered man in his forties, wearing blue overalls that stated his name was Wesley.
“Hi, can I help you?” I asked, straightening and doing my best to function like a normal person. “Did the state police send you?”
“Nope,” he said, unhooking a chain from under my truck’s tires.
There was something off about his smell; he definitely wasn’t human. He wasn’t a werewolf, either. He was definitely a were but something little, which was sort of funny, given that he looked as if he was blown out of a straw. I sniffed again. A weasel? Oh, come on. This guy was a were-weasel that ran around with “Hi, my name is Wesley” stitched on his shirt? Some people had no sense of irony.
“OK, do you just drive around the wilderness rescuing random were-creatures’ stalled vehicles?” I asked, my tone just a little bit snotty.
“Nope.”
“Do you ever say anything besides nope?” I asked.
He shook his head. “Nope.“
I laughed, which made his lips twitch. “The bill’s taken care of. Your cousin Caleb says you should call him.”
With a chortle at my shocked expression, he drove away, taking the north road through the preserve. I dashed into my office to grab my cell phone and dial Caleb’s number.
