“Nikki found out, though.” He sighed the words.
“So she killed me.” Eliana stepped backward, out of his embrace.
Sebastian had an unreadable expression as he caught and held her gaze. “Of course. Would you do any differently?”
“I. ”
“If I left you tonight and sank into some girl — or guy — would you forgive me?” He reached out and entwined his fingers with hers. “Would you mind if I kissed someone else the way I kiss you? If I knelt at their feet and asked permission to — ”
“Yes.” She squeezed his hand until she saw him wince.
He nodded. “As I said, territorial.”
Eliana shook her head. “So that’s it? We kill, but not under full or new moon. We drink blood, but really not so much. If we
“An area can support only so many predators. I have you, and you have me.”
“So I killed Nicole, and now you’re my mate?” She wasn’t sure whether she was excited or disgusted.
Sebastian whispered, “Until one of us makes someone alert enough and strong enough to kill the other, yes.”
She pulled her hand out of his. “Yeah? So how do I do that?”
Sebastian had her pinned against the crypt wall before she could blink.
“I’m not telling you that, Eliana. That’s part of the game.” He rested his forehead against hers in a mockery of tenderness.
She looked at the floor of the crypt where Nicole’s heart had fallen. The bloodied shirt lay in the thin layer of soil that covered the cracked cement floor. Moss decorated the sides where the dampness had seeped into the small building.
She looked at Sebastian and smiled.
With a warm smile, she wrapped her arms around him. “I’m hungry again. Take me out to dinner? Or” — she tilted her head to look up at him — “let’s find somewhere less depressing to live? Or both?”
“With pleasure.” He looked at her with the same desperation Eliana had seen in Nikki’s gaze when she watched Sebastian.
Eliana pulled him down for a kiss — and almost wished she didn’t need to kill him.
History
by ELLEN KUSHNER
“You just totally ran that red light,” she says, not without admiration.
“I know.” As always, he sounds smug. He downshifts and passes a van that has been in front of them for blocks. “I love driving.”
He is much too old for her, but that doesn’t bother her. She has never been fussy about age. She is a historian — almost. Just a couple more papers, and she’ll get honors this year from their country’s oldest university. What bothers her is that he won’t tell her about history. “I forget,” he says when pressed. “It was all a long time ago.”
He knows. She knows he knows. He just won’t say.
“Why do you still drive shift?” she asks crabbily.
“Everyone should drive shift. Can’t you drive shift?”
“Of course I can. I just wouldn’t in city traffic, if I didn’t have to.”
He is now weaving his way through a densely populated open square ringed by ancient buildings, where the traffic vies for road space with students late for class — brilliant adolescents who believe all cars will stop for them — and with beggars and tourists and absentminded faculty. When he first knew it, the square, it was full of students in black robes and muddy shoes, never looking straight ahead of them but always up for tavern signs, or down to avoid horse manure and rotting cabbage and the occasional peasant. These students don’t look down, and they don’t look up much, either.
“Out of my way, asshole!” he growls at a blond waif with a backpack who has just stepped off the curb to wait for the light.
He loves to drive, and he loves to swear. In his youth he did neither. But that was a long time ago.
He also loves rock and roll. And the blues. “American blues,” he says. “There’s nothing like them. Muddy Waters taught Eric Clapton all he knows.”
“Have you ever been to America?” she asks.
“Once.” He scowls. “I hated it.”
She has learned not to make jokes about his needing his Native Soil. He really hates that. She’ll do it to get a rise out of him, but that’s all.
She tries to catch him when he’s half awake. “Tell me about the Great War,” she’ll say, but he turns over, muttering, “Which one?” or “They were all great.”
“Which was your favorite, then?”
“The one with the little short guy on the horse. There he was, looking out over the plain at the smoldering campfires below at what remained of his army. They were a ragtag lot. The sun was low. He turned to the adjutant next to him and said softly, ‘My friend — ’”
She whacks him on the head with her bookmark. “I saw that movie, too.”
They take a walk down by the river that runs through the heart of the city. People are lined up on the sidewalk along the bridge trying to sell them things: bead earrings, knockoff purses, used comics, watercolors of the cathedral. There’s a caricaturist drawing portraits. Her lover
“Did you ever have your portrait done?”
“I — ” If he says “I forget” again, she’ll smack him. But a shadowy look passes across his face.
He did. People have drawn him, sketched him, even painted him. Maybe a student in a garret did a quick charcoal sketch of him asleep. Maybe a girl sitting in a garden somewhere tried to capture him in watercolors, a parasol shading her face.
He’s waited too long. He knows she knows. He doesn’t answer. He points at one of the knockoff purses.
“Look at that. Why would anyone in their right mind want anything in that color? It looks like how I feel with a hangover.”
Does he get hangovers? He did have a cold once, for a couple of hours. He said he picked it up on the street. And that people should be forced to wear tags on their collars saying, DON’T BITE ME, I’M DISEASED. He was fine the next day. If she could shake off a cold that quickly, she wouldn’t complain! He doesn’t drink, or eat anything regular, really. When they go out with her friends, he takes sips at his beer, but she always finishes it for him. He likes it when she drinks; he says it helps him sleep better. He’s learned to sleep at night, sort of. If she’s next to him. If she’s breathing slowly and deeply. Soft and warm.
His hair is long, and always smells a little of fresh snow.