he were an object of pity.
While Tony sat on the side of his unmade bed and went through every detail of his public embarrassment in class, Slim stood bare-chested at a full-length mirror, combing his hair, examining his facial skin for imperfections, checking to see if the barber had etched his sideburns sufficiently. “I got news for you. Dr. Edwards is an alcoholic fudge-packer. He pushes that pinko douche rinse whenever he gets the chance. Be proud you stood up to him.”
“I’m scared, Slim.”
“Of what?”
“My lawyer and I meet with the D.A. tomorrow.”
“Tell him to stuff it, just like I did. The Feds are using Monarch Little and the Iberia D.A. to get at my old man. They don’t got jack on either one of us. Winos get run over all the time. You’re an innocent man. Keep remembering that. They’re targeting you because of who your father is.”
“They’ll send him to prison.”
“No, they won’t. My old man eats guys like that D.A. for lunch. Back in Miami, these local schmucks wouldn’t have been allowed to clean his toilet.”
“I feel real bad. I keep seeing that guy on the road. I keep thinking about Yvonne. Why did she go nuts like that?”
“How do I know? She had mental problems. Yvonne doesn’t have anything to do with this. You keep the two issues separate. I don’t want to see you like this.”
“I can’t help it. I’m coming apart.”
Slim studied Tony in the mirror and slipped his comb in his back pocket. He sat down next to him and put his arm over Tony’s shoulders. Tony could smell the clean odor of Slim’s skin, the tinge of testosterone from his armpit. Slim squeezed him fraternally to get him out of his funk. “In no time you’ll be the house’s top cocksman again. Trust me, nobody cares about a winehead who walked in front of a car.”
“That’s not what happened, Slim.”
“Yeah, it is.”
“I can’t hurt my folks like this.”
Slim’s eyes were filled with the kind of thoughts he never shared. He massaged the back of Tony’s neck a long time, then glanced through the partially opened door and saw two junior classmen studying at a table in the room across the hall. He got up from the bed and quietly shut the door.
An hour later Tony drove his silver Lexus to St. John’s Cathedral, a nineteenth-century brick church with twin bell towers a few blocks from Lafayette ’s old downtown area. If asked, he probably would not have been able to tell anyone what he was doing there. Before her accident, his mother had dutifully attended the local Episcopalian church, served graciously on all its social committees, and had believed in absolutely none of it. Ironically, Tony became convinced of the spiritual world’s authenticity by his father. Bellerophon Lujan feared no man, but he would quit plowing or avoid proximity to any livestock at the first creak of electricity in the clouds. He was terrified of the prospect of hell and the consequences of his own libidinous nature, and believed it was the devil’s hand that constantly subverted his attempts to achieve social respectability, which in Bellerophon’s mind was the same as morality. For Bello, God was an abstraction, but the devil was real and reminded Bello of his presence each morning when Bello awoke throbbing and hard, chained to unrequited dreams that followed him into the day.
Tony walked across the church lawn to the St. John Oak and sat down on a stone bench. The oak was supposedly over four hundred years old. The limbs were so thick and so heavy, they not only touched the ground but had formed huge elbows that allowed the limbs to continue growing into the sunlight. The breeze was cool under the tree and smelled of flowers in the garden planted by the rectory. A young priest was watering the flowers with a hose, amusing himself by placing his thumb over the end of the hose and firing a jet into a nest of mud daubers. He caught Tony looking at him and grinned self-consciously.
Tony did not know how long he sat on the stone bench. He could have stayed there forever. The limbs of the live oak were hung with Spanish moss and encrusted with lichen, the stone under him cool to his touch. How did he get mixed up in so much trouble? Why did Yvonne have to go and kill herself? In his mind he created a fantasy in which he walked through the front door of the church and out the back, free of all the misery that had come into his life since he had started hanging out with Slim Bruxal.
But in truth he couldn’t put it on Slim. He had sought out Slim; it wasn’t the other way around. There were rumors about Slim’s expulsion for cheating at LSU and a fight with a Texas Aggie in the restroom at Tiger Stadium, one that left the Aggie ruptured and bleeding inside from a broken rib. But Slim had another side to him. He listened to Tony and always sensed what Tony needed to hear. Slim took no guff from anyone. He understood what it was like to have a father he admired, even loved, but who was looked down upon by others. In fact, sometimes Tony looked at Slim soaping himself in the shower and experienced feelings he didn’t like to dwell upon.
Then Tony realized the priest had turned off the garden hose and was walking toward him. He started to get up and leave. In fact, he didn’t even know why he was there. Should he just tell this stranger about Yvonne and the dead homeless man and the fact that tomorrow he might betray his own family? The man in black pants and a smudged T-shirt was probably not much older than he was, except he was slight of build, almost frail. A baseball glove hung from his belt and another one was folded in his hand, a grass-stained ball buried in the pocket.
“Feel like a little pitch-and-catch?” he said.
“I pulled my arm in a fraternity game. I probably won’t be that good at it.”
“Neither am I. See that piece of cardboard where there used to be a stained-glass pane? My forkball got out of control.”
Tony fitted the spare glove on his hand, and he and the priest began flinging the ball back and forth under the oak’s drip line, the sunlight breaking like slivers of glass behind the cathedral’s silhouette. Then the priest skipped one across the grass to him. Tony fielded it backhand, then fired it straight into the priest’s glove, straight and hard, with no trajectory, with an accuracy that surprised even himself.
The priest sent another grounder at him. Tony bobbled it at first, the ball caroming off the heel of his hand. But he pulled it out of midair with his right hand and side-armed it, whap, back into the priest’s waiting glove.
“You’re pretty good,” the priest said.
“Not really,” he said, doing a poor job of hiding his pride.
“Try me now,” the priest said.
Tony threw a high-hopper that the priest caught easily and tossed back without interest. The next two were faster, at an angle, grounders-with-eyes. The priest was good, scooping them up with his body positioned in front of the ball, his return throw fired from behind the ear. The next one Tony threw was a hummer, whizzing across the lawn like a shot. The priest caught it on the run, spearing it after it took a bad hop on a tree root, whirling and side-arming it back in a half turn.
The ball flew by Tony’s outstretched glove and hit a passing car on the street. “Oh, boy,” he heard the priest say.
“I’ll go after it, Father,” Tony said.
“Are you kidding? This is the third time this has happened this week. Time to take cover,” the priest said.
Moments later, the priest hid the two gloves in a flower bed, furtively looking around the corner of the building. His face was bright and sweaty in the shade, his eyes wide with apprehension.
“You’re really a minister?” Tony said.
“Well, I’m sure not Derek Jeter.”
“I think the ball hit the car window.”
“I know. That’s why I’m here and not on the street looking for it. Come on, I have a couple of cold sodas in my cooler.”
He squatted down on the grass and popped off the top of a small ice chest. He lifted out a can of Pepsi, ripped the tab, and handed it up to Tony. “Were you worried about something out there?” he said.
“Me? No, not really.”
“You a Catholic?”
“No.”
“If you want to tell me about something, it won’t go any farther than this garden.”
Had all this been a ruse? Tony wondered. Another do-gooder with an agenda? The priest lifted up his T-shirt
