Mar was standing between Arnau and the bonfire. The glow from the fire silhouetted her figure, but hid her features. “Am I in heaven already?” thought Arnau. As his eyes grew used to the darkness, he was able distinguish the details he had so often pursued in dreams: first of all, her bright eyes—how many nights had he shed tears over them?—then her nose, her cheekbones, her chin ... and her mouth, and those lips ... The figure opened its arms to him and the light from the flames streamed round her, caressing a body clothed in ethereal robes that the light and dark complemented. She was calling him.
Arnau answered her call. What was happening? Where was he? Could it really be Mar? When he took her hands, saw her smiling at him and then kissing him on the lips, he had his reply.
Mar clung to him as tightly as she could, and the world returned to normal. “Hold me,” he heard her ask. Arnau put his arm round her shoulder and held her to him. He heard her start to cry. He could feel her sobbing against him, and gently stroked her hair. How many years had gone by before they could enjoy a moment like this? How many mistakes had he made?
Arnau raised Mar’s head from his shoulder and forced her to look up into his eyes.
“I’m sorry,” he began to say. “I’m sorry I forced you to—”
“Don’t say anything,” she interrupted him. “The past doesn’t exist. There is nothing to be sorry for. Today is when we start to live. Look,” she said, pulling away from him and taking his hand, “look at the sea. The sea has no past. It is just there. It will never ask us to explain. The stars, the moon are there to light our way, to shine for us. What do they care what might have happened in the past? They are accompanying us, and are happy with that; can you see them shine? The stars are twinkling in the sky; would they do that if the past mattered? Wouldn’t there be a huge storm if God wanted to punish us? We are alone, you and I, with no past, no memories, no guilt, nothing that can stand in the way of ... our love.”
Arnau stood looking up at the sky, then lowered his gaze to the sea and the gentle waves lapping at the shore without even breaking. He looked at the wall of rock protecting them, and swayed in the silent darkness.
He turned back to Mar, still holding her hand. There was something he had to tell her, something painful that he had sworn before the Virgin after the death of his first wife, something he could not renounce. Staring her in the eyes, he told her everything in a whisper.
When he had finished, Mar sighed.
“All I know is that I have no intention of ever leaving you again, Arnau. I want to be with you, to be close to you ... in whatever way you choose.”
ON THE MORNING of the fifth day, a small boat arrived. The only person to disembark was Guillem. The three of them met on the seashore. Mar stood aside to let the two men fling their arms round each other.
“God!” sobbed Arnau.
“Which God?” asked Guillem, almost too moved to speak. He pushed Arnau away and smiled a broad smile.
“The God of everyone,” replied Arnau, as happy as he was.
“Come here, my child,” said Guillem, releasing one arm.
Mar came up to the two men and put her arms round their waists.
“I’m not your child anymore,” she told him with a mischievous smile.
“You always will be,” said Guillem.
“Yes, that you will always be,” Arnau confirmed.
And so arm in arm they walked over and sat down by the remains of the previous evening’s fire.
“You are a free man, Arnau,” said Guillem when he had settled on the sand. “Here is the Inquisition’s ruling.”
“Tell me what it says,” Arnau asked him, refusing to take the document. “I’ve never read anything that came from you.”
“It says they are seizing your goods ...” Guillem glanced at Arnau, but saw no reaction. “And that you are sentenced to a year’s penitence wearing the cloak of repentance every Sunday for a year outside the doors of Santa Maria de la Mar. Beyond that, the Inquisition says that you are free.”
Arnau saw himself wearing the long penitent’s cloak with two white crosses painted on it, standing outside the doors of Santa Maria.
“I should have known you could do it when I saw you in the tribunal, but I was in no state—”
“Arnau,” said Guillem, interrupting him, “did you hear what I said? The Inquisition has seized all your possessions.”
For a while, Arnau said nothing.
“I was a dead man, Guillem,” he replied at length. “Eimerich wanted my blood. Besides, I would have given everything I have ... everything I used to have,” he corrected himself, taking Mar’s hand, “for these past few days.” Guillem looked at Mar and saw her beaming smile and glistening eyes. His child. He smiled too. “I have been thinking...”
“Traitor!” said Mar, pouting her lips in mock reproach.
Arnau patted her hand. “As far as I can remember, it must cost a lot of money for the king not to oppose the Barcelona
Guillem nodded.
“Thank you,” said Arnau.
The two men stared at each other.
“Well,” said Arnau, deciding to break the spell. “What about you? What has happened to you in all this time?”
THE SUN WAS high in
