Rob looked into the fire, which seemed dense and half-digested, colour still showing in old floor-mats, were they? – that the fire had given up on, pink edges of a blackened curtain. ‘How long’s it been burning?’
‘What was it, Jack, day before yesterday?’
But the boy ran off at this to find something else to burn. Rob disguised his anxiety, picked up a stick and flipped some loose bits of wood back into the pyre. He had the almost absurd idea that other items might still be lying unconsumed at the bottom of it all; he saw them raking it out with a sense of excitement and purpose greater than that of the burning – already it seemed a story. ‘Raymond said you’d cleared the strong-room?’
Debbie had a wary eye out for the child. ‘Yes, that can go on, my love.’ Though little Jack had his own caprices and changes of mind.
‘I’m saving this one, Mummy.’
‘Well, all right…’ Debbie said, with a glance at Rob, the mime of patience. ‘Sorry… yes’ – he saw she was neither for him nor against him. ‘We got all that out on Monday – it was just old papers, account books.’ She snubbed her nose as she nodded. ‘Rubbish, no use to anyone.’
Rob looked round at the house rearing behind them, the curved flight of broken stone steps he had come down into the garden; and down which Harry Hewitt must have come a thousand times, and his beloved Hubert, now and then perhaps, before the Great War, having motored over in the Straker with his sister Daphne for protection.
‘Mind if I have a look round?’
‘Help yourself. Electric’s off, though – you won’t see much.’ She told him where the strong-room was, beyond the TV room, was it? – well, all the functions were muddled up. He wondered if he really wanted to go in.
‘Mum? Mum?’ Jack holding a wicker basket aloft in both hands.
‘No, that can go on – god, it’s Victorian, some of this stuff!’ – with a first look of humorous collusion with Rob. Jack had his own pile of salvage, items he was pointedly saving from the flames, and another pile of things to be gleefully thrown on. Sometimes an item was moved from one pile to the other with the proper arbitrariness of fate.
Back through the french doors into the sitting-room – with a shadowy hole in the wall: a fireplace Hector had rescued, perhaps. Through the door on the left into the TV room, lit up as if underwater by a small bramble- covered window; and beyond this a short passage, almost dark, with a white-painted door on the right standing open to reveal the black steel door of the strong-room immediately behind it, also just ajar. Rob’s curiosity was as much about the secret room as its contents, when he gripped the handle. He supposed a collector needed such a place, perhaps Hewitt was a hoarder who took more pleasure in possession than display. Well, it had kept one secret pretty closely, for ninety years. He wondered when he’d copied the letters out – as they arrived, or when he was grieving, or much later, in a painful search for lost feelings? With a wary murmur Rob slid his foot forward over the threshold, breathed the smell, unlike the rest of the place, dry wood. Then he thought of his phone, snapped it open and shone its faint spy’s light in front of him. The space was only an arm’s reach deep, slatted wooden shelves on three sides, like an airing-cupboard. A stone floor, a bulb hanging above. The phone’s light dimmed unwastefully and went out: he lit it again, ran it quickly round. Debbie had left nothing, except something whiteish on the floor, under the shelf on the left, a piece of newspaper. Rob picked it up, a sheet of the
There was now quite a show, some broken chairs had been tossed on and the whole thing had a wild dangerous heat and snap to it, loud cracks and sparks, a roll of black smoke from a foam-rubber cushion. Little Jack was awed, standing back beside his mother, but with a look of calculation about dares of his own. They seemed to stretch ahead.
‘Find anything?’ said Debbie. Of course it was a sign of her excellence that he hadn’t. It occurred to him, as he went back down the drive and on to the unknown street, that Valance had never sent the promised letter, on the eve of the Somme, after all – if he had done, the careful memorious Hewitt would surely have transcribed it too. And now Rob had to get back into Town – he had a date at seven with… for a moment he couldn’t think of his name. He looked on his phone for the text, and caught the smell of smoke on his hands.
AUTHOR’S NOTE
I am very grateful to the Belgian literary organization Het Beschrijf for a month’s residency in the Passa Porta writers’ apartment in Brussels, where part of this novel was written.
Alan Hollinghurst
