the man whom she loved—drift blindfold into marriage with such a woman as she had been? No! it was her duty to warn him. How? Could she break his heart, could she lay his life waste by speaking the cruel words which might part them forever? 'I can't tell him! I won't tell him!' she burst out, passionately. 'The disgrace of it would kill me!' Her varying mood changed as the words escaped her. A reckless defiance of her own better nature—that saddest of all the forms in which a woman's misery can express itself—filled her heart with its poisoning bitterness. She sat down again on the sofa with eyes that glittered and cheeks suffused with an angry red. 'I am no worse than another woman!' she thought. 'Another woman might have married him for his money.' The next moment the miserable insufficiency of her own excuse for deceiving him showed its hollowness, self-exposed. She covered her face with her hands, and found refuge—where she had often found refuge before—in the helpless resignation of despair. 'Oh, that I had died before I entered this house! Oh, that I could die and have done with it at this moment!' So the struggle had ended with her hundreds of times already. So it ended now.
The door leading into the billiard-room opened softly. Horace Holmcroft had waited to hear the result of Lady Janet's interference in his favor until he could wait no longer.
He looked in cautiously, ready to withdraw again unnoticed if the two were still talking together. The absence of Lady Janet suggested that the interview had come to an end. Was his betrothed wife waiting alone to speak to him on his return to the room? He advanced a few steps. She never moved; she sat heedless, absorbed in her thoughts. Were they thoughts of
'Grace!'
She sprang to her feet, with a faint cry. 'I wish you wouldn't startle me,' she said, irritably, sinking back on the sofa. 'Any sudden alarm sets my heart beating as if it would choke me.'
Horace pleaded for pardon with a lover's humility. In her present state of nervous irritation she was not to be appeased. She looked away from him in silence. Entirely ignorant of the paroxysm of mental suffering through which she had just passed, he seated himself by her side, and asked her gently if she had seen Lady Janet. She made an affirmative answer with an unreasonable impatience of tone and manner which would have warned an older and more experienced man to give her time before he spoke again. Horace was young, and weary of the suspense that he had endured in the other room. He unwisely pressed her with another question.
'Has Lady Janet said anything to you—'
She turned on him angrily before he could finish the sentence. 'You have tried to make her hurry me into marrying you,' she burst out. 'I see it in your face!'
Plain as the warning was this time, Horace still failed to interpret it in the right way. 'Don't be angry!' he said, good-humoredly. 'Is it so very inexcusable to ask Lady Janet to intercede for me? I have tried to persuade you in vain. My mother and my sisters have pleaded for me, and you turn a deaf ear—'
She could endure it no longer. She stamped her foot on the door with hysterical vehemence. 'I am weary of hearing of your mother and your sisters!' she broke in violently. 'You talk of nothing else.'
It was just possible to make one more mistake in dealing with her—and Horace made it. He took offense, on his side, and rose from the sofa. His mother and sisters were high authorities in his estimation; they variously represented his ideal of perfection in women. He withdrew to the opposite extremity of the room, and administered the severest reproof that he could think of on the spur of the moment.
'It would be well, Grace, if you followed the example set you by my mother and my sisters,' he said. '
To all appearance the rebuke failed to produce the slightest effect. She seemed to be as indifferent to it as if it had not reached her ears. There was a spirit in her—a miserable spirit, born of her own bitter experience—which rose in revolt against Horace's habitual glorification of the ladies of his family. 'It sickens me,' she thought to herself, 'to hear of the virtues of women who have never been tempted! Where is the merit of living reputably, when your life is one course of prosperity and enjoyment? Has his mother known starvation? Have his sisters been left forsaken in the street?' It hardened her heart—it almost reconciled her to deceiving him—when he set his relatives up as patterns for her. Would he never understand that women detested having other women exhibited as examples to them? She looked round at him with a sense of impatient wonder. He was sitting at the luncheon-table, with his back turned on her, and his head resting on his hand. If he had attempted to rejoin her, she would have repelled him; if he had spoken, she would have met him with a sharp reply. He sat apart from her, without uttering a word. In a man's hands silence is the most terrible of all protests to the woman who loves him. Violence she can endure. Words she is always ready to meet by words on her side. Silence conquers her. After a moment's hesitation, Mercy left the sofa and advanced submissively toward the table. She had offended him—and she alone was in fault. How should he know it, poor fellow, when he innocently mortified her? Step by step she drew closer and closer. He never looked round; he never moved. She laid her hand timidly on his shoulder. 'Forgive me, Horace,' she whispered in his ear. 'I am suffering this morning; I am not myself. I didn't mean what I said. Pray forgive me.' There was no resisting the caressing tenderness of voice and manner which accompanied those words. He looked up; he took her hand. She bent over him, and touched his forehead with her lips. 'Am I forgiven?' she asked.
'Oh, my darling,' he said, 'if you only knew how I loved you!'
'I do know it,' she answered, gently, twining his hair round her finger, and arranging it over his forehead where his hand had ruffled it.
They were completely absorbed in each other, or they must, at that moment, have heard the library door open at the other end of the room.
Lady Janet had written the necessary reply to her nephew, and had returned, faithful to her engagement, to plead the cause of Horace. The first object that met her view was her client pleading, with conspicuous success, for himself! 'I am not wanted, evidently,' thought the old lady. She noiselessly closed the door again and left the lovers by themselves.
Horace returned, with unwise persistency, to the question of the deferred marriage. At the first words that he spoke she drew back directly—sadly, not angrily.
'Don't press me to-day,' she said; 'I am not well to-day.'
He rose and looked at her anxiously. 'May I speak about it to-morrow?'
'Yes, to-morrow.' She returned to the sofa, and changed the subject. 'What a time Lady Janet is away!' she said. 'What can be keeping her so long?'
Horace did his best to appear interested in the question of Lady Janet's prolonged absence. 'What made her leave you?' he asked, standing at the back of the sofa and leaning over her.
'She went into the library to write a note to her nephew. By-the-by, who is her nephew?'
