It was Friday morning when Jonathan straightened and stretched his back, glancing sideways at Aaron. 'We're going over to Volence's tonight. You coming along?' Jonathan wondered why Priscilla hadn't come home with Aaron for breakfast last Sunday, as usual. He'd also noted that Aaron hadn't been down the hill to her house for over a week. He guessed something was amiss.
But Aaron only answered, 'I reckon so,' and stooped to pick up another stone. 'It'll do us all good to get away for a while.'
Abiding by local custom, Mary baked a cake to offer on this first visit to a family with a new baby. Also following local custom, Clem Volence went down to his cellar and brought up a quart of golden, homemade dandelion wine to treat the visitors. Between the cake and wine, the children, and the babble of excitement over the unexpected call, the coolness between Aaron and Pris went quite unnoticed. Newt monopolized Aaron's lap once they were seated around the kitchen table. The child's nonstop chatter was welcome, for it filled the chasm that gaped between Aaron and Pris whenever their eyes met. She had greeted him with a civil hello but made sure when they were all seated that her chair wasn't next to his. Mary caught Priscilla's quick retreat from Aaron's gaze and looked for some sign of reconciliation between the two of them, aware of its importance to her.
The baby was awake, and Cora brought him into the kit- chen, taking him straight to Mary with great sisterly pride. 'You wanna hold him, Mary?'
Cora bent near Mary's shoulder to show off the prize. 'I'd love to if it's all right with your mama.' ''Course it is,' Agnes assured her with a laugh. 'By the time you have your fifth one, you're just too glad to have someone else do the holding for a change,' she added.
The warm shape felt foreign. The baby was quiet, though awake. 'What's his name?' she asked. 'James,' Newt said importantly, 'but we're gonna call him Jimmy while he's little.'
The baby's eyelids were nearly transparent, and he had no brows at all. There were tiny white newborn dots on his nose, and his mouth with its slightly swollen upper lip sometimes sucked at nothing. 'Ain't he cute?' Newt asked, and though she wasn't too sure about it, Mary answered, 'He's plumb beautiful, Newt. Anyone can see that.'
She hadn't any of the knack for talking inanities to an in- fant and would have felt foolish trying it in front of all these people. But the longer she held Jimmy, the nicer he felt. He was a good size in her arm, and the little lumps and bumps of his tiny body kind of fit as they lay against her. He had an uncommonly good smell about him, not unlike the barn cats after they had drunk fresh milk. He moved his feet inside the blankets, and the little movement felt right against her stomach. Sometimes the tip of his tongue peeked through rosy lips, and she marveled at the smallness of it, just as she did at his tiny fingernails and earlobes.
As always, the men were talking weather, crops, and planting-always foremost in their minds at this time of year. The remainder of April and May would be spent putting the crops in, the last of May always an unspoken deadline they aimed for.
'I don't know if I'll be done by the end of May this year,' Jonathan said, 'but if I'm not, Mary said she'd give Aaron a hand getting in the last of the seed corn. I'm taking the train down to Minneapolis in the last part of May, to the Cattle Exposition.'
Mary looked up. With a sudden shock she realized what he was talking about. The Cattle Exposition…the Black An- gus…but it was long ago when they'd talked about it. She hadn't given it a thought for some time. Now she felt a tremor run through her.
He meant to leave her and Aaron alone. Why hadn't Jonathan said anything more about this to her? Why was he telling everyone here about his plans to make the trip, sealing them with finality by doing so?
Mary met Aaron's eyes briefly across the table, and he realized that Jonathan had not spoken to her about this since they'd all talked it over together last winter. His puckered brows clearly told Mary that Aaron was aware of Jonathan's plans and that they didn't rest well with him.
The baby had fallen asleep, and Pris took him off to his bed but returned from upstairs to the living room and began playing the organ. It was getting late, and Aaron knew they'd soon be leaving. If he wanted to talk to her, this was his chance. When he got up to leave the kitchen Newt would have followed him, but Agnes sent him packing upstairs to get ready for bed. Aaron was grateful.
