away somehow and make a place for ourselves.'
'Like the incurables,' he said.
'That's what we learn to call them,' she said. 'Maybe they were really the unbeatables, the undruggables.' He looked at her, trying to see more of her face.
'We have some capsules,' she said, 'that will slow down your reflexes and lower your blood pressure, put things in your blood that will make it look as if your treatments are too strong. If you take them tomorrow morning, before your adviser comes, and if you behave at the medicenter as we tell you and answer certain questions as we tell you—then tomorrow will be step two, and you'll take it and be healthy.'
'And unhappy,' he said.
'Yes,' she said, a smile coming into her voice, 'unhappy too, though not as much as I said. I sometimes get carried away.'
'About every five minutes,' King said. She took her hands from Chip's knees and stood up. 'Will you?' she asked.
He wanted to say yes to her, but he wanted to say no too. He said, 'Let me see the capsules.' King, coming forward, said, 'You'll see them after we leave. They're in here.' He put into Chip's hand a small smooth box. 'The red one has to be taken tonight and the other two as soon as you get up.'
'Where did you get them?'
'One of the group works in a medicenter.'
'Decide,' Lilac said. 'Do you want to hear what to say and do?'
He shook the box but it made no sound. He looked at the two dim figures waiting before him. He nodded. 'All right,' he said.
They sat and spoke to him, Lilac on the bed beside him, King on the drawn-over desk chair. They told him about a trick of tensing his muscles before the metabolic examination and one of looking above the objective during the depth-perception test. They told him what to say to the doctor who had charge of him and the senior adviser who interviewed him. They told him about tricks that might be played on him: sudden sounds behind his back; being left all alone, but not really, with the doctor's report form conveniently at hand. Lilac did most of the talking. Twice she touched him, once on his leg and once on his forearm; and once, when her hand lay by his side, he brushed it with his own. Hers moved away in a movement that might have begun before the contact. 'That's terrifically important,' King said. 'I'm sorry, what was that?'
'Don't ignore it completely,' King said. 'The report form.'
'Notice it,' Lilac said. 'Glance at it and then act as if it really isn't worth the bother of picking up and reading. As if you don't care much one way or the other.'
It was late when they finished; the last chime had sounded half an hour before. 'We'd better go separately,' King said. 'You go first. Wait by the side of the building.'
Lilac stood up and Chip stood too. Her hand found his. 'I know you're going to make it, Chip,' she said. 'I'll try,' he said. 'Thanks for coming.'
'You're welcome,' she said, and went to the door. He thought he would see her by the light in the hallway as she went out, but King got up and was in the way and the door closed. They stood silently for a moment, he and King, facing each other. 'Don't forget,' King said. 'The red capsule now and the other two when you get up.'
'Right,' Chip said, feeling for the box in his pocket. 'You shouldn't have any trouble.'
'I don't know; there's so much to remember.' They were silent again.
'Thank you very much, King,' Chip said, holding out his hand in the darkness.
'You're a lucky man,' King said. 'Snowflake is a very passionate woman. You and she are going to have a lot of good times together.'
Chip didn't understand why he had said that. 'I hope so,' he said. 'It's hard to believe it's possible to have more than one orgasm a week.'
'What we have to do now,' King said, 'is find a man for Sparrow. Then everyone will have someone. It's better that way. Four couples. No friction.'
Chip lowered his hand. He suddenly felt that King was telling him to stay away from Lilac, was defining who belonged with whom and telling him to obey the definition. Had King somehow seen him touching Lilac's hand? 'I'm going now,' King said. 'Turn around, please.'
Chip turned around and heard King moving away. The room appeared dimly as the door was opened, a shadow swept across it, and it disappeared again with the door's closing.
Chip turned. How strange it was to think of someone loving one member in particular so much as to want no one else to touch her! Would he be that way too if his treatments were reduced? It was—like so many other things—hard to believe.
He went to the light button and felt what was covering it: tape, with something square and flat underneath. He picked at the tape, peeled it away, and tapped the button. He shut his eyes against the ceiling's glare.
When he could see he looked at the tape; it was skin-colored, with a square of blue cardboard stuck to it. He dropped it down the chute and took the box from his pocket. It was white plastic with a hinged lid. He opened it. A red capsule, a white one, and one that was half white and half yellow lay bedded on a cotton filling.
He took the box into the bathroom and tapped on the light. Setting the open box on the edge of the sink, he turned on the water and pulled a cup from the slot and filled it. He turned the water off.
He started to think, but before he could think too much he picked up the red capsule, put it far back on his tongue, and drank the water.
Two doctors, not one, had charge of him. They led him in a pale blue smock from examination room to examination room, conferred with the examining doctors, conferred with each other, and made checks and notations on a clipboarded report form that they handed back and forth between them. One was a woman in her forties, the other a man in his thirties. The woman sometimes walked with her arm around Chip's shoulders, smiling and calling him 'young brother.' The man watched him impassively, with eyes that were smaller and set closer together than normal.
He had a fresh scar on his cheek, running from the temple to the corner of his mouth, and dark bruises on his cheek and forehead. He never took his eyes off Chip except to look at the report form. Even when conferring with doctors he kept watching him. When the three of them walked to the next examination room he usually dropped behind Chip and the smiling woman doctor. Chip expected him to make a sudden sound, but he didn't.
The interview with the senior adviser, a young woman, went well, Chip thought, but nothing else did. He was afraid to tense his muscles before the metabolic examination because of the doctor watching him, and he forgot about looking above the objective in the depth-perception test until it was too late.
'Too bad you're missing a day's work,' the watching doctor said.
'I'll make it up,' he said, and realized as he said it that it was a mistake. He should have said It's all for the best or Will I be here all day? or simply a dull overtreated Yes.
At midday he was given a glass of bitter white liquid to drink instead of a totalcake and then there were more tests and examinations. The woman doctor went away for half an hour but not the man.
Around three o'clock they seemed to be finished and went into a small office. The man sat down behind the desk and Chip sat opposite him. The woman said, 'Excuse me, I'll be back in two seconds.' She smiled at Chip and went out.
The man studied the report form for a minute or two, running a fingertip back and forth along his scar, and then he looked at the clock and put down the clipboard. 'I'll go get her,' he said, and got up and went out, closing the door partway.
Chip sat still and sniffed and looked at the clipboard. He leaned over, twisted his head, read on the report form the words cholinesterase absorption factor, unamplified, and sat back in his chair again. Had he looked too long?—he wasn't sure. He rubbed his thumb and examined it, then looked at the room's pictures, Marx Writing and Wood Presenting the Unification Treaty.
They came back in. The woman doctor sat down behind the desk and the man sat in a chair near her side. The woman looked at Chip. She wasn't smiling. She looked worried.
'Young brother,' she said, 'I'm worried about you. I think you've been trying to fool us.' Chip looked at her. 'Fool you?' he said.
'There are sick members in this town,' she said; 'do you know that?'
He shook his head.
