Lords of the Sky

I said, “I’d not make that choice. I do not think I could.” He said, “I did.”

I saw the direction he took and gave him back, “But you’d lost your memory. You were dying; Rwyan saved you.”

He said, “And then I got back my memory and knew who I was and what I had been.”

I said, “I saw Sky Lords speak with Changed and said nothing of it. I learned the Changed communicated. I think I guessed they planned rebellion, but I said nothing. Are you steeped deeper in guilt than I?”

He said, “Are your parents alive? Is Rwyan dead?”

I had no answer for that.

He said, “It is different for me, Daviot. I knew what I was when I came to that grove in Trebizar and slew Allanyn’s people. I knew I betrayed my own people when I brought you horses and set you free. When I came with you.”

I said-No! I shrieked-“Because you’d given your word to Rwyan! Because you are an honorable man.”

“Yes.” He ducked his head. “And now my honor shows me only one way to efface my shame.”

I said, “You’ve no shame, Tezdal.”

He said, “Were I Dhar or Changed, likely I’d agree. But I am not! I was Kho’rabi, and now I am gijan. All those I loved are dead because of what I did. The clan Kashijan is disbanded for what I did.”

I said, helplessly now, “You forged peace. You gave your people back their homeland.”

I watched his lips stretch over his teeth. Inside his cloak he shrugged. “Perhaps for that the Three will forgive me. But I cannot.”

I said, “What of the future? What of us?”

He said, “I think the future’s settled now. And you?” He turned away, resting his hands on the battlements, his head lowered. “Urt’s his Lysra now; and you, Rwyan. Are you not happy?”

I said, “Yes. Save you-Tezdal!” I hunted, desperate, for such words as might dissuade him from the course I knew he took. “Might you not find another wife?”

He shook his head. He said, “In all my life I’ve loved only two women. One was Retze; the other is … not mine to have.”

I should have known it!

But I had not, and so I said, lowly, “Rwyan?”

His laughter disputed the wind’s howling. “Could you not see it?” he asked.

I shook my head.

“She does,” he said. “She knows it and loves you. And she’ll not leave you.”

I had no words for this. Only a numbing dread of what might follow. I had been as blind as any man in love; and as much stupid.

“So.” Tezdal turned from his contemplation of the ramparts’ stone to face me. “Shall we fight for her? Shall you slay me, or I slay you? Might that secure me her love?”

I said, “Tezdal, I’d not fight you.”

He said, “Nor I you. Nor should it win me more than her hate. So …”

I said, “What of Peliane?”

He said, “Dragons live after their masters. How else are we here? Bellek’s gone, no? She’ll mourn me a while, but she’s you and Rwyan and Urt now. And likely there shall be other Dragonmasters found ere long, now that we’ve forged our Great Peace. Do I betray her, Daviot? If so, then it’s only one more betrayal to my account. And I cannot live longer with this pain! I tell you true-I cannot.”

He shed his cloak then, and I saw what he wore beneath: the blades of a Kho’rabi knight. The kachen and the dagger, and I knew with a ghastly surety what he intended and what he’d ask of me. I staggered back, shaking my head.

He said, “I’d take the Way of Honor, Daviot. Even though I am gijan and so undeserving. Did you know the Khe’anjiwha favored me? Gijan-we few!-are usually crucified. Upside down, Daviot. Had you not needed me to interpret, I’d long ago have hung head down on a tree, with all who passed spitting on my face. Or worse. Listen to me!” This because I backed away, and shook my head, and pushed out my hands to reject the duty he gave me. “Listen to me! I shall die. Like Bellek, do you not prove your friendship. But I should sooner do this with what honor’s left me. As if I were still Kho’rabi. Perhaps that shall placate the Three, and they grant my soul peace.”

“No!”

I did not recognize my own voice. It sounded like the wind’s wailing. It sounded like the mourning of the dragons. I did not know it came out from between my lips. Inside my head I felt the dragons stir; and Rwyan and Urt.

I staggered back until cold stone denied me further retreat. But Tezdal advanced still, and still his hands held out the burden of friendship’s duty.

He said, “As you love me, friend.”

His eyes allowed no other choice: I took the blade and asked him, “What must I do?”

He said, “This should be done with Attul-ki attending. Or at least Kho’rabi knights. But … you wait until I’ve opened the Way, and then use the sword on my neck.”

I said, “Is there truly no other way?”

And he shook his head. “No. Neither would I ask this of any other. Only of my truest friend.”

He clasped my hand, and there was such longing in his eyes, I could only nod through my tears and slide the sword from its sheath as he knelt and loosed the fastenings of his tunic and shirt and slipped the garments off, so that his torso was bared to the wind and the cold. And his neck to the sword I held. It shone in the failing light. It rested heavy in my hands: heavy as the weight on my soul.

I said, “I am not sure I can do this, Tezdal.”

He said, “As you love me, you can.”

And then, before I might argue further or throw down the sword and run away, he drew his dagger and sank the blade deep into his belly. He made no sound as he cut, but I saw the agony on his face as his lips contorted in denial of the pain. And in his eyes a terrible relief as he found his Way of Honor.

So I did what he asked of me. I raised his sword and brought it down against his neck. I’d never held so fine a blade before, nor one so sharp: it took off his head in one clean cut.

I fell to my knees, weeping as his skull went bouncing over the bloodstained flags.

I knew only pain until I felt hands touch my face and looked up into Rwyan’s blind eyes. I saw grief there, and then more on Urt’s face, and Lysra’s. And then I was aware of dragons perched all around. I could not speak; only clutch at Rwyan’s knees and weep.

She asked me, “Did he demand this of you?”

I nodded against her gown, and she knelt beside me and put her arms about me and held me close and said, “Oh, Daviot! My poor, poor Daviot. How he must have trusted you.”

I said, “That I’d slay him?”

She said, “That he trusted you with his honor. That he’d have you perform this awful service.”

I said, “I killed him, Rwyan.”

She said, “He slew himself, my love. Because it was the only way for him. What you did was friendship’s duty, and I think there’s likely no greater love than that.”

We wrapped Tezdal in his cloak, and Urt brought a canvas that we might sew the sundered parts safe together, and we saddled our dragons and fastened Tezdal’s body to Peliane, and flew to the valley of the dead, and spilled him down there. Down where Bellek and all the other Dragonmasters lay, and all the centuries-long- dead dragons.

Ours keened their mourning, and Peliane’s was loudest of all. I felt that like a knife in my heart, sharp as that swift blade Tezdal had sunk into his belly. I think it hurt me not much worse than what he’d had me do or what I felt for his loss. I had lost a beloved friend: she had lost her bond-mate. I could, in a way, comprehend why he chose that course: she could not. For nine days she battered the Dragoncastle with her keening, and I believe she might have flown out looking herself to die had Deburah’s egg not hatched.

Death and life run in cycles, no? One dies, one is born: life continues, and pain abates. Mine did, albeit