poster, and wadding the yellow sphere inside it. “Don’t worry,” I went on, “my lips were sealed. But if you ever want to really check in with yourself, try hacking into the Bambi blog about you — and maybe stop slutting yourself out quite so much. Those girls are merciless. See ya.”
“Nat,” he grabbed my wrist, forcing me to look him in the eye. “Come on.”
“Come on what?”
“Can’t a guy change?” he asked so quietly I had to lean in to hear.
I hung there, knowing the answer like I knew my own name: no. But I couldn’t make myself respond. Finally, I settled for whipping my hand away and ducking inside the junior bathroom. I leaned against the back of the door, working to catch my breath. I wondered if Justin was still standing on the other side. I wondered if there was anything I could do to rattle him.
“Hey Tracy,” I said, refixing a smile on my face when I saw the juniors in their shamanistic circle.
Tracy Lampert rose from her royal-blue beanbag chair in the corner of the bathroom. Her long black braids swung forward when she moved in to give me a hug. Usually, I’m the first to go off about how a girl could hardly step away to check her voicemail in Charleston without getting a hug on her return, but after my hallway tumble with Justin, I didn’t mind a little bit of affection, even from the pseudo-psychic Lampert.
“You okay, Nat?” Tracy asked. Even though her signature sapphire-tinted glasses hid her eyes, it was almost like her voice was squinting at me. “Your energy orb is very present. Which can be a good thing or a bad thing, depending on—”
“I’m fine,” I told Tracy.
She raised her eyebrows but dropped the subject.
“Sit down,” she cooed. “Have some tea.”
Tracy poured a steaming mug of chai from a hot pot on the windowsill, and her two cohorts Liza Arnold and Portia Stead sat down on the beanbag flanking her sides. Portia whipped her long hair up into a massive blonde bun, and Liza closed her eyes meditatively. I stifled a laugh, thinking that by the time these girls were seniors, they’d be so over this phase that they’d look back and laugh at themselves. But for now, I was in their court, so I just plopped down among them on the final beanbag in the ring.
“So,” Tracy said, giving strange weight to the word. “How’s life?”
I cocked my head. “Life’s good,” I said. “But why don’t we talk about why you called me in here?”
Liza opened her eyes, coming out of meditation. She glanced at her watch, then at Tracy. “Just tell her. The bell’s about to ring.”
I lifted my chin. “Tell me what?”
“Okay, I’ll just cut to the chase,” Tracy said. Her voice changed and let in a rare hint of her natural southern twang, which made the bindi between her eyes look halfway ridiculous. “My sister-in-law is one of the ballot counters for the Ball this year,” she said. “She told me this thing about Justin Balmer last night. Now I know you guys have a history—”
I held up a hand. “We
“Whatever,” Tracy said. “It’s obvious you and Mike are really happy; I’m just saying that I thought you should know there’s buzz about J.B. this year.”
I could feel the blood rising to my face. Even though Palmetto Court was technically a student-driven vote, everyone knew that behind the scenes, the righteous right-wing school board kept a hawk eye on the ballot boxes to ensure that no one “unsavory” ended up with the crown.
I should have known J.B. would do something to secure a leg up with the ballot counters. What had he done? Bribed the judges? Not that I hadn’t thought about it myself. .
“Okay, which wrinkly ballot counter is that asshole screwing?” I blurted.
The juniors gasped, and Tracy covered her mouth to stifle a laugh. “No, sweetie, you misunderstood. The judges aren’t exactly buzzing about J.B. in a good way.” She tucked a braid behind her ear. “Between you and me, someone’s trying to keep him off the Court. Some bad blood from last summer — I don’t know the details. I was just telling you because—”
I could breathe again. I almost wanted to kiss Tracy.
“Because you knew I was worried about Mike,” I said finishing her sentence.
“Exactly,” Tracy nodded. “Nothing’s certain, of course, but I figured I owed it to you to pass along the word. Your poker face isn’t half bad. Still, I hate to see a pretty girl give herself premature worry lines when I can do something to help.”
“Does Justin know someone has it in for him?” I asked, trying to smooth out my forehead without looking too obvious.
But before Tracy could answer, an apocalyptic crash of thunder boomed outside. All the girls crowded around the window to get a look.
“Oh my God!” Liza cried, gazing out at what was quickly turning into a full-fledged hailstorm. “We left the banners in the parking lot. They’re tempera paint! They’ll melt!”
Instantly, the junior bathroom mobilized. I guess hippies couldn’t always be at peace with the weather. All the girls started scrambling to get their massage oil back in their hemp bags so they could save their junior-spirit banners from the elements.
On her way out the door, Tracy cupped my elbow.
“J.B. doesn’t know a thing,” she said. “Probably best if we keep it that way — know what I mean?”
Then she and her friends scattered, taking their tempest outside. The only sign of life in the empty bathroom was the swinging door that led out to the hallway — the swinging door with J.B.’s face plastered on it.
The question still rang in my ears. But I’d heard that one too many times before. So I stood before the half- ripped poster and ran my hand over his face, the way they do in the movies to close the eyes of the dead.
Then, glancing around the empty hallway, I snatched it off the door, folded it neatly in half, and dropped it in the junior-class recycling bin. I wasn’t so far away from my own junior year that I’d forgotten how to voodoo.
“
He was standing in the doorway, wringing out of his rain-soaked football jersey, but when I started skivvying out of my damp jeans — just slowly enough to give him a little show — I could see his reflection in the window perk right up to attention.
“Define
“You’re mocking me,” I moaned, pulling away to face the manicured green of the thirteenth hole and the lush rolling tree line beyond the course. Clots of greenish clouds churned overhead, ready to turn to rain again any second.
“You’re too clothed to be taken seriously,” Mike said, pulling my attention back indoors and my body back to his. He tugged at the tight black turtleneck I was still wearing. “Aren’t you the one who suggested the rule?” he teased, kissing my neck between each word. “Total. Naked. Honesty?”
I rolled my eyes but grinned as I pulled my shirt over my head. The room was cool, and I felt the prick of goose bumps rise along my arms. I stretched out diagonally across the king-size waterbed in my lucky black-bra- and-underwear set, then rolled over onto my stomach so Mike would have to climb on top of me to find a spot.
“Honesty later,” I said, gesturing at my neck. “Kneading now. I’ve got a knot the size of Georgia right. . yes,
Mike had stripped down to his tartan boxers and assumed the masseur position over me. I let myself close my eyes and really breathe for the first time all day.
After finding out from Tracy how close we were to certain victory, I’d fidgeted through the rest of my classes, getting more and more anxious to plot something to ensure our win. By now, it was all I could think about. But there was something about Mike’s hands on my neck, how powerful and strong they were. They made me let everything go.
