Continental Phone Company, and she had heard things. it got like that.
'Atomic things,' Bill said that day, leaning in the Scout's window and blowing a healthy draught of Pabst into my face. 'That's what they're fooling around with up there.
Shooting atoms into the air and all that.'
' Giosti, the air's full of atoms,' Billy had said. 'That's what Neary says.
Neary says everything's full of atoms.' Bill Giosti gave my son Bill a long, bloodshot glance that finally deflated him.
'These are
'Oh, yeah,' Billy muttered, giving in.
Dick Muehler, our insurance agent, said the Arrowhead Project was an agricultural station the government was running, no more or less. 'Bigger tomatoes with a longer growing season,' Dick said sagely, and then went back to showing me how I could help my family most efficiently by dying young. Janine Lawless, our postlady, said it was a geological survey having something to do with shale oil. She knew for a fact, because her husband's brother worked for a man who had Carmody, now... she probably leaned more to Bill Giosti's view of the matter. Not just atoms, but
I cut two more chunks off the big tree and dropped them over the side before Billy came back with a fresh beer in one hand and a note from Steff in the other. If there's anything Big Bill likes to do more than run messages, I don't know what it could be.
'Thanks,' I said, taking them both.
'Can I have a swallow?'
'Just one. You took two last time. Can't have you running around drunk at ten in the morning.'
'Quarter past,' he said, and smiled shyly over the top of the can. I smiled backnot that it was such a great joke, you know, but Billy makes them so rarely-and then read the note.
'Got JBQ on the radio,' Steffy had written. 'Don't get drunk before you go to town. You can have one more, but that's it before lunch. Do you think you can get up our road okay?' I handed him the note back and took my beer. 'Tell her the road's okay because a power truck just went by. They'll be working their way up here.'
'Okay.'
'Champ
'What, Dad?'
'Tell her everything's okay.' He smiled again, maybe telling himself first. 'Okay.' He ran back and I watched him go, legs pumping, soles of his zori showing. I love him. It's his face and sometimes the way his eyes turn up to mine that make me feel as if things are really okay. It's a lie, of course-things are not okay and never have been-but my kid makes me believe the lie.
I drank some beer, set the can down carefully on a rock, and got the chainsaw going again. About twenty minutes later I felt a light tap on my shoulder and turned, expecting to see Billy again. Instead it was Brent Norton. I turned off the chainsaw.
He didn't look the way Norton usually looks. He looked hot and tired and unhappy and a little bewildered.
'Hi, Brent,' I said. Our last words had been hard ones, and I was a little unsure how to proceed. I had a funny feeling that he had been standing behind me for the last five minutes or so, clearing his throat decorously under the chainsaw's aggressive roar. I hadn't gotten a really good look at him this summer. He had lost weight, but it didn't look good. It should have, because he had been carrying around an extra twenty pounds, but it didn't. His wife had died the previous November. Cancer. Aggie Bibber told Steffy that.
Aggie was our resident necrologist. Every neighborhood has one. From the casual way Norton had of ragging his wife and belittling her (doing it with the contemptuous ease of a veteran matador inserting
'Hi, Dave,' he said, after a long moment of awkward silence—a silence that was made even louder by the absence of the chainsaw's racket and roar. He stopped, then blurted: 'That tree. That damn tree. I'm sorry. You were right.' I shrugged.
He said, 'Another tree fell on my car.'
'I'm sorry to h—” I began, and then a horrid suspicion dawned. 'It wasn't the TBird, was it?'
'Yeah. It was.' Norton had a 1960 Thunderbird in mint condition, only thirty thousand miles. It was a deep midnight blue inside and out. He drove it only summers, and then only rarely.
He loved that Bird the way some men love electric trains or model ships or targetshooting pistols.
'That's a bitch,' I said, and meant it.
He shook his head slowly. 'I almost didn't bring it up. Almost brought the station wagon, you know. Then I said what the hell, I drove it up and a big old rotten pine fell on it. The roof of it's all bashed in. And I thought I'd cut it up... the tree, I mean... but I can't get my chainsaw to fire up... I paid two hundred dollars for that sucker... and... and... ' His throat began to emit little clicking sounds. His mouth worked as if he were toothless and chewing dates. For one helpless second I thought he was going to stand there and bawl like a kid on a sandlot. Then he got himself under some halfway kind of control, shrugged, and turned away as if to look at the chunks of wood I had cut up.
'Well, we can look at your saw,' I said. 'Your T-Bird insured ?'
'Yeah,' he said, 'like your boathouse.' I saw what he meant, and remembered again what Steff had said about insurance.