One Was a Soldier

jeez. He pushed back from his chair in the squad room and headed for dispatch. “I’m leaving the station now.”

“I didn’t put a dinner in the freezer, but there’s a bowl of meat sauce in the fridge, so all you have to do is boil some pasta-”

“I can handle feeding us. Relax, will you?” He logged himself off the board hanging next to Harlene’s communication center.

She sighed fretfully. “I’m sorry. I’m just not used to-I haven’t spent a night away from him since you were deployed.”

Which was a big part of the problem, Eric thought. Jennifer was so used to doing everything she practically tried to wipe the boy’s mouth for him while he ate. All the mothering had turned Jacob into a sulky, self-entitled brat.

“Maybe I should just come home.”

“No.” He shifted his grip on his phone as he walked down the hall and out the door. The long, slanting rays of the western sun struck him full in the face as he jogged down the granite steps. He held up a hand to shield his eyes. “Your mom needs you there. We’ll have a good time. Don’t worry.” As he turned the corner into the department parking lot, he held the phone away from his face. “Honey? You’re fading out.” He could hear her talking, shrill and distant, like a bird afraid of a stranger under her nest. “Honey?” he said to the phone, now at arm’s length. “Talk to you later.” He flipped it shut.

He stowed his service piece and duty belt in his cruiser’s lockbox and slid into the seat. He had parked in the shade, so the car hadn’t heated up too bad. He eased the cruiser across the bump where it interrupted the sidewalk and pulled into Main.

The pedestrians bothered him. He’d noticed it before, in the weeks since he’d been home. He was okay with people walking when he was walking, and he was as relaxed as he ever was with other drivers when he was behind the wheel, but driving past pedestrians-getting flickering views of faces, backpacks, hands, shopping bags-made his shoulders bunch up around his ears and his scalp tighten.

He went through his litany of reminders. Relax your shoulders. Breathe. Don’t drive too slow. Don’t pull toward the center of the road. That was another thing he had a tendency to do-steer himself away from the sidewalks and parked cars. His brain knew nobody in Millers Kill was going to lob a grenade into his cruiser or blow up an abandoned vehicle at the side of the road. Unfortunately, his balls hadn’t gotten the update.

He grew easier as soon as he left the town center. Away from the small shopping district, the sidewalks emptied except for an occasional kid on a bike or a dog walker. The high school was at the east edge of town, as far as you could go before hitting the rolling farmlands of Cossayuharie. He took the looping drive past the admin building, around the sprawling one- and two-story complex, and parked in the lot nearest the athletic fields.

There were still a handful of minivans and SUVs waiting while the remaining members of the middle school cross-country teams dispersed: long-legged graceful girls talking and laughing; gawky boys, some a head shorter, shouting and bashing into each other.

Eric was surprised to see a familiar grape-Popsicle-colored Escort. Hadley Knox was leaning against her car, watching her little girl cartwheel clumsily through the shaggy grass at the edge of the bleachers. Unlike him, she’d taken the time to change into her civvies.

“Hey, Hadley.” He slammed his door shut and strolled over toward her. “What are you doing here?”

She twisted to look at him. “Eric. Hi.” She gestured toward the bleachers, where a clump of boys stood looking at somebody’s Game Boy. “Hudson’s starting on the track team.”

“The cross-country team?”

She rolled her eyes. “Whatever. It’s all running around in circles to me.”

“He’s in middle school?”

“He’s eleven. Starting sixth grade this year.”

“God. I can’t believe it.”

“Yeah, well, I guess time flies when they ship you over to a desert and shoot things at you.”

He laughed. “It didn’t fly fast enough.”

“Your son’s on the team?”

“Yeah. This’ll be his third year. He qualified for all-state last season.” Anger twisted his voice. “And I missed it.” He tamped the heat down. Shrugged it off. “Oh well. He’s been putting in a lot of time training over the summer. I expect him to make state again this year.”

She looked past the bleachers to the center of the track, where Jacob and two other boys were vying to outdo each other in push-ups. “Training during the summer? That sounds pretty hard core for a kid who’s in, what-eighth grade?”

“It is. We’re looking ahead. Millers Kill High School has two traditional strengths, basketball and cross-country track and field.”

“That makes sense. Neither of those takes a lot of money.”

“You got it. Anyway, MKHS has fielded several kids who got running scholarships to college. That’s what we’re shooting for.”

“You’re kidding me.” Hadley’s eyes sharpened. “You can get scholarships for running?”

“Sure.”

“Huh.” She chewed her lower lip.

One of the other parents honked, and the Game Boy-playing group broke up. Hadley’s son pelted over and gave his mom a hug, despite the presence of other kids. He was short, dark-haired and dark-eyed like his mother, and Eric’s heart squeezed as the boy started babbling on about his practice, his arms unself-consciously wrapped around Hadley’s waist. When Eric had left for Iraq, Jake had been like that, still a little guy, still wanting to be his dad’s best bud.

“… so Coach says he needs an assistant and we should all ask our parents for a volunteer,” Hudson was saying.

“Not me.” Hadley shook the boy’s shoulders slightly. “Hudson, do you remember meeting Sergeant McCrea?”

“Oh. Yeah. Sorry. Hi, Sergeant McCrea.” The kid peered at him more closely. “Hey, aren’t you the one who was in the war?”

“That’s me.”

Hudson’s eyes brightened. “Cool! Didja shoot anybody?”

“Hudson!”

Eric laughed. “Sorry, no.”

“Our priest went to Iraq, but she just flew helicopters. I don’t think she even had a gun.”

“And you’re not going to ask her, either.” His mom shook him again and swatted at his rear. “Get your sister and get in the car.” She grimaced. “Sorry about that.”

Eric shook his head while Hudson thundered toward the bleachers. “Don’t worry about it. It’s a boy thing. They all think guns are cool.”

“I just don’t get it.” Hadley shuddered. “I hate guns.”

“You’re kind of in the wrong profession, then.”

“Don’t I know it.” She swiveled toward her kids, now roughhousing in the grass. “Into the car, you two!” She corralled them, and with a final “See you tomorrow!” she was off down the access road, along with most of the other vehicles.

“C’mon, Jacob!” Eric shouted. “Let’s go.” In contrast to Hudson Knox, Jake was taking his own sweet time, disappearing into the bleachers while Eric shifted from foot to foot. His stomach rumbled. Finally, Jake reappeared, water bottle in hand. He slouched toward his father.

“What the hell took you so long? The McIlverys are probably sitting down to eat by now.”

Instead of answering, Jake eyed the squad car with disapproval. “God, Dad. Did you have to drive that thing here? It’s so embarrassing.”

“You used to love riding in the cruiser.”

“I used to love Barney the Dinosaur, too.” Jake ran a hand through his hair, exposing pimples on his forehead. “I was talking to Iola Stillman.”

“Who’s Iola Stillman?”