I did that. Putting my arms around her I touched bare skin, soft skin, soft yielding flesh. I lifted her and carried her the few steps to the bed and lowered her. She kept her arms around my neck. She was making some kind of a whistling noise in her throat. Then she thrashed about and moaned. This was murder. I was as erotic as a stallion. I was losing control. You don’t get that sort of invitation from that sort of woman very often anywhere.
Candy saved me. There was a thin squeak and I swung around to see the doorknob moving. I jerked loose and jumped for the door. I got it open and barged out through it and the Mex was tearing along the hall and down the stairs. Halfway down he stopped and turned and leered at me. Then he was gone
I went back to the door and shut it—from the outside this time. Some kind of weird noises were coming from the woman on the bed, but that’s all they were now. Weird noises. The spell was broken.
I went down the stairs fast and crossed into the study and grabbed the bottle of Scotch and tilted it; When I couldn’t swallow any more I leaned against the wall and panted and let the stuff burn in me until the fumes reached my brain.
It was a long time since dinner. It was a long time since anything that was normal. The whiskey hit me hard and fast and I kept guzzling it until the room started to get hazy and the furniture was all in the wrong places and the lamplight was like wildfire or summer lightning. Then I was flat out on the leather couch, trying to balance the bottle on my chest. It seemed to be empty. It rolled away and thumped on the floor.
That was the last incident of which I took any precise notice.
30
A shaft of sunlight tickled one of my ankles. I opened my eyes and saw the crown of a tree moving gently against a hazed blue sky. I rolled over and leather touched my cheek. An axe split my head. I sat up. There was a rug over me. I threw that off and got my feet on the floor. I scowled at a clock. The clock said a minute short of six-thirty.
I got up on my feet and it took character. It took will power. It took a lot out of me, and there wasn’t as much to spare as there once had been. The hard heavy years had worked me over.
I plowed across to the half bath and stripped off my tie and shirt and sloshed cold water in my face with both hands and sloshed it on my head. When I was dripping wet I toweled myself off savagely. I put my shirt and tie back on and reached for my jacket and the gun in the pocket banged against the wall. I took it out and swung the cylinder away from the frame and tipped the cartridges into my hand, five full, one just a blackened shell. Then I thought, what’s the use, there are always more of them. So I put them back where they had been before and carried the gun into the study and put it away in one of the drawers of the desk.
When I looked up Candy was standing in the doorway, spick and span in his white coat, his hair brushed back and shining black, his eyes bitter.
“You want some coffee?”
“Thanks.”
“I put the lamps out. The boss is okay. Asleep. I shut his door. Why you get drunk?”
“I had to.”
He sneered at me. “Didn’t make her, huh? Got tossed out on your can, shamus.”
“Have it your own way.”
“You ain’t tough this morning, shamus. You ain’t tough at all. ”
“Get the goddamn coffee,” I yelled at him.
“Hijo de la puta!”
In one jump I had him by the arm. He didn’t move. He just looked at me contemptuously. I laughed and let go of his arm.
“You’re right, Candy. I’m not tough at all. ”
He turned and went out. In no time at all he was back with a silver tray and a small silver pot of coffee on it and sugar and cream and a neat triangular napkin. He set it down on the cocktail table and removed the empty bottle and the rest of the drinking materials. He picked another bottle off the floor.
“Fresh. Just made,” he said, and went out.
I drank two cups black. Then I tried a cigarette. It was all right. I still belonged to the human race. Then Candy was back in the room again.
“You want breakfast?” he asked morosely.
“No, thanks.”
“Okay, scram out of here. We don’t want you around.”
“Who’s we?”
He lifted the lid of a box and helped himself to a cigarette. He lit it and blew smoke at me insolently.
“I take care of the boss,” he said. “You making it pay?” He frowned, then nodded. “Oh yes. Good money.”
“How much on the side—for not spilling what you know?”
He went back to Spanish. “No entendido.”
“You understand all right. How much you shake him for? I bet it’s not more than a couple of yards.”
“What’s that? Couple of yards.”
“Two hundred bucks.”
He grinned. “You give me couple of yards, shamus. So I don’t tell the boss you come out of her room last
