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to kill they may as well have been human?”

I wanted him mad. I wanted him furious. It was the one way I could think of for him to make a mistake. He’d been arrogant in the basement and I’d taken advantage of it. But Grimm’s life and existence were testament to how fast he learned. Making the same mistake most likely wouldn’t happen. Fool him once…

He wasn’t making this one either. “I am a copy in that I covet what you covet. Black. Leather. Things that kill. Good taste runs in the family. But all is superficial. A Caliban costume for the game. I am your opposite in the ways of the real world. It’s how it should be. Black to white.” Our hair. “Pale to brown.” Our skin. “Storm clouds to spilled blood.” Our eyes. “But we do have one thing that is the same. We have an identical need. We will make the Second Coming not one or the other of what we are, but the whole of what we can be.” Without any sign or warning, he fired and I felt the bullet burn the skin on the side of my neck as he shifted aim while pulling the trigger. For intimidation, not killing.

Good shooting?

You goddamn betcha.

“The whole of what we will be.” He tapped what had to be the still-hot muzzle against his silver hair, no concern I’d shoot back.

“The baddest motherfuckers on the planet?” I said with a shell of boredom I wouldn’t let him see through. I would’ve shot back, but I knew the answer to his quiz. He could gate faster than a bullet could fly.

He laughed. “The way you play the game, brother, I won’t mind when all is said and done and the Bae rule, if you finally win over me.”

“It won’t take that long, trust me, and I don’t have your need.” While he remained calm and patient, I was the one losing my temper. The fake wall of boredom was beginning to crack, but I held it together with everything I had in me. I didn’t have a choice. Grimm dressed like me and carried a gun the same as one of mine, but he’d said it. That was superficial. The way he shot—that wasn’t. If he wasn’t my equal, he was close. Or vice versa.

“You know you do, Caliban. Ahhh, you know you do. Your cattle brother knows. Your goat knows. But they don’t know how strong your need is and how tired you are of denying it.” The grin went back to human. “But right now my need is for a drink.” This time there was a tornado, a sideways swirl that opened behind him. “I know how you feel about your so-called enemies. Don’t make me find out how you feel about your fellow workers. Neither of us would care for that. I’ve never liked chicken.” He fell backward into the gray and it swallowed him up, but his last words—the bastard always had the last word—lingered behind. “But I am curious: When you twist a peri’s head off, how long do they run around, flapping their wings, before they finally fall down?”

Shit. I could call the bar and clear it out, but it was too late. He was already there.

I pushed down the anger. He’d wait awhile. He’d think it was part of the game and he liked the way I played it. He’d like it less if he found out the reason I was unpredictable was because I couldn’t gate. Three more days, counting today and I’d gate him inside out.

The fight had gone out of the boggles, if they’d had it at all. Boggles were predators without remorse, butchers and devourers of criminals and careless humans, but they knew the concept of family. They continued to mourn. The boglets rocking back and forth. The mother trying repeatedly to put her two dead children back together. She tore at the dirt outside the pit to make thicker mud and attempt to paste the head of the one boglet on his neck. The one sliced apart at the waist, she buried the lower half again and then its upper half to its chest. “Alive? Alive?” She would prop it up and croon, grooming the neck scales with her teeth. But its head flopped and though the mud up to its armpits kept it from falling over, the shoulders slumped, its chin rested against its chest, and the eyes had gone from fire to ash.

Enemies, but enemies I’d dragged into something they had no part of. Two of their family had been viciously torn apart because of me. Two dead children—size and bloodthirsty disposition was meaningless. They’d been half-grown children all the same. There was no sorry for that. No asking for forgiveness.

“Alive? Alive?” The hope was dying.

There was destroying the creature that had done it and the monster, the monster too much like me, who had pushed it into action.

That was it. It wouldn’t be enough. Yet all I could do.

“Alive?” Fading.

I put my gun away as Niko unsheathed the metal from Kalakos’s shoulder.

“Alive?” All but gone.

“Grimm is right,” I said distantly. “I need a drink.”

17

We’d gone home. All of us. We needed it. A respite. Several near-deaths and death itself called for it. Home was the closest thing to putting you right, particularly when you’d spent most of your life on the run: your mother from the cops, you from the Auphe. When you do find a place you can stop, own things that are more than can be packed in a garbage bag, you don’t take it for granted.

Robin went back to his condo and mummified cats. Niko and I returned to the garage apartment that was drenched in two or three inches of water from a new skylight, a gift of Janus. Everything in the main area was ruined…except the couch that I’d gated to Goodfellow’s condo when the automaton had come through our roof. The TV was dead from the rain that had run down the wall. I didn’t mourn as the boggles mourned, but I wasn’t happy about it either. The workout mats were underwater, as was the rest of the floor. Everything was wet and already smelling of mold.

It made no difference in the end. It was home. Correction: It was home for two of us. The third, Kalakos, it was not his home. But until Janus was taken care of, he had no intention of staying in a hotel.

That he was around to have intentions or a lack of them, he should’ve been damn thankful. He’d made an attempt to keep Niko from going after Robin and me in Boggle’s pit. He’d said it was too late. We were gone and they had the boglets coming for them. He was doing what he could to save Niko as he’d saved him before from the Cyclops.

He could’ve thought he was doing the right thing. He hadn’t seen Niko grow up, but in the past two days I’d have thought he’d have learned that, hell, no, what he did wasn’t the right thing. When it came to Niko’s manner of thinking, what he’d done was a crime, a sword the punishment, the homicide justifiable, and the justice karmic.

But bottom line to the philosophy of Niko’s morals and what flipped them upside down was simple: Don’t insult his brother, don’t fuck with his brother, and don’t get between him and his brother.

“I was doing what I could to keep him alive. I thought you and the puck were beyond hope. Do you think I was wrong?”

My bedroom was relatively dry, thanks to my habit of keeping my dirty laundry as well as most of my clean laundry on the floor. It was a system. It worked and it had soaked up the water that we splashed through in every other room.

Coming home was necessary and going into my room was a second homecoming. I was able to wear my own clothes after showering off the mud from the park. I’d lucked out and done a load of laundry the morning before Janus had attacked us. I’d dumped half of it on and half off my unmade bed. I wouldn’t have to wear something off the floor that’d have to dry on my body. I put on my holster and shrugged into my jacket. The first had been ripped to shreds by Janus when he’d attacked me outside the Ninth Circle. But I had backups. The holsters and jackets were the two things I didn’t leave on the floor. I hung them from four hooks I’d jammed into the wall. I had three of each, three holsters and three jackets. The holsters hung on one hook, but each jacket had its own. I used hangers, believe it or not, but I took my jackets seriously.

“Was I wrong?” Kalakos demanded with a sharpness that was a clue to how he went about his business… with impatience that would lead to threats and on to the results of those threats. Then the inevitable boring cleanup of whatever was left. When it came to personality and ethics (too much of one and not enough of the