first time—if she had made a mistake when she bought the apartment, if this was a suitable environment for a child. This was a safe building in a safe city, a privileged ambiance in which to grow up. But there weren’t many kids in the Pendleton, therefore few opportunities to have playmates. Winny had no interest in playmates; he always seemed to keep himself entertained. If he were to overcome his shyness, however, he needed to be around other kids his age, not just at school, but also playing and having fun.
Sitting on the footstool in front of her son’s armchair, Twyla said, “Honey, do you like it here in the Pendleton?”
“I don’t want to live in Nashville or L.A.,” he said at once.
“No, no,” she said. “That’s not what I mean. I don’t want to live in those places, either. I mean, maybe we could get a house in a regular neighborhood, not so fancy as this, a house with a yard, maybe near a park or something, where there’s lots of other kids. We could get a dog.”
“We could get a dog right here,” Winny said.
“Yes, we could, but it’s not as easy to take care of in the city as it would be in a suburb. Dogs like to have room to run.”
He frowned. “Anyway, you can’t just go and live in a regular neighborhood ’cause of who you are.”
“Who I am? I’m just me, just someone who writes songs. I’m nobody special.”
“You’ve been on TV sometimes. You even sang on TV that time. You sang really good.”
“I grew up in a regular neighborhood, you know. In fact it was a kind of shabby regular neighborhood.”
“Anyway, I don’t much like parks. I always get some itchy rash or something. You know how I get that rash. Or I can’t stop sneezing ’cause of the flowers and trees and all. Maybe it’s fun to go to a park in winter, you know, when everything’s all dead and frozen and covered in snow, but it’s not so great most of the year.”
She smiled. “So a park—that’s like a little piece of Hell right here on earth, huh?”
“I don’t know what Hell’s like, except probably hot. It must be worse than the park, since it’s the worst place ever. Let’s stay where we are.”
She loved Winny so much that she wanted to shout it out. She could hardly contain so much love. “I want you to be happy, kiddo.”
“I’m happy. Are you happy?”
“I’m happy with you,” she said. He was in his stocking feet. She took hold of his right foot by the toes and shook it affectionately. “Wherever I am, I’m happy if you’re there.”
He averted his eyes, embarrassed by her declaration of love. “I like it here okay. This place is cool. It’s different.”
“Anytime you want,” she said, “you could have kids from school for a sleepover or a Saturday afternoon.”
Frowning, he said, “What kids?”
“Any kids you want. Your friends. One or two, or a whole bunch, whoever.”
After a hesitation, alarmed by the thought of inviting kids home with him, Winny said, “Or you and me, maybe we could go to the park and stuff if that’s what you want.”
Rising from the footstool, she said, “You’re a gentleman. You really are.” She leaned over, kissed his forehead. “Dinner at six.”
“I’ll just sit here and read till then.”
“You have homework?”
“Did it in the car, coming back from school with Mrs. Dorfman.”
Mrs. Dorfman, the housekeeper, doubled as Winny’s chauffeur.
“Doesn’t sound like much homework for a Grace Lyman student.”
“It was a ton, but it was stuff that’s all easy for me. There wasn’t any awful math or anything.”
Twyla once told the boy that she had done well in math because it was a kind of music. Ever since, to support his determination to avoid being pushed into becoming a musician, Winny had pretended to find math difficult.
Lightning flashed, much softer than previously, but instead of glancing at the windows, the boy turned to regard the dark TV in the wall of cabinetry and bookshelves opposite his bed. Brow furrowed, his face settled into a look of wary expectation.
As thunder rolled instead of crashing like before, Twyla was overcome by intuitive motherly concern. “Is anything wrong, Winny?”
He met her eyes. “Anything like what?”
“Anything at all.”
After a hesitation, he said, “No. I’m okay.”
“You sure?”
“Yeah. I’m good. I feel good.”
“Love you, my little man.”
“Me too.” He blushed and opened one of the books in his lap.
