Graxen spun around, searching for the source of the voice. It seemed to have come from a narrow gap between two shelves. It was difficult to tell, though, if there was a chamber beyond, or if the shadow merely gave the illusion of such. He crept forward.
'Who's there?' he said, keeping his voice low.
'Metron. The one you seek,' the voice said. Graxen found that the gap between the shelves was filled with a tall stack of books. The chamber stank of dust and aged paper.
'You don't fool me, stranger,' Graxen said, listening for any further noise. There was a scrape on stone. Behind the shelf? Or on the same row he was on, in the darkness at the end? The long tall rows of books baffled sound, and confused his senses. 'Metron was banished. Who are you truly?'
'I am Metron,' the voice said. 'And, I am banished, a tatterwing cast out into the wilds.'
'These aren't the wilds,' said Graxen.
'True,' the voice said. 'Fate has led me back to my long time home. No one knows the hidden chambers of this library better than myself. I could elude detection for the remainder of my days. Yet, this is not why I've returned. I've come seeking an individual dragon.'
'Who?' asked Graxen. Then the answer seemed obvious. 'Androkom?'
'No. Androkom and I didn't part on good terms. The dragon I seek, as difficult as this may be to believe, is you, Graxen the Gray. I've returned to the palace to speak with you, since I've learned you now reside here in service to Shandrazel. I entered through a passage that only I know of. I didn't expect to find you in the library, however.'
'This does give me reason to be skeptical of your claims,' Graxen said, straining his neck to try to see over the top of the stack of books. Only dim shadows lay beyond.
'Some biologians argue that there are no coincidences. They see in chance encounters the guiding claws of an architect of fate. Some days, I wonder if my life is not a testament to this fundamental truth.'
'Why would you seek me out?' Graxen asked, still not convinced that the voice belonged to Metron, but willing to accept it until more information emerged. 'I know of your betrayal of Shandrazel and your alliance with Blasphet. You'll find no favor from me.'
'What leads you into this dark corridor, my son?' asked Metron. 'Is there something you seek? Why not ask one of the attendant biologians?'
'What I'm looking for is none of your business,' said Graxen.
'Everything in this library is my business,' said Metron. 'I've had over half a century to organize this collection. It will take Androkom decades to unravel my system. If there is anything you wish to find, there's no one better equipped to lead you to it than myself.'
Graxen looked down the long hall of books, back toward the distant light of the main hall. How many books were here? Ten million? More? He could spend years looking at them one by one.
Haste was of the essence. Shandrazel was no doubt wondering why he hadn't reported back from his pursuit of the valkyries. He also knew he should inform the king of the unprovoked attack by the gleaners he'd encountered near Dragon Forge. Yet, he could do neither of these things until he found the information he needed for Nadala.
'You've taken a long time to consider your answer, my son,' said Metron.
'Don't call me your son,' said Graxen. 'I know you mean it in a metaphorical sense, due to your greater age, but I find the word distasteful.'
'That's most unfortunate,' said Metron. 'Because I don't intend the word in a metaphorical sense. I've come here, Graxen, to confess my greatest secret to the one most harmed by it. I've carried this terrible burden for many years. I've watched you grow, witnessed the cruelties you've endured, and I stood in silent cowardice. I've betrayed you, Graxen, by never admitting to the world that I am your father.'
'What is the purpose of these lies?' Graxen said, his voice loud enough that, should any attendants be near, they would almost certainly hear him. 'Metron was famed for his celibacy.'
'You speak of my public refusal of the invitation to the Nest. I did feel that way, in my early years as high biologian. However, the matriarch and I were the two highest authorities among the sky-dragons. We often had contact on a purely professional basis. There are ceremonies at the Nest that the High Biologian attends. The matriarch and I would sometimes retreat to private chambers to discuss the burdens of our shared duties. Neither of us was young. Both of us were past the sanctioned age of breeding; even if we weren't, breeding between us was contraindicated by our genetic threads. Yet, despite this knowledge-or perhaps, perversely, because of it-we soon found our attraction overwhelming, and succumbed to mutual passions. We carried out our secret trysts for years-until the matriarch reported she was pregnant. There are poisons that can terminate a pregnancy, but they can be fatal for an older female. When you were born, it was her intention to have you killed. I pleaded with her to spare your life. As you were my only offspring, I couldn't bear the thought of your death. My rank prevented me from claiming you as my own, but through the years I've watched your progress with great interest.'
Graxen wanted to dismiss these words as lies, but found he couldn't. The greatest mystery of his life was why the matriarch had allowed his survival beyond infancy. Of all the sky-dragons, only the high biologian would have had sufficient sway to ensure his survival. Instinctively, he knew Metron was telling the truth. Still, not everything made sense.
'Why did my survival matter? I was a freak, fated to never breed. If the sole value of a child lies in passing along the parent's genetic material, I was of no value to you.'
'This is not an easy thing to explain, Graxen.' Metron sighed. There was soft scraping sound on the row behind the niche. Was he moving something? 'If my sole desire in this life had been to pass along my genes, I had that opportunity many times over. The threadlines dictated a half-dozen valkyries I could have productively mated with. I refused; my brother Pachythan was selected in my place.'
'Why did you refuse?'
'Intellectual arrogance, I suppose. I've witnessed the mating behavior of lower animals. The hardwired desire to rut seems to be the driving force of life; only in the sky-dragon has the intellect advanced sufficiently for reason to take command of those baser instincts. At least, so I thought. In reality, the first moment I felt the matriarch's cheek against my own, all reason left me, and I surrendered to the same animal lust that drives all other creatures.'
'Truly?'
'Truly. I remember the first time I met the matriarch. I cherished her strength and her humor. I recall the gemlike quality of her eyes, and the way that sunlight danced upon her lustrous scales. Every time I met her, my infatuation deepened. I grew fond of her scent; days spent without hearing the music of her voice were as cold and barren as the depths of winter. When at last I confessed my desires, and found she felt the same, it was the first moment of my life when I was wholly alive. Don't you see, Graxen? I didn't mate due to some intellectual scheme to produce the perfect scion. I wanted you to live because you were a testament to the feelings I had for the matriarch. I wanted you to live because you were product of my love.'
'Love?' said Graxen. 'All my life I've been taught that love is a folly of the lesser races, an unworthy emotion for a sky-dragon.'
'I know. I preached this doctrine. I've written books defending it. I've been a hypocrite of the highest order. Falling in love with the matriarch changed everything I knew about the world. Publicly, due to the gravity of my office, I couldn't speak out against the chosen method of propagating our species. But, privately, I fear for the long-term prospects of our race. What does it matter if we become as numerous as ants and as powerful as gods, if we breed away all compassion and love from our species?' As Metron spoke, his voice seemed in motion, beginning in the book-filled niche and ending in the hall behind Graxen. Graxen turned to find the elderly sky-dragon, his wings torn to strips. His wounded limbs weren't fully healed; he smelled of rot and corruption.
Metron continued: 'I fell victim to Blasphet because he flattered my intellect and I ignored my heart, which knew what he wanted was wrong. I believe the underlying amorality of sky-dragons led us to stand silent as Albekizan attempted genocide against the humans. We hold the intellect as the highest virtue while denouncing the value of emotion. We mock as philosophical illusions such concepts as good and evil. We're following a genetic road to becoming a race of brilliant, attractive, soulless monsters.'
'Your words are hollow to me,' said Graxen. 'Where was your defense of love when you held power? You once had the authority to change the world. Now that you've lost your rank, you confess to your regret?'
'Yes,' said Metron, lowering his head, looking woeful. 'Yes, when I held power, I sought to protect the status