Priscilla had her back to Aaron when he came into the living room. He came up behind her and put his hands on her shoulders, but she contin ued to play, pumping the foot pedals and creating a gusty sound that wafted louder than his voice, giving them a sort of privacy. 'We have to talk,' he said to her back. 'Uh-uh,' was all she said. 'How long are you going to keep this up?' 'I don't want to talk to you or see you anymore,' she said. 'Turn around and look at me when you say that,' he challenged her. 'It would be the same, looking at you or not.'
He swung her by the shoulders until she spun around on the revolving organ stool to face him. Her hands had slid across the keys, and the discordant notes swooned to a telling silence as the bellows lost air. The voices in the kitchen waned momentarily. Then the sound of scraping chairs told Aaron they were preparing to leave.
He lowered his voice. 'Will you come outside so we can talk this over like two adults?' 'No. I have to help Mama put the kids to bed.' 'Okay, have it your way,' Aaron conceded. 'But I'll come down and get you for the dance tomorrow night.' 'I'm going with Willy,' she said. 'Next Saturday, then.' 'Don't waste your time, Aaron,' she said dryly. 'Okay, have it your way for now.' Then he went to join the others at the door and say his goodnights to Clem and Agnes.
The ride home was uncomfortable. While the trap seated two comfortably, it crowded three. Aaron sat nearly atilt in his corner, stretching an arm along the back of the seat to widen the space where Mary sat wedged. Although her left shoulder found space behind Jonathan, her right nested warmly against Aaron. His leg bolstered hers, and his armpit contoured her shoulder. In days past they'd ridden this way unaware of crowded limbs. That was no longer true.
In bed later, sealed inside the dark, Mary said to Jonathan, 'I didn't know you planned to go to the Cattle Exposition.' 'We talked about buying the bull last winter,' he reminded her. 'Yes, but that was…before.' 'You mean you don't want me to buy one now?' ''Course I do, but do you have to go to Minneapolis to do it?' 'If I'm to get the purebred I want for starting the herd, then yes.' 'I can see you're dead set on going.' 'Aha.' 'When?' 'In five weeks.'
She knew how badly he wanted to buy his first bull, but she knew, too, that the trip fell in with his other thoughts. She couldn't let him go along assuming everything would go as planned while he was gone. 'I know you want that bull terribly bad, Jonathan, and what I said last winter I'll stick by. I'll help Aaron with the corn if it's not done yet-so you can go-but don't expect to come home and find me changed, because I won't be.'
His voice came lightly from his pillow. 'That's fine, Mary.' But his tone implied, 'We'll wait and see.'
She felt the spinning of events whirling on in spite of her, like when she was a child trying again and again to catch the spinning box-elder seeds that spiraled down toward her outstretched hands. She'd been told it was lucky to catch the seeds before they touched the ground, but always just before they fluttered into her grasp they reeled out of reach. Events now whirled around her, leaving her unfavored and luckless. She'd thought Jonathan had accepted her and Aaron's refusal, and now he'd come up with this other ploy to nudge his notion into reality. She was convinced now that his going served his other purpose. Divining that, Mary knew she must now try to reconcile her differences with him, take a step toward a normal relationship in light of his coming trip. It was she who'd turned him away in the first place, she who must turn toward him again. 'Jonathan, I'm sorry I turned you away,' she said.
She needed to say no more, for the dandelion wine had warmed him and he rolled onto his side and took her in his arms. But before kissing her, he said, 'I reckon you had reason.'
His lovemaking was familiar, for its pattern never changed. When he reached for her, she was there in her own familiar way, and when he rolled her onto her back and entered her, there was a comfortableness that seven years had created. But when he lay spent, they knew there were other things between them tonight.
In her there was a desperation, a clutching effort to settle this tension among the three of them.
And for Jonathan there was a kind of resurging hope.
The trip, the buying of the bull became a panacea for Jonathan. The bull symbolized all he hoped to accomplish, and he spent elated hours imagining herds of hornless Black Angus cattle roaming over the land, all because he had had the foresight to buy one small bull.
Ah, but that bull would be something.
