shifting.”
“Yeah?” That seemed off. “How’s he know that?”
“He’s Big Brother PsyLED. He knows his sh— his stuff.”
“And your pants.”
“You try”—I stopped to breathe and realized I was woozy—“to take off my pants”—more breaths—“and I’ll shoot you.”
“I disarmed you.” I looked down and realized that while I was unconscious, he had unzipped my jacket, pulled my good arm out of my sleeve, and taken every single weapon. They were piled close by, but too far to reach at the moment. I looked back down. I had blood all over my nice, clean silk-knit undershirt. “Well, crap.”
“Yeah. Rick said you had to be naked to shift.”
“I can get out of my pants and shirt . . . after I shift . . . if you just undo my belt.”
Eli gave me that little nonsmile, but I saw the worry in his eyes. “And here I was hoping I’d finally get to see you naked.”
“Wish on, Ranger Boy.”
He chuckled softly. “I adore you, you know. If you die on me, I’ll be seriously pissed.”
That idea rested on me for a moment, as heavy as my silver-lined jacket. “Yeah?”
“Yeah. For all you’ve been in a funk for weeks like some hormonal PMS woman, we’re family now. So don’t die.”
“PMS woman.” I giggled. “Puma Monster Skinwalker. Panther Marshmallow Sabertooth.”
“Yeah. Funny.” He pulled off both socks, leaving my feet pale blue and vulnerable. He stared at them as he said, “You have to shift.”
“Okay.” Which seemed a totally stupid thing to say after a declaration of familyhood. I should tell him I adored him back. But I didn’t. I just blinked at him, puzzled.
“Yeah. Been there. I took off your vamp collar. Once you shift, Rick says you need to eat, so he’s bringing you some raw steaks. But you need to do it fast. I haven’t called it in, but the neighbors will have heard the shots fired.”
“If I shift,” I mumbled, “I can’t shift back to human.”
“What?” He looked stunned.
“I’ll stay a cat until sunset. That’s the soonest I can shift back.”
He looked at his watch. “It’s an hour to sunset. What the hell am I going to do with a mountain lion?”
“Be dinner, if the steaks take too long to get here,” I deadpanned. And then giggled.
Eli shook his head, as if shaking away an insect or something he couldn’t control. “What do I do to help?”
I raised my good hand and gripped the gold nugget. In the distance I heard sirens. I frowned. “Did you take pics of the dead vamps?”
“You’re going into shock and you’re worried about pictures?”
“Money.” My lips weren’t moving right and felt numb. I licked them, and my tongue was dry, sticking to my lips and pulling on the cracked skin. Not good signs. “I have a family to support, you know.”
I thought about the snake in the heart of the mountain lion tooth. And dropped into the gray place of the change.
• • •
Painpainpain. Like claws of bigger predator, ripping at bones. I saw Eli back away from gray lights and black sparks, moving like prey. Looked down at Jane’s body. It was dissolving like snow in summer sun. Becoming Beast. Pelt and claws and killing teeth.
Magics healed and reshaped. Becoming
I panted. Pushed paws against floor, rising to sit. Pushed out of remaining Jane clothes. Drew long, thick tail around paws. I was cold, like winter snow and ice had caught me on hunt far from my den.
“Holy sh—” Eli stopped, his breath like prey breath, fastfastfast. “Jane?”
I hacked.
“Steaks are on the way,” Eli said.
I said nothing.
“Pretty pussycat.”
I looked at him and he laughed, smelling of nervous sweat and uncertainty. I yawned, showing big killing teeth and boredom all at once. Was good to remind other hunters and prey that Beast had big teeth.
“You really are beautiful.” I looked away, indifferent but listening. I liked humans who admired properly. “You’re not going to eat me, are you?”
Humans were stupid. I was showing clear disinterest but he did not understand. He was still alive. He should see what I was saying.
I heard a car stop out front. And moments later heard Rick call out. “Eli?”
“Up here, back of the building, up the stairs.”
Rick’s feet pounded on the steps and he stopped at the top, taking in the room, the dead vampires, and settling on Beast. I panted to show some interest.
Rick said, “Hey, Jane.”
I put ears back and hacked.
Rick opened bag and tore plastic. Smell of warm cow meat filled room. Last time, Rick had brought dead pig meat, but cow was good too. I stood and padded partway to Rick. When I stopped, he came the rest of the way and set cow meat on floor. I settled beside it and ripped into meat, swallowing fast. Was
Saw movement near stairs and growled low, snapping at meat faster. White wolf stood there, watching. He moved into room and my growl went deeper.
Sirens sounded outside. Sound of humans entering house. Rick went downstairs to talk to police. I still ate. Rick was gone long time. Eli stood at top of stairs, guarding.
Belly full, I stretched and yawned. Human males were talking. Not looking at Beast. I nudged Pea with nose. Pea jumped to Beast’s back and held on to pelt with sharp claws. Together we walked slowly to stairs, not looking at wolf. Wolf was sitting like dog, back legs spread wide. Wolf looked stupid, like big stupid dog. I stopped close and sat, looking away, so wolf would not think I had plans. Wolf looked at me from sideways eyes and turned head to study me. I did nothing. Wolf slowly reached big head toward me. I did nothing. Wolf sniffed me. I did nothing.
Then I struck. Lifted paw, claws out, and swiped wolf nose. Wolf yelped and I bounded across room, whipped around, and hacked with laughter. Wolf was bleeding on big ugly dog nose.
I sat and lifted paw, licking off wolf blood. Feeling happy. Pea chittered at me, sounding like Jane, scolding, but Beast was smarter than Pea. Pea did not like Beast grooming off were-blood. But were-blood was in belly, not in cut, and I would shift back soon to Jane. Were-taint in belly would not hurt me/us. But was thinking that were-blood in
Beast was always better than Jane and big-cat together. Was even better since we talked with Hayyel-angel. Angel did something to wolf to make him stay wolf. Did something to us I did not understand. Pea did not know