Daddy had doubts, but he said, “Don’t go off a long ways. There’s some close fishin’ holes.”
“I know where they are,” Grandma said. “Mose showed us all them holes. Is Old Mose still alive?”
“Yes,” Daddy said.
“He still live in that same shack?”
Daddy nodded. “I’d prefer you not go off that far.”
“All right then,” Grandma said. “Can they go?”
“Long as you’re with them. And stay pretty close to the house.”
Grandma put on some overalls. Me and Tom dug some worms and put them in a coffee can, got poles and fishing business together, and with Grandma toting a double-barrel twelve-gauge, we went into the woods, heading for the river.
The woods smelled sour that day, and the way the trees rose up and the sun shone down, it was like being in some kind of cathedral with light coming through stained glass. Dried pine needles crunched under our feet and colored leaves were blowing past us thick as raindrops.
I still felt full and sleepy, but the walk was starting to invigorate me. Grandma walked us down to the river and we picked a spot with a big wash in the bank and gathered up there, put worms on our hooks. We started fishing, and pretty soon, Grandma started talking.
“You remember me, Harry?”
“Yes ma’am. I remember when you moved off. I remember you good. Grandpa too.”
“Well, I’m glad to be back now.”
“I don’t remember you,” Tom said.
Grandma laughed. “I suppose you don’t.”
“I’m sorry about Grandpa,” I said.
“Me too. I couldn’t stay there near his grave though. A grave is just a grave. The man is in my heart. I love my daughter Earlene, but I had to get back to East Texas. They ain’t got no trees up there near Amarillo.”
“No trees?” Tom asked.
“They call some of ’em trees, but they’re more like bushes. And they ain’t got the rivers and the creeks like we got down here. Ain’t got the critters we got. And it’s harder to make you somethin’ to eat. Can’t grow nothin’.”
“Daddy says times are hard here,” I said.
“They’re hard all over. But here ain’t nothin’ like North Texas, and those poor people in Oklahoma and Kansas.”
“How do you mean?”
“Well, Harry, they ain’t got the soil we got here to begin with. You can drop a seed in the ground here and it’ll grow… Look there, I got a bite… Damn! Took the worm off my hook. Danged fish are smarter than you think.”
Grandma pulled up the line and Tom put another worm on it.
“It was rough up there in North Texas. One day they had somethin’ growin’. Corn, cotton, peas, and such, then it got dry. Didn’t no rain come and the ground got crusty as a scab. A few clouds floated around to tease us now and then, but they wouldn’t give up water. Finally they quit jokin’ us and just went away altogether. Everything got baked. Corn yellowed on the stalks, ears shriveled up like caterpillars on a hot piece of tin. Taters rotted in the ground, or when they were dug they were like pine knots. Not fit to eat, even if you boiled them from here till next Sunday, put salt and pepper all over ’em, and beat ’em with a hammer. Cotton wouldn’t grow and the peas burned up.
“Dirt got so dry it turned like face powder. Wind come along, all blue norther and wild, picked up the dirt, made a cloud of it, and blew it around. Then there was grit in everything. ’Tween your teeth, in the crack of your butt, twixt your toes, in anything you had to eat and drink. That ole wind worked dirt out from under rocks and sucked all the goodness out of the soil, leavin’ just sand that would run through your fingers like water. Then there were the grasshoppers.”
“We got grasshoppers,” Tom said.
“ ’Course you do. But they ain’t starvin’ to death here, and they ain’t eatin’ everything green or brown that’s got some life in it. They came from all over, them hoppers. They ate what was left growin’. Ate the leaves off the bushes, ate them things they call trees up there. And they was always gettin’ in your hair. It was a mess. Then them dark clouds of dust that hung around got caught up good on the constant wind, and the sky turned black as preacher sin, ’cept for where the sun bled through like a bloody, seepin’ head. All that dirt blowed away, all the decent topsoil toted off to God knows where. Then all them folks started headin’ out to California for pickin’ jobs. Went out there in old cars and trucks as worn out as the crops and the people in ’em.”
“Pickin’?” I asked.
“Fruit and berries, Harry. Whatever they got grows out there needs pickin’. There’s Okies goin’ by the hundreds out that way. Texans too. I figure they’re just chasin’ that dirt blowed away, like chasin’ a dream. Anyway, they all went west, and I figured I’d go the other way.”
“What about Aunt Earlene?”
Grandma cast her fresh worm out into the water.
“She and her husband was dead-set for California. They done been told it’s the Promise Land, and they believe it. I figured I didn’t want to get that far from Texas. I want to die in Texas. East Texas anyway. Least I’ll be in damp ground and not some dusty hole. I like to think a worm can live in this dirt, and if it and all its friends eat me, then I at least get carried all over East Texas.”
“That’s awful, Grandma.”
She laughed. “Well, I don’t think so. I’d rather be the turds the worms leave than slow rot in dry ground. Here the earth’s held down by trees and roots and kept damp by creeks, rivers, and a high-up waterline. ’Cause of that, I wanted to be here. And I hadn’t had no real time with you and Tom. Earlene’s boys are in their teens, and they’ve got plans of their own, and I hope long as I live never to pick another ball of cotton nor another berry neither, ’less I’m just pickin’ for myself to eat.”
“I’m almost twelve.”
“What?”
“You said Aunt Earlene’s kids are in their teens. I’m almost in mine.”
“He is old,” Tom said.
“I suppose he is,” Grandma said. “But your Mama and Daddy have kept you close to the house, Harry. They ain’t made you work like Earlene’s young’ns had to work and are gonna have to work out there in that California. I think they won’t find it near as promisin’ as they think. I tried to tell ’em, but it’s their business, you know.”
“I’ll work.”
“Know you will. But you don’t need to work like them… Why ain’t you gettin’ any schoolin’?”
“School ain’t got a teacher.”
“Say it ain’t. Well, I’ve done some teachin’ from time to time. Not that my English is all that good, but it can get better when I want it to. I wasn’t so dead-set on doin’ little to nothin’ right now, I’d be your teacher. I can do that anyway. Back at the house. We can do readin’, writin’, and ’rithmatic without any ole teacher. I can teach you and Thomasina a few things.”
“We ain’t gonna start right away, are we?” Tom asked.
“Naw.”
“Lookee there, Grandma,” I said. “A big ole cottonmouth moccasin.”
A black head was poking out of the brown water, slipping close to the bank. A moccasin always made my skin crawl.
Grandma picked up the shotgun and let loose with one barrel. The moccasin’s head disappeared.
“Never could stand those nasty sonsabitches,” Grandma said.
The leaves had fallen on and all around us, almost thick as a blanket.
Tom, full of biscuits, rabbit, and gravy, warmed by the soft earth and made cozy by the blowing leaves, curled up and tried to listen for a while, but was soon fast asleep.
Grandma said, “Ain’t she precious.”
“When she’s asleep.”
“Harry, your Daddy sure didn’t want to talk about Mose much. Is there somethin’ wrong about Mose?”
“No ma’am.”
