He wonders if Lev will have some pronouncement on the topic—after all, when it comes to God, Lev claimed to have all the answers. But all Lev says is, “I didn’t know you believed in God.”
Connor takes a moment to push his emotions down, then continues.
“Anyway, since it was legally ours, we paid for the funeral. It didn’t even have a name, and my parents couldn’t bear to give it one. It was just ‘Baby Lassiter,’ and even though no one had wanted it, the entire neighborhood came to the funeral. People were crying like it was their baby that had died. . . . And that’s when I realized that the people who were crying—they were the ones who had passed that baby around. They were the ones, just like my own parents, who had a hand in killing it.”
There’s silence now. The leaky flush handle drizzles. Next door in the boys’ bathroom a toilet flushes, and the sound echoes hollowly around them.
“People shouldn’t give away babies that get left at their door,” Lev finally says.
“People shouldn’t stork their babies,” Risa responds.
“People shouldn’t do a lot of things,” says Connor. He knows they’re both right, but it doesn’t make a difference. In a perfect world mothers would all want their babies, and strangers would open up their homes to the unloved. In a perfect world everything would be either black or white, right or wrong, and everyone would know the difference. But this isn’t a perfect world. The problem is people who think it is.
“Anyway, I just wanted you to know.”
In a few moments the bell rings, and there’s commotion in the hall. The bathroom door creaks open. Girls laughing, talking about everything and nothing.
Unending squeals from the door and constant tugs on Connor’s locked stall door. No one’s tall enough to look over, no one has any desire to look under. The late bell rings; the last girl hurries to class. They’ve made it to second period. If they’re lucky, this school will have a midmorning break. Maybe they can sneak out then. In Risa’s stall, the baby is making wakeful noises. Not crying but sort of clicking. On the verge of hungry tears.
“Should we change stalls?” asks Risa. “Repeat visitors might get suspicious if they see my feet in the same stall.”
“Good idea.” Listening closely to make sure he can’t hear any footfalls in the hall, Connor pulls open his stall, switching places with Risa. Lev’s door is open as well, but he’s not coming out. Connor pushes Lev’s door open all the way. He’s not there.
“Lev?” He looks to Risa, who just shakes her head. They check every stall, then check the one Lev was in again, as if he might reappear—but he doesn’t. Lev is gone. And the baby begins wailing for all it’s worth.
15. Lev
Lev is convinced his heart will explode in his chest.
It will explode, and he will die right here in a school hallway. Slipping out of the bathroom once the bell rang had been nerve-racking. He had unlocked his stall door, and had kept his hand on the handle for ten minutes waiting for the electronic buzz of the bell to mask the sound of its opening. Then he’d had to make it to the bathroom entrance without the others hearing his brand-new sneakers squeaking on the floor. (Why did they call them sneakers if it was so hard to sneak in them?) He couldn’t open that squealing door, then walk out by himself. It would be too conspicuous. So he waited until a bathroom-bound girl did it for him. Since the bell had just rung, he only had to wait a few seconds. She pulled open the door and he pushed his way past her, hoping she didn’t say anything that would give him away. If she commented about a boy being in the girl’s bathroom, Connor and Risa would know.
“Next time, wear a dress,” the girl said to him as he hurried away, and her friend laughed. Was that enough to alert Connor and Risa to his escape? He hadn’t turned back to find out, he had just pressed forward.
Now he’s lost in the hallways of the huge high school, his heart threatening to detonate at any second. A wild mob of kids hurrying to their next class surround him, bump him, disorient him. Most of the kids here are bigger than Lev. Imposing. Intimidating. This is how he always imagined high school—a dangerous place full of mystery and violent kids. He had never worried about it because he had always known he would never have to go. In fact, he only had to worry about getting partway through eighth grade.
“Excuse me, can you tell me where the office is?” he asks one of the slowermoving students.
The kid looks down at him as if Lev were from Mars. “How could you not know that?” And he just walks away shaking his head. Another, kinder kid points him in the right direction.
Lev knows that things must be put back on track. This is the best place to do it: a school. If there are any secret plans to kill Connor and Risa, it can’t happen here with so many kids around, and if he does this right, it won’t happen at all. If he does it right, all three of them will be safely on their way to their unwinding, as it ought to be. As it was
Being torn from his purpose was the most unnerving thing that had ever happened to Lev, but now he understands why God let it happen. It’s a lesson. It’s to show Lev what happens to children who shirk their destiny: They become lost in every possible way.
He enters the school’s main office and stands at the counter, waiting to be noticed, but the secretary is too busy shuffling papers. “Excuse me . . .”
Finally, she looks up. “Can I help you, dear?”
He clears his throat. “My name is Levi Calder, and I’ve been kidnapped by two runaway Unwinds.”
The woman, who really wasn’t paying attention before, suddenly focuses her attention entirely on him. “What did you say?”
“I was kidnapped. We were hiding in a bathroom, but I got away. They’re still there. They’ve got a baby, too.”
The woman stands up and calls out, her voice shaky, like she’s looking at a ghost. She calls in the principal, and the principal calls in a security guard.
A minute later, Lev sits in the nurse’s office, with the nurse doting on him like he’s got a fever.
“Don’t you worry,” she says. “Whatever happened to you, it’s all over now.”
From here in the nurse’s office, Lev has no way of knowing if they’ve captured Connor and Risa. He hopes that, if they have, they don’t bring them here. The thought of having to face them makes him feel ashamed. Doing the right thing shouldn’t make you ashamed.
“The police have been called, everything’s being taken care of,” the nurse tells him. “You’ll be going home soon.”
“I’m not going home,” he tells her. The nurse looks at him strangely, and he decides not to go into it. “Never mind. Can I call my parents?”
She looks at him, incredulous. “You mean, no one’s done that for you?” She looks at the school phone in the corner, then fumbles for the cell phone in her pocket instead. “You call and let them know you’re okay—and talk as long as you like.”
She looks at him for a moment, then decides to give him his privacy, stepping out of the room. “I’ll be right here if you need me.”
Lev begins to dial, but stops himself. It’s not his parents he wants to talk to.
He erases the numbers and keys in a different one, hesitates for a moment, then hits the send button.
It’s picked up on the second ring.
“Hello?”
“Pastor Dan?”
