Mister B. Gone

do I sound like in your head? Did you give me the voice of somebody you've always hated, or someone you love?

Oh wait, do I sound like you? No, do I? That would be weird, that would be so weird. It'd be like I didn't really exist, except in your head.

I, Mister Jakabok Botch, presently residing inside your skull…

No, I don't like that. I don't like that at all, for obvious reasons.

What reasons? Oh, come on, don't make me spell it out for you, friend. If I do, then I'm going to tell you the truth, and sometimes the truth isn't pretty. I might bruise your tender human feelings, and we wouldn't want that, would we?

On the other hand, I'm not going to start telling you lies now, not when we're so close to our little book- burning.

All right, I'll tell you. I'm just saying that I don't think anybody in their right mind would think of your head as prime location, that's all.

Your head's a slum. I've been here long enough to see it for myself. You're up to your skull lid with dirt and desperation. Oh, I'm sure you fool your more gullible friends and relatives with little tricks. I've seen them on your face, so don't try to deny it. You'd be surprised at how much I've seen looking up at you from these pages. The smile you put on when you're not sure what's true and what isn't. You don't want to show your ignorance, so on goes this little smile to cover up your confusion. You put it on when you're reading something you're not sure about. I bet you didn't know that. You put that little smile on for a book, believe it or not.

But you're not fooling me. I see all your guilty little secrets scurrying around behind your eyes, desperately trying to keep out of sight. They make your eyes flicker, did you know that? They jiggle back and forth really quickly whenever the conversation we've been having has moved on to something you're uncomfortable about. Let's see, when did I first notice it? Was it when I was talking about the family fighting and me picking up a kitchen knife to use on my father? Or was it when I first talked about the corrupt priest, Father O'Brien? I can't remember. We've talked about so much. But take it from me, your eyes put on quite a performance when you're nervous.

I can see right through you. There's nothing you can hide from me. Every vicious, corrupt notion that passes through your mind is there on your face, for all the world to see. No, I shouldn't say all the world. It's just me, really, isn't it? I get the private view. The only one who maybe knows you better than me is your mirror.

Wait, wait. How did I get on to talking about your mind. Oh yeah, me being resident inside your skull, your slummy skull.

Is it full enough now? Demonation knows, I've told you plenty. Sure, there are some details I've neglected. Most of the rest of the stuff is self-evident, isn't it? Obviously I didn't die, even with two wounds to my heart. Just as Quitoon had prophesied, every knife wound and cracked bone had healed eventually, leaving me with a constellation of small scars to accompany the Great Burn.

Speaking of burns, when we, that would be Quitoon and me, wandered back to the fringes of the forest and looked down over Joshua's Field, we discovered that while most of the condemned had long since gone up in smoke, the three sinners who were nailed upside down on the crosses in the middle of the half-circle of fires had yet to be put to the flame. The Archbishop was addressing them, enumerating their sins against the Laws of Heaven. Two of the condemned were men, the third a very young and very pregnant woman, her swollen belly, its skin shiny-tight, hanging down, decorated with rivulets of blood that ran from her crudely nailed feet. It was only when the Archbishop had finished his speech, and the three executioners carefully lit the base of each of the tinder piles that the crosses began to slowly rotate.

'That's clever,' I remarked.

Quitoon shrugged. 'I've seen better.'

'Where?'

'Anywhere they're causing harm to one another. That's where you really see human genius at work; war machines, torture instruments, execution devices. It's incredible what they create. They had the spinning crosses last October, for the execution of the previous Archbishop.'

'His women were nailed upon crosses, too?'

'No. Just the Archbishop, on the circling device. Anyway, it didn't work. It started to move, a bit jerkily, and then halfway round it stopped. But look at the skill of these people, they've solved the problem in just a few months. Those crosses are going 'round so smoothly.' He smiled. 'Look at them.'

'I'm looking.'

'It's a machine. Botch, a device for doing what Humankind can't do for itself! I swear, it will make a machine to fly, if it lives long enough.'

'It has enemies?'

'Only one. Itself. But the machines it makes are usually free of the stupidities of its inventors. I love machines, whatever they're for. I never get tired of watching them. Oh Demonation, listen to that screaming.' His smile grew broader still.

'It's the girl.'

'I suppose it's understandable. She's screaming for two.' He chuckled. 'Still, it's making my teeth ache. I think I'm going to take my leave. It's been quite a day, Mister B. Thank you.'

'Where are you going?'

'Right now, away from here.'

'But after that?'

'No particular plans. If I hear something interesting is being invented somewhere — whether it's a better rat trap or a machine that beats women who talk back to their husbands, I don't care — I'll just go. I've got plenty of time. Like I heard rumors yesterday that an angel had been caught in the Low Countries, helping someone invent a flower.'

'Do you know what an angel looks like?'

'I have no idea. What about you? Have you ever seen one?'

I shook my head.

'You want to see this angel?' Quitoon asked.

'What do you mean?'

'Demonation, you are dense! I'm asking if you want to come with me. It's a nomadic existence but every now and then you see somebody working on a project, usually in secret.'

The word sounded strange when he said it. He seemed to realize this fact, because he said:

'It's not really important, The Secret Thing. Things! I mean Things.'

'No, you don't.' I said. 'You mean a Thing. A single Thing. You can't fool me.'

Quitoon was plainly impressed. 'Yes!' he said. 'It is a single thing I'm hearing rumors about. Somebody's working to invent this secret thing that will…' He left the sentence unfinished.

'That will?' I said.

'Are you coming or staying? I need an answer, Botch!'

'That will what?'

'That will change the nature of Humankind forever.'

Now I was intrigued. Quitoon had a secret. A big secret.

'This is the biggest Secret since that thing about Christ,' Quitoon went on. 'I mean it.'

I glanced back across the Field to the woods on the far side. I knew it wouldn't be difficult to find my way back through the trees to the crack in the rocks where Cawley and his mob had hauled me up. Nor would it be that hard to make the descent. In a matter of hours I could be back in the comforting familiarity of the World Below.

'Well, Botch?'

'You really think there's an angel in the Low Countries?'

'Who knows? That's half the fun of it, not knowing.'

'I think maybe I need to chew it over for a little while.'

'Then I'll leave you to your chewing, Jakabok Botch. Did I tell you what a mouthful that name of yours is, by the way?'

He didn't wait long enough for me to tell him I heard that observation often. He just turned his back on the field, saying that he couldn't take another second of the girl's screams.