“All right, Levit got all these papers filled out and signed. I went over them with him to make sure there had been no mistakes in them. Then he took it all back to OVIR in Sebastopol and paid a forty-ruble filing fee. After that he had to wait five months.
“At the end of the five months he was informed by OVIR that his job was sensitive and important. Therefore his exit passport and visa were being denied.
“I had expected as much, and warned him, but you can imagine the man’s desperation. We convinced him to stick to it. He filed the necessary appeal. Three months later his appeal was denied. It was only then that I was allowed, by the regulations of our own organization, to act. Even so, in many of these cases we do nothing further. The applicant after another year’s waiting is allowed to apply again.”
“For an exit visa?”
“For a new
“I gather it didn’t take Levit eight years.”
“The man hadn’t the patience. He was beginning to drink a great deal, which was not like him-ordinarily drunkenness is a Slavic trait which the Jews despise. He and his wife were despondent. Their children were being subjected to cruel harassment in school. Both husband and wife had been dismissed from their jobs.”
“If he’d been dismissed they couldn’t deny him his visa again on the grounds of the sensitivity of his work.”
Bukov nodded-that was true. “He might have been successful if he’d tried it again. But he’d have had to wait twelve months to start, and it would have been at least six months-more likely another year-before it ended. Two years, with no income. They were despondent enough to be talking about suicide. Both of them. They told me they had considered it. I was not prepared to take the risk they would do it.”
“So you smuggled them out of the Soviet Union?”
“In some cases we merely arrange false papers-the
“What reasons?”
“Principally the psychological state of the Levits. They were nervous wrecks, both of them. Very likely they’d have broken under the strain of interrogations and checkpoints, regardless of how serviceable their documents had been. If they’d exposed themselves they’d have exposed many of us too. We preferred to avoid that risk. So we smuggled them out, yes.”
“How?”
“I’m not at liberty to explain the details. You understand.”
“All right,” I said. “Why have you told me all this?”
“To gain your sympathy. Do I have it?”
“Up to a point.”
“Up to what point, Mr. Bristow? The point of willingness to help us?”
MacIver had been right. I felt as if Nikki had kicked me in the pit of the stomach.
I straightened up on the bench. “I don’t think so. I’m sorry.”
He didn’t fight. “I understand. I had hoped …”
“Under other circumstances I might have.” That was a shabby attempt and I regretted it the instant I had spoken. But I didn’t retract it; it was too late for that.
I don’t know if he understood what I meant. If Nikki hadn’t chosen to take advantage of our relationship in such a way I might have been far more open to his suggestion. But I wasn’t sure of that; I’m still not sure what I might have done under other circumstances. Anyone who is exposed to the product of the modern world’s massive news-gathering machinery learns very quickly that he cannot possibly concern himself with even a small fraction of the injustice and misery that infects his planet. And since he cannot help
The moral rectitude of such a course is dubious but the pragmatic necessity is clear. In such a mood of defensive isolation I might well have reasoned that the Jews now had a strong and capable ally-the people and government of Israel-and that I, who was neither a smuggler nor a Jew, had no obligation to assist them. I might have; I might not. I can’t say. The issue was clouded by Nikki’s involvement in it; this was what I reacted to-it was my personal sense of betrayal that dictated my decision.
Bukov got to his feet, carrying the umbrella. “I apologize for taking so much of your time.”
“It’s quite all right.”
“We’d better get back. Your friend will be waking up soon.”
We walked through the dim empty station. As we passed through the door and he unfurled the umbrella he said, “Please remember my offer of assistance. If the need arises, I’m at your service.”
“I shouldn’t think you owe me anything.”
“It wasn’t intended as a bargaining point, Mr. Bristow. The two questions are separate. The one never depended on the other.”
“Well since I’m not joining your fifth column I don’t see how the need should arise.”
“I hope it won’t,” he said with resonant sincerity, and we picked our way across the square, around the puddles.
* March 9, 1973.-Ed.
* The Soviet Committee for State Security
* Respectively, “Hebrew” and “Jew.”-Ed.
† Respectively, “yids” and “Abies.”-Ed.
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* Presumably Bukov was referring to Sebastopol.-Ed.
11
There were questions I should have asked Bukov but they didn’t occur to me until we were driving back to Sebastopol that night with rain oiling across the windshield and Timoshenko hunching over the steering wheel, peering out, trying to keep the car on the road. I should have asked Bukov exactly what Nikki had told him about me-exactly what instructions she had given him, and what kind of help he wanted from me. Wasn’t it possible that I was reading too much into it? Perhaps they only wanted inconsequential assistance from me-the sort of thing you would ask any friend who happened to be traveling in an area from which you required something.
I tried to believe that but it didn’t work. Any trivial favor in the area could have been done by Bukov himself or members of his group. If they wanted my help it meant they wanted to use my mobility-the fact that I was soon leaving the Soviet Union. It could only mean smuggling, whether of documents or something else: information perhaps, the sort of thing you could carry in your head-verbal messages.
No, it wasn’t that either. They already had lines of communication-otherwise how could Nikki have got the