the old saying about alcohol increasing desire but decreasing ability was exaggerated. Some of the best sex she and Will ever had was consummated when they were drunk. Of course, that had been a while back, when Will was in his mid-thirties. This thought disturbed the deep well of guilt inside her, but mixed with it was enough resentment to force the guilt down.
She picked up the Wild Turkey bottle and walked back toward her bedroom. Unexpected images flashed in her mind, scenes from a film she had seen long ago and forgotten until now. It starred Nicole Kidman. She couldn’t remember its name, but Nicole and her husband had been blue-water sailing and had rescued a man in a life raft. The man turned out to be psychotic, and sailed off from Nicole’s husband with her aboard. To go back and save her husband, Nicole had to get control of the boat again. But the psychopath had the gun. Before long, he decided to rape her, and what Karen remembered about the film-what had stayed with her long after-was that Nicole had let it happen. She had known it was the wrong moment to resist, and she had endured the rape in the hope of surviving until the right moment came. And it had arrived, finally, proving her sacrifice worthwhile.
As Karen neared the bedroom, words from her dead mother rose in her mind. A genteel woman speaking of rape in the language of older generations of southern women. The “fate worse than death,” they called it. But they were wrong. Pride had bred a lot of wrong notions, and that was one. Karen had lived long enough to know that. Rape could scar forever, but it was not death. Where there’s life, there’s hope, her father had always said. And whatever it cost, she and Abby were going to live through this night.
Hickey was smiling when she stepped through the door. “Wild Turkey!” he cried. “I’ll be damned. Bring that here!”
She crossed the room and gave him the bottle, then took three steps back.
“Scared I’ll bite?” He unscrewed the cap and drank liberally from the wide glass mouth, then set the bottle between his legs. “I’ll tell you a little secret. I do.”
She looked away.
“Put your pants back on,” he said.
What should have been a welcome command only made her more anxious. She went to the bed and slipped her panties on, then slid her jeans up and snapped them.
“Look at me,” Hickey said.
She looked.
His black eyes seethed. “You know what a lap dance is?”
Lurid images from HBO movies went through her mind. Scantily clad women hunching over bar patrons in chairs, wiggling their silicone-enhanced breasts in the faces of bachelor party boys and rheumy-eyed older men.
“No,” she replied.
“You’re lying. You know what one is. What you don’t know is, my wife had to do them for a living for a while. That bugged me, Karen. That she had to do that.”
So why didn’t you get a decent job? she thought. But what she said was, “I’m sorry she had to do that.”
His face went sullen. “All those bastards feeling her up, slobbering all over her. Your husband was probably one of them. She danced right here in Jackson.”
“Will doesn’t go to those places.”
Hickey’s eyes glinted. “Who you think you’re kidding? You think hubby never had a lap dance?”
“No. At least I don’t think so.”
“You’re living in a dream world. Ten to one, he’d have gotten one tonight on the coast, if this thing hadn’t come up. Hell, a weekend away from the old lady? Even one who looks like you do… a man needs a little variety.”
“That’s your wife with Will right now?”
“That’s right.”
Every time Hickey confided another detail, Karen became more convinced that he didn’t intend to let her live through this ordeal.
“What’s going on in that little head of yours?” he asked. “Trying to think your way out of the box?”
“Your wife doesn’t see anything wrong with kidnapping?”
“She doesn’t see anything wrong with anything I do. And if she does, she keeps quiet about it. Get the picture?”
“I think so.”
He took another slug of Wild Turkey. “We need some music. You got a stereo in that TV cabinet?”
Karen walked over and switched on the CD player. “What do you want to hear?”
“Something with a steady beat. You need a good beat for a lap dance. Not too fast, but not too slow either.”
With a growing sense of unreality, she scanned the CD rack. Will collected everything from classic rock to country and New Age. There was music here that made her feel sexy, but she didn’t want to taint it by being raped to its accompaniment. At a loss, she finally chose a Best of the 80s compilation. The first song was “Every Breath You Take” by the Police. The bass and drums began to pulse sinuously from speakers Will had mounted in the ceiling. When she turned, Hickey was nodding to the beat.
“That’s it,” he said. “Yeah. Come over here.”
She took a step closer to the ottoman.
“Dance.”
She would have laughed, were the situation not so desperate. It was like the old Westerns her father had loved so much, where the black-hatted gunfighter said the same line to the frightened homesteader.
“I said dance,” Hickey repeated.
Karen began to sway to the music, but she felt awkward. She had never been a good dancer. Will claimed she was, but she knew she lacked the effortless grace of some girls she had known growing up. Longlimbed creatures who, through some physical alchemy, absorbed sound waves and transformed that energy into purely sensual motion.
“Closer,” Hickey said.
Karen danced nearer the chair, but jerked back as Hickey’s hand reached toward her.
“It’s just money,” he said.
He was telling the truth. In his hand was a folded one-dollar bill.
“Come over here.”
She danced closer, and he stuffed the bill into the front pocket of her jeans.
“That means you gotta take something off,” he said, as though explaining the rules of a game.
She hesitated, then slowly unbuttoned her blouse until it hung from her shoulders.
“Shake it off.”
She did. Goose bumps raced across her back and shoulders.
“Those aren’t half bad,” Hickey said, staring at her bra.
Karen focused on the wall and kept swaying to the music, but her mind was spinning. How fast could the Wild Turkey dull his senses? How long could she distract him from what he really wanted?
“Lean over,” he ordered.
She bent slightly at the waist, and he rose up and stuffed a dollar bill into her bra.
“You know what that means, babe.”
She unsnapped her jeans, but Hickey shook his head. “The bra. The bra next.”
She almost stopped dancing. Part of her-the part that took no nonsense from anyone, man or woman- wanted to scream, If you’re going to rape me, just get it over with! But a wiser part of her knew that would be a mistake. Anything could happen between now and the moment he actually forced himself on her. Miracles could happen. Her bra hooked in front. Dancing a little more enthusiastically, she reached up and undid the catch, then threaded her fingers under the shoulder straps and slid off the cups with exaggerated sensuality.
“That’s better,” Hickey intoned. “Jesus, you look good. For a mother, I mean. You ought to get some implants, though.”
I don’t want any damn implants! she screamed silently. But she let the music penetrate further into her, and gave more of herself to it.
