him, but it made his lips curve. Releasing her hair, he moved around to stand at her back, placing his hands palms down on the counter on either side of her.
She took another bite of the muffin.
Grinning, he brushed aside the fall of her hair and pressed a kiss to the delicate skin of her nape.
A shiver. “Devraj Santos,” she said with quiet forcefulness, “you are not going to charm me into going back.”
He kissed her again, along the slender curve of her neck. “Who said anything about charm?” he murmured, nibbling at her earlobe. “I’m planning to seduce you.”
She put down that damn muffin. “Dev, why aren’t you yelling at me?”
Another kiss as he rose to his full height and wrapped his arms around her, dropping his chin on top of her head. “You’re too stubborn to respond to yelling.” She’d survived something he wasn’t sure even he could survive—a man would be stupid not to respect that kind of will in his woman.
“But you’re still going to drag me back.” Her hand closed into a fist on the counter. “Why? I’m no threat this far from you.”
“I have to consider what you might’ve learned in the time you’ve been with us, whether you’ll circle back and strike.”
That hand flexed, then closed again. “Nothing I say will change your mind, will it?”
He knew what he should do. Until he’d walked into this kitchen, there hadn’t even been a question in his mind. But—“I can give you three days.”
She sucked in a breath. “Dev?”
“We’ll take the airjet as far north as you’re comfortable, then hire a car.”
“I’m glad you’ll be with me,” she said to his surprise, leaning into his embrace. “Part of me is so afraid of what I’ll find—what if there’s nothing there?”
“Katya?”
“It would mean my brain really is damaged,” she whispered. “If I have this compulsion and there’s nothing to back it up.”
He suddenly understood her hunger to follow the compulsion far better than he had before. “You aren’t brain damaged,” he told her, squeezing her tighter. “If you were, you sure as hell wouldn’t have managed to sneak out from under my bloody nose.”
Katya heard the disgusted edge in that comment and it made her heart lighten. “I did good, didn’t I?” Her smile faltered. “How’s Tiara?”
“She opened book on how far you’d get before I caught up to you.”
“Oh?”
“Yeah, and she placed the bet for the longest distance.”
“And Tag?”
“Let’s just say he’s not your new best friend.”
She winced and went to ask about the boy before realizing that might get him into trouble.
Dev chuckled. “The kid is fine—and we’ve learned to be extra careful with his shields.”
“He’s strong,” she said, apprehensive about what that might mean. “If the Council finds out the Forgotten have that level of psychic ability . . .”
“Let me worry about that.” He pressed a kiss to her temple, allowing her to turn so they faced each other. “Tell me everything you can about this pull you feel to go north. Do you have any other information?”
“No. But I know I heard something. There . . . in the black room.”
Rage reignited, dark with the need to draw blood. He had to consciously focus to form speech past the vicious power of it. “Why would they have spoken of anything sensitive in your hearing?”
“They made a mistake,” she said, her voice halting as if she was reconstructing fragments of memory. “Ming broke me, but even broken, I had ears, I had eyes. He treated me like I was an insect he’d crushed under his boot, not worth bothering about.”
The rage in him was a wild thing, animalistic in its anger. . . its anguish. “What,” he forced himself to ask, “did you hear?”
Katya looked up at the sound of Dev’s voice, that raw blade. His anger was a lash in the air, a whip of fire. But somehow instead of inciting fear, it made her feel stronger. “Lots of things.”
Dev watched her with those amazing eyes, and she knew, she
“No,” Dev said. “Don’t think about anything but this task. We’ll figure out the rest later.”
She nodded, her movements jerky.
“I don’t have all the pieces yet, but I know I have to go. I have to
His hand against her cheek. Warm. Protective. “You have no idea what you’re searching for?”
“Something bad.” She turned into his touch. “When I think of it, I get this oily sickness in my gut.”
CHAPTER 34
Dev pressed a kiss to her forehead, the unexpectedly affectionate gesture making her eyes burn. “We’d better start as soon as possible.”
She knew the three days he’d given her would cost him, but he was going to take the hit—for her. “Dev . . . I could be leading you into a trap.” In spite of how far she’d come, her mind remained a savage maze, full of holes and deception.
Dev rubbed a thumb over her cheek. “Still don’t get it, do you, Katya? I take care of what’s mine.”
“I don’t want you to get hurt,” she began, but the set of his jaw told her she was wasting her breath. “Were you born stubborn?”
“My mother used to say I was half mule.”
It made her smile. “That would make one of your parents a mule. Your mother?”
“She never admitted it.” His eyes filmed over with a sadness so deep, she felt her throat lock. “Never had the chance.”
She hesitated, unsure of her instincts, of her mind, her soul . . . but not of her heart. “What happened to her?”
“My father killed her.” A stark response that stole her breath.
She was still trying to find the words with which to respond when he continued. “That was when I first understood why some of our ancestors chose Silence. My father—he was never abusive. It was his gift that turned him into a killer.”
Reaching out a hand, she closed it over his.
“The ShadowNet,” Dev said, looking down at their linked hands, “is a completely different animal from the PsyNet, but we have some similarities.”
“Dev,” she said, cutting him off though it was the last thing she wanted to do. “You mustn’t tell me any more.” If she betrayed him, even if it wasn’t by choice, it would shatter her—and she knew she wouldn’t rise again. Not from that.
His face was suddenly that of the conqueror she’d once seen in him. “We’ll break you free, Katya. Even if I have to kill Ming LeBon himself.”
