pin on the lapel, hung over the door. Laura was right, absolutely right, he thought. His years of obsession with work, and now the promotion that he felt would validate that commitment, had blanketed his perspective like a fog.
Suddenly, the mist was burning away.
He undid the pin.
Wherever you go for as long as you live, there are people who are going to need what you can do.
It was such a simple truth. But over the years of his immersion in White Memorial he had lost sight of it completely.
He studied the pin for a few moments. Then he took it to the small balcony off his living room and hurled it out into the night.
When he stepped back inside the apartment, his phone was ringing. He hurried to the bedroom.
'Hi,' he said, assuming the caller to be Laura.
'Dr. Najarian,' the distorted, electrolarynx voice said, 'we're glad you made it home. We've been trying to reach you.'
'Who is this?' Eric demanded, sinking down on the edge of his bed.
'Who I am-who we are-will be disclosed to you when it is Appropriate to do so.'
The robotic voice was as chilling as before.
'What do you want?'
'You have been wearing our symbol. In three days the search committee will select you as the new associate director of White Memorial emergency services. But first, tomorrow morning we will have work for you to do.'
'Stop right there,' Eric said. 'I've decided not to participate.
In fact, I'm not even on duty tomorrow.'
'You are on the schedule. That was checked.'
'Reed Marshall switched with me. I'm not on until the day after tomorrow.'
'Then you must switch back.'
Eric's ear was beginning to throb from the pressure of the receiver.
'I don't think you heard me,' he said. 'I've decided not to participate.'
'You have no choice,' the voice responded. 'You put on the caduceus.
That was your choice. Now there is a treatment protocol which must be instituted by you tomorrow morning.'
'What kind of treatment protocol?' Eric asked, feeling panic begin to take hold. 'On whom?'
'You will be instructed when you report for work tomorrow.
'I'm not going to work.'
'Three days, Dr. Najarian- In three days you will get the appointment that you have been hoping for.
But only if you complete your part of the bargain. We have that power.
Believe me, we do. Is that clear?'
'I want to know who you are.'
'You have not yet earned that privilege, Doctor.'
'And I… I don't intend to.'
'Dr. Najarian. We know and you know what is at stake for you.' … I hope you get it. But if you don't, then maybe it's because something better is in store for you. … The worst thing that will happen if you don't get the promotion is that something else will happen for you…
'Look,' Eric said with sudden intensity, 'you're right. I do want that position. I want it a lot. But I want it based on the work I've done these last five years, not on whether or not I join some club.'
'Caduceus is not a club, Dr. Najariap-. It is a group of dedicated people on the verge of the most important breakthrough in medicine in modern times.
This breakthrough will save millions of lives. We need you.'
'I Eric felt his resolve beginning to falter.
Once again he heard Laura's voice. He thought about his decisions at the bedside of Thomas- Jordan.
Whether he had made the right choices that day or not, his ambition had influenced his thinking. Thanks to Laura, at least now he could admit that much to himself.
'Well, Doctor,' the eerie voice urged, 'what is it going to be?'
'I… I can't help you,' Eric said.
'You don't understand.'
'I know I don't, dammit. You won't tell me enough to understand.'
Eric sensed growing strength in his voice. 'Well, now I don't want to understand. Putting your pin on was a mistake. You have my apology for doing it. But I've taken it off. Just before you called I threw it away. You'll have to find someone else to help do whatever it is you want.'
The dispassionate voice grew more menacing.
'Refuse to help us now, and we guarantee that you will be off the staff of White Memorial before the month is out.'
'If you have to do that to me, that's your problem,' Eric heard himself say. 'I'll get by.'
'You are making a grave mistake,' the voice said.
'Well, I'm sure it won't be my last.'
Eric's hand was shaking mercilessly as he set the receiver down in its cradle.
Seated on a doorstep across the street from the Hotel Carlisle, Larry Dexstall angrily stubbed out his cigarette and stared up at the darkened hotel windows. It had been a long day, long week-and he was desperately in need of a few hours of sleep.
Laura Enders's light had gone on and off several times, suggesting she was having trouble drifting off.
Once he had seen her at the window, and twice he had seen the flickering light of her TV. Now it was nearly 2:00 A.m. At 4:00, if the light stayed off, he would go upstairs to the room he had rented and take his chances for an hour or two. It would be a disaster to lose her at this point, but thanks to Neil Harten, starting at sunup he would have to be especially sharp.
From the moment Laura Enders left Co'mmunigistics, Dexstall had been following her. He had watched her save an old lady from a mugging. He had followed as she went from store to store, hotel to hospital, refusing to sit down or even slow down for hours at a time.
He had watched her interact with people, and had learned her habits and her ways.
Tonight, he had seen her meet a man.
Over the week, he had developed a lot of respect for the woman-not a surprising reaction, given that for nearly seven years he had been as close to Scott Enders as anyone in Plan B. H[e was certain Neil Harten had chosen to use him because of that closeness and his determination to learn what had happened to Scott.
From the beginning Dexstall had been against holding back what little information they had from the woman. But Harten had insisted, maintaining that the less she knew, the more vigorously she would approach her search, and the more likely she would be to stir something up.
Now, suddenly impatient, Harten had decided to up the ante.
Instead of being the guide, Laura Enders was to become the bait. It stank, and Dexstall had just hung up from telling as much to the man.
But Neil Harten had carte blanche to do whatever the hell he wanted. And over the day just past, he had taken the information his contacts had turned up, and had started sending out the he that Laura knew where her brother had hiaden a certain tape.
He had also ordered Larry Dexstall to be damn sure he was right there when someone responded.
Dexstall waited a few minutes longer, then trudged to an all-night coffee shop to write the note that was part of Harten's new ploy. If only Scott had stuck to the goddam weapons assignment. But Dexstall knew that taking chances and thinking for himself were what made the man so good at what he did.
Dexstall smoothed a piece of paper out on the table and began to write the words Neil Harten had given him. for days he had done a decent job of keeping track of Laura Enders, losing her,just once.
Beginning at sun-up, he would be on her like glue.
