peppered that any other flavor would be indistinguishable. So much food had gone bad that without spice, the soup would be inedible.
Egwene worked mechanically, like a wagon wheel rolling behind the oxen. She didn't have to make choices; she didn't have to respond. She just worked. She filled the soup bowls precisely, then fetched the bread basket and placed one piece—not too crusty—on each small porcelain bread saucer. She returned with a circular dab of butter for each, cut quickly but precisely from the larger brick with a couple of flicks of the knife. One did not spend long as an innkeeper's daughter without learning to serve a proper meal.
Even as she worked, she stewed. Each step was agony, and not because of her still-burning backside. That physical pain, oddly, seemed insignificant now. It was secondary to the pain of remaining silent, the pain of not allowing herself to confront this awful woman, so regal, so arrogant.
As the two women began their soup—pointedly ignoring the weevils in their bread—Egwene retreated to the side of the room and stood, hands clasped before her, posture stiff. Elaida glanced at her, then smiled, apparently seeing another sign of subservience. In reality, Egwene didn't trust herself to move, for she feared that any activity would end with her slapping Elaida across the face. Light, but this was hard!
'What talk is there in the Tower, Meidani?' Elaida asked, dipping her bread in the soup.
'I ... don't have much time to listen. ...'
Elaida leaned forward. 'Oh, surely you know something. You have ears, and even Grays must gossip. What are they saying about those rebels?'
Meidani paled further. 'I ... I ...'
'Hmm,' Elaida said. 'When we were novices, I don't remember you being so slow of wit, Meidani. You haven't impressed me these last few weeks; I begin to wonder why you were ever given the shawl. Perhaps it never belonged on your shoulders in the first place.'
Meidani's eyes opened wide.
Elaida smiled at her. 'Oh, I'm only teasing you, child. Back to your meal.'
She joked! Joked about how she had stolen the shawl from a woman, humiliating her to such an extent that she fled the Tower. Light! What had happened to Elaida? Egwene had met this woman before, and Elaida had struck her as stern, but not tyrannical. Power changed people. It appeared that in Elaida's case, holding the Amyrlin Seat had taken her sternness and solemnity and replaced them with a heady sense of entitlement and cruelty.
Meidani looked up. 'I ... I have heard sisters express worry about the Seanchan.'
Elaida waved an indifferent hand, sipping her soup. 'Bah. They are too distant to be of danger to us. I wonder if they're secretly working for the Dragon Reborn. Either way, I suspect that the rumors about them are largely exaggerated.' Elaida glanced at Egwene. 'It's a source of constant amusement to me that
Egwene couldn't speak. She could barely have sputtered. How would Elaida feel about these 'exaggerated' rumors if the Seanchan slapped a cold
She
'No,' Elaida said, waving for Egwene to bring another ladle of soup. 'These Seanchan are not the problem. The
'Yes,' Elaida mused, 'if the sisters had been
'I ... obedience is certainly important, Elaida.'
Elaida shook her head as Egwene ladled soup into her bowl. 'Anyone would admit
Egwene stood still. Once, she herself hadn't understood the importance of the oaths. She suspected that many a novice and Accepted had questioned their usefulness. But she had learned, as every Aes Sedai must, their importance. The Three Oaths were what
Changing them . . . well, it would be an unprecedented disaster. Elaida should
Egwene's rage boiled within her, steaming like the soup in her hands. This woman, this . . . creature!
Egwene felt herself shaking. In another moment, she'd burst and let Elaida hear truth. It was boiling free from her, and she could barely contain it.
So Egwene did the only thing she could think of to stop herself. She dumped the soup on the floor.
Brownish liquid sprayed across the delicate rug of red, yellow and green birds aflight. Elaida cursed, jumping up from her seat and backing away from the spill. None of the liquid had gotten on her dress, which was a shame. Egwene calmly snatched a serving towel off of the table and began to mop up the spill.
'You clumsy idiot!' Elaida snapped.
'I'm sorry,' Egwene said, 'I wish that hadn't happened.' And she did. She wished none of this evening had occurred. She wished Elaida weren't in control; she wished the Tower had never been broken. She wished she hadn't been forced to spill the soup on the floor. But she had. And so she dealt with it, kneeling and scrubbing.
Elaida sputtered, pointing. 'That rug is worth more than your entire village, wilder! Meidani, help her!'
The Gray didn't offer a single objection. She scurried over and grabbed a bucket of chilled water, which had been cooling some wine, and hurried back to help Egwene. Elaida moved over to a door on the far side of the room to call for servants.
'Send for me,' Egwene whispered as Meidani knelt down to help clean.
'What?'
'Send for me to give me instruction,' Egwene said quietly, glancing at Elaida, whose back was turned. 'We need to speak.'
Egwene had originally intended to avoid the Salidar spies, letting Beonin act as her messenger. But she had too many questions. Why hadn't Meidani fled the Tower? What were the spies planning? Had any of the others been adopted by Elaida and beaten down as soundly as Meidani?
Meidani glanced at Elaida, then back at Egwene. 'I may not seem it sometimes, but I'm still Aes Sedai,
'I am your Amyrlin, Meidani,' Egwene said calmly, wringing a towel-ful of soup into a pitcher. 'And you would do best to remember it. Unless you want the Three Oaths replaced with vows to serve Elaida for eternity.'
Meidani glanced at her, then cringed at Elaida's shrill calls for servants. The poor woman had obviously seen a