Suicide Notes

If you are depressed or having thoughts about suicide you are not alone. Many of us have these thoughts, and it does not mean you’re a freak or crazy or a bad person. There are numerous causes of depression and suicidal thoughts, and it’s important that you talk to someone about how you’re feeling. Trust me—no matter how horrible you feel or how bad things seem, there is always a way out. Suicide is never your only option.

If you feel safe talking to a friend or a parent or someone else you trust, ask them to help you find someone qualified to work with you to understand your feelings and to provide the support you need. If you do not feel you can speak to anyone you know about your feelings, there are online and telephone services available providing confidential assistance to people struggling with thoughts of suicide. Two of the most respected are:

The Trevor Project

The Trevor Project is a 24-hour, toll-free service that provides help for gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgender, and questioning young people in crisis. If you are gay or think you might be gay, and would like to speak to someone about your thoughts of depression or suicide, call the number on the next page to reach a counselor. You can also visit the group’s website or MySpace page for more information.

1-866-4-U-TREVOR

1-866-488-7386Website: www.thetrevorproject.org

MySpace: www.myspace.com/trevorproject

The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is a 24-hour, toll-free service providing information and referrals to people struggling with thoughts of self-harm. Their counselors can connect you with support organizations in your area that offer immediate help.

1-800-273-TALK

1-800-273-8255Website: www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org

MySpace: www.myspace.com/suicidepreventionlifeline

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Copyright

Suicide Notes

Copyright © 2008 by Michael Thomas Ford

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Ford, Michael Thomas.

Suicide notes / Michael Thomas Ford. — 1st ed.

p. cm.

Summary: Brimming with sarcasm, fifteen-year-old Jeff describes his stay in a psychiatric ward after attempting to commit suicide.

ISBN 978-0-06-073757-3

[1. Suicide—Fiction. 2. Psychiatric hospitals—Fiction. 3. Homosexuality—Fiction.] I. Title.

PZ7.F7532119Su 2008

[Fic]—dc22

2008019199

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First paperback edition, 2010

EPub Edition © 2010 ISBN: 9780062043078

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