what? A grand a day, this time a year? Two grand?'
He is way low, but the miscalculation is music to Blind Willie Garfield's ears. It means that his silent partner is not watching him too closely or too frequently . . . not yet, anyway. But he doesn't like the anger in Wheelock's voice. Anger is like a wild card in a poker game.
'You're no more blind than I am,' Wheelock repeats. Apparently this is the part that really gets him. 'Hey, pal, you know what? I ought to follow you some night when you get off work, you know? See what you do.' He pauses. 'Who you turn into.'
For a moment Blind Willie actually stops breathing . . . then he starts again.
'You wouldn't want to do that, Officer Wheelock,' he says.
'I wouldn't, huh? Why not, Willie? Why not? You lookin out for my welfare, is that it?
Afraid I might kill the shitass who lays the golden eggs? Hey, what I get from you in the course of a year ain't all that much when you weigh it against a commendation, maybe a promotion.' He pauses. When he speaks again, his voice has a dreamy quality which Willie finds especially alarming. 'I could be in the
ON FIFTH AVENUE.'
'Says Garfield on your glove there, but I'd bet Garfield ain't your name. I'd bet dollars to doughnuts.'
'That's a bet you'd los e.'
'Says you . . . but the side of that glove looks like it's seen more than one name written there.
'It was stolen when I was a kid.' Is he talking too much? It's hard to say. Wheelock has managed to catch him by surprise, the bastard. First the phone rings while he's in his office —
good old Ed from Nynex — and now this. 'The boy who stole it from me wrote his name in it while he had it. When I got it back, I erased his and put mine on again.'
'And it went to Vietnam with you?'
'Yes.' It's the truth. If Sullivan had seen that battered Alvin Dark fielder's mitt, would he have recognized it as his old friend Bobby's? Unlikely, but who could know? Sullivan never
'Went to this Achoo Valley with you, did it?'
Blind Willie doesn't reply. Wheelock is trying to lead him on now, and there's noplace Wheelock can lead that Willie Garfield wants to go.
'Went to this Tomboy place with you?'
Willie says nothing.
'Man, I thought a tomboy was a chick that liked to climb trees.'
Willie continues to say nothing.
'The
'You'd be in the
It is Wheelock's turn to stop breathing. When he starts again, the puffs of breath in Blind Willie's ear have become a hurricane; the cop's moving mouth is almost on his skin. 'What do you mean?' he whispers. A hand settles on the arm of Blind Willie's field jacket. 'You just tell me what the fuck you mean.'
But Blind Willie continues silent, hands at his sides, head slightly raised, looking attentively into the darkness that will not clear until daylight is almost gone, and on his face is that lack of expression which so many passersby read as ruined pride, courage brought low but somehow still intact.