Survival Of The Fittest

anything he did.” Her voice cracked. “Oh, Dr. Delaware, I'm so angry at him! So goddamn, goddamn angry at him!”

She rescued herself from tears by laughing some more.

“You're right, it was the photo album,” she said. “Filthy Polaroids, Nolan's private little stash. He kept it right in the middle of one of the books. Mixed in with pictures of Mom and Dad, our old family stuff. First he takes the album from Mom's effects and never tells me, then uses it for his goddamn sicko porno stash!”

“Porno,” I said.

“Personal porno. Pictures of him. And hookers. Young girls- not little kids, thank God it wasn't that sick. But most of them looked young enough to be illegal- fifteen, sixteen, skinny little black girls and Hispanics. Obviously hookers from the way they were dressed- spiked heels, garter belts. They all looked stoned- with a couple you could actually see the needle tracks on their arms. In some of them, he left his uniform on, so he probably was doing it on the job- that's most likely why he transferred to Hollywood. To be closer to the hookers. He probably picked them up when he was supposed to be out fighting crime, took them God-knows-where, took pictures!”

I heard her snort.

“Garbage,” she said. “I turned them into confetti and threw them out. After I closed the garbage-can lid, I thought, what are you doing here? This city, everything's nuts. Then the next night, someone broke in and that was it.”

“What an ordeal,” I said.

“Dr. Delaware, I never really knew Nolan but nothing could have prepared me for those pictures. It's just so hard to reconcile, someone you grew up with… Anyway, here I do feel safe. Gary's got forty-five acres with horses, all I see when I look out the window is grass and trees. I know I can't stay here forever, but right now, it's working. No offense, but, at this point, a change of scenery seems a lot more valuable than therapy. Anyway, thanks for calling. I haven't told anyone. Actually, it wasn't bad being able to unload. Knowing it won't go any further.”

“If there's anything else-”

“No.” She laughed. “No, I think this has been quite enough, Dr. Delaware… dear little brother. First he goes and kills himself on me, then he leaves me souvenirs.”

Code 7 for hookers.

A sleaze, but not a killer.

Plenty of reason for guilt.

A bleak situation.

Perhaps Nolan had been found out, referred to Lehmann. Talked it out, got no easy answers. Lehmann letting him know he'd have to leave the force. Nolan opting for final exit.

Now I could understand Lehmann's nervousness.

Confidentiality issues and beyond. He made a living as an LAPD contractor. The last thing he needed was to expose yet another LAPD scandal.

Feeling sad but relieved, I went into my office and thought about being Andrew Desmond.

Place of birth: St. Louis. Suburbia: Creve Coeur.

Self-made father, bourgeois, conservative, looks down on psychology, Andrew's intellectual pretensions.

Mother: Donna Reed with an edge. Civic volunteer, sharp-tongued. Convinced Andrew was precocious, had his IQ tested as a child. Frustrated at the boy's chronic underachievement but explains it away as the school's failure: not stimulating poor Andrew.

For simplicity's sake, no sibs.

Poor Andrew…

Robin came in at six. “What's the matter?”

“Nothing, why?”

“You look… different.”

“Different how?”

“I don't know.” She put her hand on my shoulder, touched my stubbled cheek. “A little down?”

“No, I'm fine.”

The hand moved back to my shoulder. “Alex, you're so tight. How long have you been sitting hunched like that?”

“Couple of hours.”

Spike waddled in. Usually he licks me.

“Hi,” I said.

He cocked his head, stared, left the room.

41

On Tuesday night, at 11:03, Daniel was waiting for retired Captain Eugene Brooker in the parking lot of a bowling alley on Venice Boulevard in Mar Vista. He'd noticed the lot that afternoon, when he'd driven by Wilson Tenney's former apartment- a dismal, earthquake-cracked, ten-unit box bordering an alley.

Wearing a suit and tie, he'd represented himself as an insurance claims adjustor to the old Mexican woman who lived in the manager's unit.

The former park worker, he'd told her, had filed an earthquake claim for damaged personal effects and he wanted to verify Tenney's residence at the address during the Northridge quake.

“Yeah,” she said, and nothing else.

“How long did he live here?”

Shrug. “Couple years.”

“Was he a good tenant?”

“Quiet, paid his rent.”

“So nothing we should worry about?”

“Nope. Tell the truth, I hardly remember him.” The door shut.

His look into Tenney's background had been more of the same. No Medi-Cal records or state hospitalizations, no citations on the Chevrolet van, not a single entry or cross-reference to any crime files.

Tenney hadn't applied for welfare or for a job at any other city, county, or state park within a hundred-mile radius- Daniel had lied creatively for half a day to find out.

So either Tenney had moved, or just disappeared.

Still, Daniel felt something about the guy- an intuition, what else could you call it? So fuzzy he'd never mention it to another detective, but he'd be foolish to ignore it.

The first thing was what he knew about Tenney's personality- a loner who flaunted the rules, reading on the job instead of working, that remark about being a white male. Put it all together and it resonated.

Second: a van. He could not erase the image of Raymond Ortiz being spirited away in a van.

A vehicle that hadn't been seen since Tenney's firing from the park. Shortly after Raymond's abduction.

Bloody shoes…

He'd said nothing about Tenney to Zev Carmeli.

The deputy consul had taken to calling him every day, between 5:00 and 8:00 P.M., getting irritated when Daniel was out, even though he knew Daniel was working on Irit and nothing else.